I think it’s starting to hit me now. I’m exhausted from crying so randomly after the assembly today, that I went home and just slept until dinner. Like I was fine all up until I saw Minna and she had tears and I just waterworked from there ): ): And it was literally like, I would start crying and then I would calm down and then I’d see someone else cry and then I’d cry again, like when I saw Linds and India and Pansy. Friiiiiiick ): Lingo/ Ned/ Eddie’s song had me on the verge of tears as well. And omg LOL to Eddie and Vinnie, I’m so sorry for crying so hard at you two T_TT; I think when Eddie just started talking to me I just got so sad that I might not ever get to see her and have all her support and her random hugs and her epic songs that she makes up and just, yea, the thought about not having that support was just so intensely horrible. And Vinnie kus .. well, I don’t know why exactly - I still think I was douche in year 7. But I think it’s kus he’s always been so nice to me and I feel like I owe him tons. I’m sorry for getting everyones shirts wet ahaha.

The thought of not being able to see everyone everyday is killing me. I know I havn’t been the best student at Ruse, but I’ve only gotten through it because Ruse2010 has always been there to support me and make me work so much harder. I feel like I owe the grade so so so much for everything they’ve done for me, and there’s not enough time to repay that kindness and niceness and all-round epicness. There really is not going to be anywhere else that I could find such amazing people. Ever. And I feel like I havn’t appreciated everyone enough.

I know I’m someone who just craves company. When I’m by myself, I tend to get very negative and I can get easily depressed. SO WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITHOUT YOU ALL T_TTT. There’s so many people that I’m JUST getting to know. I really really really really need more time. Why couldn’t there be a high school year, like Year 13, where all you do is get to know your grade even better?? We should petition.

I have no idea why I’m still feeling sad. I’ve been telling CC all week that we still have schoolies and formal and outings and we can go on coffee breaks together and see each other at uni. Yet the fact that we’re losing this Ruse bubble where it’s only just us 170ish of us and we get to spend so much time together, I’m really scared that somehow, we’re all just going to forget each other. And I think even though I’m like NO WAY. FACEBOOK, PHONES, TECHNOLOGY ROCKS, I know deep down that I’m definitely going to lose contact with some, if not a lot, of you.

Ruse has just gone by so fast. The idea that you don’t know what you’ve got and you don’t appreciate it until it’s gone is so so so true. I’ve had the most amazing time, the best six years of my life. I’m going to miss all this. FML I’m going to cry again on Wednesday and I’m already tearing up now. I know I’m going to reminisce so much, just hanging in the common room and in the library and bus trips and

AJSDKDJSFK The thought that I can’t do any of that anymore after this Wednesday is making me tear up again. STOOOOOOOOP IT.

I love my ram! He will always remind me of these epic adventures during these six years (: (: And I’m bringing him to schoolies. And I’ve already been pricked by the stupid needles that are holding the ribbon onto him. Maybe I’ll sew it on instead so I won’t continue injuring myself.

LOVE, TIFF
(NO MEELO, just, no)

PS. KEVINSIN, MINCO AND YOUR RAPPING WAS VERY COOL. THIS IS YOUR SHOUTOUT. I WAS SITTING IN THE FRONT ROW DURING YOUR DANCE. STOP HATING. (y) (:

PPS. Assembly didnt have the most sentimental vibe that i was hoping for, but i had superhigh expectations ahaha. MINCO AND YFM AND MIC ROCKED THE JC HOSKIN AUDITORIUMMM. and lingo/ ned/ eddie had me on the verge of tears, and kadi was freaking AMAZING as usual and nik/ alan/ tim's compilation of songs and louie’s band was epic and squed/ minna/ ksin/ meeeeloooo/ bravin's intro was so so so good, i especially loved minna's last song, and george did a pretty good taeyang interpretation but i missed one of the songs when we were getting ready for MIC ):

PPPS. STACEY LAW HAS GOT IT GOING ON.

PPPPS. ESTHER you'll get your shoutout next post LOL. Ive been putting off the big shoutout post (:

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