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Saturday, February 20, 2010 @ 11:42:00 PM
i think i finally get what josh harris was going on about. it really... hurts. i have literally lost all concentration on anything. snap out of it already, fcuk. i dont know what to do damnyou. its superfast. why is it always so fast ? i dont even remember how it happened. but it did and now im hating myself for it. i told myself not to go. i told myself who knows what would happen if i did go paying the consequences. =_= why must it be this year/ someone deactivate my facebook account. stop stalking. do chandra homework that was due like five hours ago. finish history essay thats worth so much that i dont seem to care anything about because my mind has just gone haywire. i cant DO THIS. but i have to and i hate this up-downy. crap. can you please not go =_= why am i so selfish. i feel like, leftover. second choice. or third, or fourth. nth. why is it always me? proverbs 3:5-6 need to do devo. read matthew. stay up till 3am so i wont forget. im going to miss you terribly you faggot ): but you probably act like that to everyone. which should be a good thing. i told cynf that i wasnt like that. that i wouldnt really care. and today i figured that i do? wtf. so much to say to you. but i dont know if you care enough to listen. do you even want to talk to me sometimes? why were you being so distant today ? im such an idiot. i always jinx everything. i hate that. as you can probably tell, im in a very... unhappy mood. joy, is found in Christ. and Christ only. cant trust worldly things to keep me happy because they dont last. stop feeling sorry for yourself. i cant believe i forgot aha. silly stupid me. damn damn damn damn school, please finish soon. i cant stand this. CAN I NOT. i feel like i should just watch the notebook so i have a reason a more valid one a more valid and better reason to feel like this. capped. just get back up when love knocks you down. kiss the rain - yiruma its over/ so just GET OVER IT ALREADY. I WANT TO WATCH DEAR JOHN it scares me. i think im going to cry bucketfuls when watching it for some reason, i think i like causing myself pain. whats the word m-something. why is channing tatum so hot? hahahhaa. laughter is always the best medicine. and then i remember how much you make me laugh. AAAAH IM SO PATHETICCC ): back to the top? 0 comments
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