26/ getting text messages make me happy.

there are a few people who seriously have made my life a lot easier these days.
easier as in, worry less, stress less, feel happier with.
its strange how, in these last few months of high school,
i start to treasure friendships so so so much more.
not that i never did or anything P: hahaha.
but im more grateful for you people, and its humbling to have such awesome support units (;

1. believe it or not but you make it so much easier to accept crap exam marks. like today, and with 2u maths, sitting next to you is good. i dont know, its just that, you dont judge my crappiness, and when i slap myself and cringe epicly at my marks you just continue to support me and remind me to work harder. i need that, so thankssomuch (:

2. im amazed at how much stuff ive forgotten about the past, and im so freaking sorry about it because i miss it more than i actually want to. i wish that my memories werent about the crap stuff and more about how much you guys were there for me instead. why i had to always think about the negative things then remains a mystery to me, so im really grateful that this is a second chance of sorts. i think ive grown much closer to you within these few weeks, and honestly thanks so much for the mass of encouragement~

3. bleh. you... are still so confusing to me. i hate how i want to be important in your life, yet theres never any chances to be. looking back, there were so many times that i could have told you so much, but no regrets in life, right? (: i miss you. a whole lot of wishful thinking and waiting to go.

4. you were in my dream last night HAHA. it was quite awkward when i saw you today LOL. i still dont understand why you asked me that question those months (?) ago, but thats okay. some things in life are just not meant to be understood haha. goodluck with all your stuff you nerd, i hope that after hsc ends, and uni starts, we'll still remain close friends ^^.

5. omg!!! HAHAHA. stop making me laugh so much okays!! you are so smart, i dont think you give enough credit to yourself. im jealous of you sometimes, but for reasons that i dont think ill ever tell you. youre like, one of those people who can make me smile, ALWAYS. and for reasons that normal people wouldnt get. because youre weird like that bahaha. im glad that i can be a good friend to you (:

6. sometimes, i imagine the whatifs between us. theres not that many that really run through my head haha. but still, no regrets. i wish you the very best in life, and seriously? what is the real reason behind that new style? LOLLL.

7. its amazing how much i trust you. maybe its just kus ive known you for so long, or just because weve been through so much together. i dont know. but theres one thing in life that i really really really really hope youll let me be in your life. i dont know if youre going to let me be it, but im worried that ill be really cut if im not. i shouldnt, but i think i will. ): so sorries in advance! and its not like i can ask you for it, because thats just being selfish.

8. i wish that i had invited you to my birthday party. then i wouldnt always be feeling so guilty +_+

9. BROWNIES FOR CHURCH CAMP. THATS ALL I WANT TO SAY D: and also, we miss youuuu. its funny that weve been friends for so so so so so long hahaha. i should have treasured our family outings so much more. POKEMON IN THE SNOWY MOUNTAINS, dyu remember? that was so fun HAHA.

10. you know, most people would hate you and be so jealous of you because you are so freaking damn genius, but i find it funny that im just so epicly proud of you. im proud and i feel so privileged to know you P: just wait until you win a nobel prize of some sort, ill be like DUDE I KNOW HER. actually, even better, i hope to be able to congratulate you facetoface at some family dinner afterwards kay. DEAL.

the end (:

exam marks are crappy.
rock bottom is going up.