tiffany*

the anthem

2011-05-07T03:34:00.002+10:00

126/ looking back on my old memories makes me happy.

HI ALL (:

So I really haven't blogged for a long long time. And I somewhat regret that because the post-HSC holidays have been an absolute blast, and seriously something that I loved and wished I documented so much better. I got to be as lazy as I possibly wanted (except at home, when my parents took doing chores very seriously lols) and it really gave me the opportunity to regain somewhat a social life after being so socially retarded just cooped up studying. To all those still yet to finish the HSC, trust me, every minute of study is rewarded during those three-fourish months of holiday. It's amazing. America, and Canada and Hong Kong are amazing.

But starting uni now, I've also realised how easy high school is in comparison. I love uni, the freedom I get during these years of my life are probably unparalleled, but at the same time, the uni content is insane. Readings, assignments, lecture notes... I really have to stay on top of it all to make sure I'm not screwed like hell for semester exams. These exams really count. If you fail, you have to repeat, which means another semester of things you've already learnt, things that you will be paying for in hundreds and thousands of dollars when you're trying to pay HECS. Needless to say, I'm not really ahead in my work.

Here's to hoping that next semester is better.

Anyway! The point of this post was that I am moving blogs.

It feels appropriate, I mean, this is my high school blog teehee, and I feel like I'm moving onto a new chapter of my life! So, new blog it is.

It's definitely a lot more personal, and it's not finished, because, as I said before, I'm behind on school work so that's taking a bit more of a priority, but .. yea. (:

http://epilogue31.blogspot.com

hotel motel holiday inn

2010-12-08T16:29:00.001+11:00

HI GUYS IM IN BUFFALO, NEW YORK ATM, GOING TO SEE THE NIAGARA FALL TOMOLOOOOO WOOHOO. quick post, nothing much, ill epic post once i get back to vancouver or if ive got time at the airport. TTYLLLLLLL MISS YOU ALL BAI.

but you wont do the same

2010-11-25T19:15:00.002+11:00

125/ the idea of having so much fun overseas makes me happy.

I have this sick and sad feeling inside me right now. It's like, the feeling you get when you read about something intensely sad and you just want to cry. WHY.

I'm leaving in TWO DAYS! I should be extremely excited but I'm just feeling nerves nerves nerves nerves nerves nerves. I think once I actually get on the plane I would be happy as heck but AT THE MOMENT........... I don't know I feel quite sad.

I miss everyone and I haven't even left yet! ):

x

after a hurricane comes a rainbow

2010-11-14T02:06:00.007+11:00

124/ schoolies at terrigal makes me happy.

NOTE: New template is TOTALLY unsatisfactory so I've just reverted back to this one for now hahahahaha.

It's funny. None of us have really made a schoolies post yet, and 7/14 of us have blogs. I swear it's because we're all just incredibly tired, like after I got back home on Friday I slept from 6pm - 4am then fell asleep again until 8/9ish am. Sleeping patterns are whacked up. And the house feels weird in the mornings when there's nobody to wake up next to, and there's no supersmash bros music and stuff clanging in the kitchen, and jack's not stomping around yelling absolutely anything.

I think the only word that's really ringing in my head about Schoolies is epic. Like, it was different to Eurotour and different to what I expected, although I KNOW I can't really compare because Schoolies was so much SHORTER and Eurotour was in a different COUNTRY, and there was a lot of moody stuff going on at all times. Plus something happened on the second ? third? night to me which will not be repeated =_=; even though I'm willing to bet a lot that everyone knows anyhow. I DO know that I got much closer to the peeps on Schoolies than I did on Eurotour, for sure. So like, as Eurotour was more exciting, Schoolies was more relaxing and free and incredibly mind-opening.

I say that I got much closer to the Schoolies peeps because throughout those five days, actually, I think progressively, I could just say anything to these 13 other amazingians and not worry about what they'd think and feel like as if they'd be there for me no matter what. Maybe it might have also got to do with the fact that they have all seen me at my worst and made me feel so insanely lucky that they were there for me during my worst. No Love by Eminem. Hahaha. I can't even believe that they could make me laugh when I was feeling so gross and horrible. (LOL @ teh, I still remember EXACTLY what he said LOLOLOL awkward flag much HAHA.)

FOOD WAS GREAT! I was surprised by how great everyone's designated food stuff turned out! Not saying that I doubted we were all crappy cooks LOL but I suppose it had more to do with the fact that I was so stressed about not having ENOUGH food. (We overbought on our 1k+ groceries LOOOL). Let me try to remember what we had all those days LOL.

Sunday lunch - Maccas

Sunday dinner - Ruth/ Ash/ My Lasagna

Monday breakfast - Chin/ CC/ Ruth's Bacon/ Omelette/ Hash Browns

Monday lunch - Ruth/ Ash/ My Chicken Snitzel Wraps w/ Wedges

Monday dinner - Ruth / Ash/ My Carbonara Pasta/ Spaghetti Bolognese (where we cooked so so so so so much pasta LOLOL)

Tuesday breakfast - Tang/ Teh/ Ruth's French Toast with PBJ

Tuesday lunch - Bravin/ Milo/ Kev's tacos (incredibly messy to eat with LOLL)

Tuesday dinner - Ed/ Jack's Bacon and Cream Sauce Fettuccine with Tiramisu dessert

Wednesday breakfast - ... pancakes? I think I missed this.

Wednesday lunch - Tang/ Teh's burgers on the BBQ

Wednesday dinner - Minna/ Jes's Chicken and Potato Bake

Thursday breakfast - Kev/ Minna/ My pancakes and then Chinmay/ CC's fried chicken and then I think peeps ended up making instant noodles kus they burnt stuff LOLOL.

Thursday lunch - Bravin/ Milo/ Kev's Nachos

Thursday dinner - Ed/ Jack's Steak and Salad

Friday breakfast - Nada. We were all too incredibly tired and had to leave the house by 9am, packed and had to also finish cleaning.

Friday lunch - Maccas

SCHOOLIES PEEPS: is this order right ? LOL. I've forgotten the order =_=;

I realise this is so non-.. in order. Frick what is that word. I hate this feeling. How there's a word that describes exactly what you want to say but you just mindblank in that exact moment. Digressing, watching shooting stars on the last night was one of the best experiences I've ever had. Considering that I never thought I'd ever ever ever see a shooting star in my life and actually being able to see three! Although I do realise that seeing three is way not as impressive as some of the other amazingians like Ed, and it was somewhat spoiled by a similar episode of a Chinmay on Murderer's Lane or whatever that road was called. Still, I think that even if there were no shooting stars, it was still incredibly sentimental being on the beach past midnight with my awesome housemates (bar Chin and Teh kus they were both sick) and lying on slightly damp pillows and blankets and just talking, chilling, relaxing, being so free.

Spending five days and nights with people like Bravin, Ksin, Minna have also influenced me SO MUCH. I can randomly start humming Minna's song (Take the foodscraps from the kitCHEN! to a suitable outside SPOT!) and I think random phrases have become a major part of my vocabulary.

OMO OMO OMO MAGIC MAGIC.

Our house was so so so nice as well! Like I remember walking in and Ruth was just like THIS IS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT BABY. I think it was Ruth.. lol. BUT either way, it was impressive. I'm talking about massive french glass windows EVERYWHERE and couches that were so comfy that I literally fell asleep on twice, probably more, and spotless kitchen (deteriorated everyday, but Ash and I made sure there was no food poisoning ever), and rooms that were big enough with massive beds that were so soft and comfortable and ditto pillows and had ultra cool lamps that you just touched and they'd turn on and off, and the showers were nicer than my home showers, like you only had to turn the hot water on and the hot water would turn on! Didn't even have to wait for hot water, and HUGE balconIES and a seriously clean pool and deck chairs. It was just great, seriously amazing. Loved it to bits (: Plus, we watched the sunrise and sunset pretty much everyday, AMAZING view because the house was on a massive hill.

The beach was great too. Okay so it was no Fiji but it was FUN. I learnt how to use Ed's boards and they are so incredibly exciting hahaha. There was even a part on the beach where it just suddenly dipped in, like a mini kid's pool. It was hilarious because everyone pretty much always forgot about it and when we were all running back to the beach we'd trip and fall into the quicksand there. But there was another part where you can just sit in the water, and there would be warm currents (and sometimes cold drafts if we were unlucky) but the water was pretty much always perfect for beach swimming. Wet sand hurts. I think some chafed my thigh and it still hurts but I'll get over it. I also tanned. A LOT. I hate it. Minna and I had a massive convo about tanning a while ago over GJs, and I was fully going on about how I wanted to be pale for formal but then she was like, Dude, you're going to be at schoolies for five days before it. How the hell are you going to get PALER? Minna is so right. I am so much darker now ): Fml.

Weather was REALLY good too. Okay so it rained once and there was lightning and thunder on when us girls wanted to swim in the pool at night which spoiled our plans, but I remember it was the night before Ruth had to leave and we were all just sitting outside on the top balcony on the chairs and just plain chilling. It felt amazing, and so incredibly relaxing. And we were just watching the storm that was going on back in Sydney and the lightning was flashing non-stop and just lighting up the clouds and when we went back in and the storm got worse, it was like purple neon lights flashing outside. So cool. So incredible. So freaking amazing. I'm feeling nostalgic just thinking about it. We didn't really have to worry much about really hot days because we had loads of fans and aircons inside the house so it was good.

Played a lot of board games! Like Pictionary and Twister and Articulate and Jenga and Egyptian Snap and Kent and Bullshit and .. what was that Big 2? Merchant of Venice or something LOLL. FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN.

Obviously there was a lot more stuff that happened but I think that's enough from me LOL. I have to say that I really really had a great time and THANK YOU SO MUCH JES FOR ORGANISING SO MUCH. I LOVE YOUUUU :D And also to Ash, Bravin, CC, Chin, Ed, Jack, Kev, Milo, Minna, Ruth, Tang, and Teh, thankyou so so so much for the amazing five days and nights :D You are all my amazingians who made post-hsc so superbly worthwhile, ILOVEYOUALLSOMUCH. I would do it all again. Maybe not in the near future LOLLLL because I'm still feeling the repercussions of our crappy sleeping patterns and all the cleaning and cooking that we did, and the moodiness that was starting to surround us all. But I hope you all know that I wouldn't have traded those five days and nights for anything.

ps. Fml that post took me an hour and a half to write out LOLOLOL.

imagining life with you not with me

2010-11-02T21:34:00.004+11:00

123/ being free makes me happy.

I've been waiting for this day for the past 6 years. And now that it's here, it's pretty anti-climatic LOL.

You'd think that post-hsc is going to be great right. IT'S ONLY GREAT IF YOU FINISHED YOUR LAST EXAM ON A HIGH NOTE. Stupid economics. Yesterday I was like, oh but what if they gave us a question on income distribution and environmental management? Great work Tiff, just jinx the paper why don't you. FREAKING ASKDJLASK. Even though that wasn't the part that I got screwed over in... but anyhow, I died for external stability. I think for five- ten minutes I was just staring at that question going, wth am I talking about. Short answer and multichoice were both harder than expected too. Fml I'm worried about multichoice. Very much. VERY VERY VERY WORRIED. I know I got a lot of it wrong. Fmllllllllll ): I want to cry. 96 ATAR might be gone. Fuuuuuuuck ): And that's all I can really think about.

Went to Broadway and the new Sydney Westfield, and a part of Pitt St Mall. The new Westfield is pretty swanky, except that half the shops are still closed, and the top three floors are like .. so . expensive. =_=; STILL! It's nice, go visit :D There are like a million mirrors and lights and it's all so shiny ahaha. And the design of the shops are made so that it's superhard to tell what shop is what. And like everyone else, I cannot wait until Zara opensssss :D I think most people like their clothes, but I'm loving their bags LOL. My cousin says it's opening around March next year? Or something like that.

She also took me to one of the Napoleon Perdis stores at Broadway and they helped me figure out what to do for my formal makeup :D. It was a very general makeover, but that was only because I still haven't found my dress/ shoes yet. Basically, once I find my dress/ shoes, they told me to get back to them and they'll help me adjust whatever to match my outfit. So that's one thing done :D. Went shopping afterwards but still haven't found anything that I particularly liked =_=; It's as if they don't have any nice formal dresses anymore. Freaking hell.

Note to self: NP Lip Primer, concealer, foundation, primer, Mosaic powder and puff (used Gleamer but they all look so cool), lip gloss, eye liner, eyebrows. Really should have taken more notice of what she used =_=. Brushes were a little scratchy.

The only good thing about post-hsc is that I can now watch tv and go online and redo my blog template and basically take my time with everything. I can't believe that I'm free to do anything until NEXT MARCH :P Very happy indeed. ahaha.

But a part of me actually really wishes I had more exams to do...........

Maybe it's because it means there might have been more chances for me to do better in my exams to get that stupid 96+ ATAR. Hm. EITHER WAY, I'M REALLY WORRIED and that's all I can really think about. FML.

And holy crap. I'm not going to see a lot of people anymore until formal. NO!!!! T_T. And today was also the last day that I ever really had to wear my school uniform. SIGH. I MISS SCHOOL.

the key to change is to let go of fear

2010-11-01T22:47:00.003+11:00

122/ our awesome study group makes me happy.

Effectively, this is my last post where I can rant about the HSC. Because TOMORROW is my last exam! Freaking so excited. So I could be much more readier, and know everything much better, but I feel .. sorta okay. Okay enough to do better than what I did in trials =_=; and hopefully enough to do very well and scrape a 96+ ATAR. Woohoo :D

I have to say though, that today was an amazingly fun day at macq. Kaz, Tom, Squed and Howie make up the best study buddies to ever exist in history. It's frustrating having to deal with their everlasting short jokes, and their comments about certain friends, and apparently always shouting them Chatime (um, no), but seriously, they put up with my insane whining about how I'm not going to be able to get anything, and all my questions about the same thing every single day, and actually making me enjoy studying. The horror.

Yeaaa. Anyhow, today was eventful! I slept late last night because I finished watching the Sherlock episodes (SUCH an awesome show LOLOL) and so it was hard for me to wake up this morning. Had to wake up early too, since Mum had to work today and to make it easier, I basically just got a lift off my rents when they were sending my sister to school to Epping. By the time I got into the car though, I was still sorta half dead, so I slept until I got to Epping and my mum just basically chucked me out of the car. Fml. But yea! Studied eco (and half watching Scrubs and Sherlock) and had lunch with Kaz while the guys went to Macq to look at the new Mac Air or something or other. If anyone's interested in getting one, go talk to them because apparently they're trying to buy a lot in one go for uberdiscounts lulz.

Saw Fei as well at Macq today, and after talking to him for a while, whilst Ed was recounting some stories that made Howie cry again LOLOL, Kaz and I moved to Level 3 to sit in an aisle and just work. I just got too tired by then and just fell asleep for about an hour LOL. And yea went back downstairs a bit refreshed to work againnnn. Probably did about three(?) ish past papers today + going through essay plans and yeeee :D It was productive. I hope I know my stuff omgr =_=;

And I hope they don't chuck us stupid questions, but they've been screwing us all over for the past exams I've been doing so ggggggggggg ):

On the other hand, I am extremely extremely excited about post-hsc.

I'll let you guys know how it feels like tomorrow (;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FLUFFY FOR TODAY OMGR.

Even though Juu and I wished you a Happy Birthday Eve yesterday ahahah and even though you never replied to my text, although I guess it was valid, because I obviously forgot to reply to all my birthday texts when people wished me a happy birthday. Hm. SORRIES LOL. BUT YEA, Hope you had a great day!!!!!!!

even if saving you sends me to heaven

2010-10-31T20:42:00.002+11:00

121/ knowing that I have so many fun things to do post-hsc makes me happy.

I know this makes me sound like a HP nerd, but 29 years ago, Avada Kedavra failed for the first time (; LOL and it's failed a lot since then ahahahaha. But still. I totes know magic so I won't try it. Just for others' sakes :D.

Got very distracted by Sherlock today at Macq.

I went to church in the morning, because last night, Dad was like, ok if you're not ready to leave by 830am, I'm not going to drive you to Macq in the morning. I woke up at 840 this morning =_=; LAME. It was probably because I spent half of last night awake since my mozzie bites were so itchy T_T. Sigh. Anyhow, it ended up being pretty good, because it meant I wasn't late for church and I could spend some time in the morning talking to everyone else (: WHICH WAS GOOD because I haven't seen my wonderful church fam since like, two weeks ago. Or more. ):

Left after sunday school ended though, and went to macq. Did a little bit of work, then got sidetracked because Kaz wanted to watch Sherlock, and I just ended up grabbing all these vids from Tom and Kaz (Scrubs, Entourage, Blades of Glory, Sherlock, Fight Club, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Run Fatboy Run, Step Up) so now I have loads to watch post HSC yay. I can't believe it's over for me in two days! SERIOUSLY excited (: (:

I'm also really frustrated that I booked the 20th Nov to watch HP7 Part 1 now =_=; I completely forgot that Summerbeatz was on that night and Fee said she could get us Gold tickets at a lower price than usual. Fml. SIGH. Oh well, the way I see it, is that I get to spend an entire arvo/ night with my fam to make up for the amount of time I've ditched them to go study at Macq. And considering that I'd be leaving for overseas within a week of that Saturday, I feel like a good daughter by spending time with my family instead of wasting $100 on myself (the tickets for HP were like 80 for family. LOL). My conscience feels good. HAHA.

Ah yea. So watched Episode 2 of Sherlock after we came back from grabbing Maccas to eat (omg post hsc, NO JUNKFOOD. Until schoolies). And after watching that, and effectively wasting about 1.5hrs, just did eco for the rest of the time there. So it was okay, we did do work! And now I feel much more confident with economics too (: SO IM REALLY EXCITED.

I think at the end of the day, I started feeling a bit high as well. It was mainly due to reminisces of Kaz's bluntness LOL. But yea, it was a good day. (:

Oh and, when I got home, my rents left for dinner, so Steph and I just sat downstairs and ate dinner watching Modern Family and Junior Masterchef. LOL and everytime some trick-or-treating kids come around and rang our doorbell, we'd turn down the volume of the tv and eat really really quietly until we don't hear them anymore LOLLL. Okay so it was totally not our fault that we forgot to buy more lollies. I remember one year, we felt bad about not opening the door for them. And so we opened the pantry and we only had about .. two lollies. So we opened the door and there's like an entire BUNCH of kids outside and we're like, crap. Here you guys, you can share these two lollies between the bunch of you. LOLLL IT MADE ME FEEL WORSE, than if I had kept the door shut. So we've kept the door shut ever since :P

Wow can you imagine? It's been around a year since our prefects 09/10 Halloween campaign. Holy crap.

Distance makes the heart...

2010-10-30T19:13:00.002+11:00

96 ATAR + PLEASE ):

From Tara's tumblr:

Sydney’s CBD and Canberra via the Hume Freeway (the most logical way) is around 3 Hours and 45 Minutes. It is a distance of 287 kilometres. The air distance from Sydney to Canberra is 251 km and the flight takes around 23 minutes.

do you remember all the city lights on the water

2010-10-30T18:00:00.007+11:00

120/ my friends getting all these med/ co-op interviews makes me happy.

WOOHOO!! I feel so freaking great today.

Yesterday, I slept at around 8pm and woke up at 4am today, went back to sleep again and at 9 got woken up by my sister. I freaked, because I was planning to go Macq today to study uberly from 9-5 since it closes early (T_T) and I thought that both my parents had already left to go to work and left me alone at home to study. So I got up and checked my phone, and Tom had texted me going:

WHERE'S MY CONGRATULATION TEXT TIFF???

SO CONGRATS TO TOM/ CHIN/ YASH/ MICH/ HAKEEM/ CC and any others who got co-op interviews!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I realise that tons of others got med, so I seriously cannot list everyone, BUT CONGRATS TO EVERYONE WHO GOT MED INTERVIEWS TOO (to UNSW and Newcastle and UWS and JCU and Adelaide and Monash and Griffith and wherever else that I haven't heard of)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! In particular Janny, Chin, Squed and Howie since I've only talked to them so far about med interviews lulz. STILL. YAYYY. I'm so happy for you peeps :DDDD

(btw Chin, in your text you spelt my chinese name wrong LOLOL)

Anyhow, when I was on the phone with Chin, my mum ends up coming into my room and giving me a wth-why-are-you-on-the-phone-when-you-should-be-ready-to-leave look and I'm just like HOLY CRAP YOU'RE STILL HERE THANK GOODNESS. But by the time I leave, it's already like.. 11. LOL. Got to Macq at about 12, and ate lunch at 1. I am insanely surprised that we take over an hour to eat lunch (wth o_o LOL) and got back around.. 230.

OH LOL AND when we were walking to Macq, Tom, Ed, and Howie were walking in front of Kaz and I, and then suddenly, Tom pats (?) Howie on the back or something and then Ed suddenly notices this MASSIVE SPIDER on Howie's jacket near his collar. Kaz and I were fully like omg what!!!!!! and watch as Tom and Ed grab these random sticks from the sides to whack the spider off LOLLL. Tom failed twice HAHAHA. But dude, Howie was actually relatively calm to have a massive spider on his back HAHA.

OH and LOL ALSOOO, well we had a room on Level 4 right, and there were two tables in there. We had one of them, the one closer to the white board, and there was another table in the middle, except when we got back, someone had moved the table and had a laptop case, studies of religion/ biology notes and a laptop charger on that table. I think the guys had been watching/ reading Sherlock Holmes so they all start deducing what the person there looked like. Tom thought that it was a girl with big thighs LOL, and Ed and Howie were thinking of a white brunette (because the notes were by someone called Laura Wilcher (?)) LOL and had glasses (but they later changed this because the cloth they saw on the table was to wipe the laptop, not glasses), went to a private school, had a macbook, and so forth. Turns out that she was asian, and was tall and skinny. HAHAHA. It was funny :D

FROM THEN, I am so proud of Kaz/ Tom/ Myself LOLOL. Intense study of economics until we had to leave at 5! We went through all of topic 2 and some parts of topic 4. That's insane :D I am so happy HAHA. I'm also surprising myself with what I can remember when I get enough sleep. Looks like I have to sleep at 10 tonight to prepare myself for tomorrow's mass economics study againzzz.

So all in all, a good day so far. Hopefully, I won't waste too much time after I finish blogging today =_=; Especially if I go on tumblr, I'll make sure I start working by 7pm. Maybe anyone who reads this should message me at 7 and make sure I'm working. LOL. Okay no, don't bother wasting credit on me. HAHA.

I am still feeling very happy today. Not sure why. Hehe.

Oh and I have also started to delete all these random songs on my itouch that I don't like/ listen to anymore. It's taking much longer than I expected =_=; Haven't even finished going through the songs that start with A.. And then after I finish going through all the songs, I bet I'd have to start from the beginning again already =_=;. AND I'd also have to add album art. Loooooks like I've got tons to do after HSC!

ps. I've had a few people ask me about this, but I hope you guys notice that the bars beneath the changing icon are actually tabs .........

pps. Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert

take photographs, have fun, have fun

2010-10-29T18:14:00.005+11:00

119/ being so close to what I thought was so far away makes me happy.

So I started writing a post yesterday but never finished it..... I'm not exactly sure why. Anyhow.

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(yesterday)

english3urant

CREATIVE KILLED ME AHMYGAD T_TTTTTTTT SO DEVASTATED. Essay was fine. But creative................................ ): ): ): ): ): ): ): I hate setting. I also now hate the word wish, message and solitude. Freaking asjdklsfjklsdfsd.

I also just realised how obsessed I am with the whole Harry Potter series. To the point where it's probably not healthy since I could just tumblr HP all day ): It was like, my biggest wish when I was younger to play Cho Chang LOLOL, but TOO LATE ): And I was too young ): Actually after Cho Chang was casted, I just wanted to be in the movies. HAHA. BUT ALSO NOW TOO LATE ): ): WHYYYYY. Harry Potter just literally defines my childhood. Maybe that's another reason why I want to go to ANU. It's like college! Like boarding school! A sort of Hogwarts :D

Anyway. ... let's move on.

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I think I was a little high yesterday from the whole english 3u episode =_=;

historyextrant

UM. NOT SURE HOW I DID AGAIN. The questions they asked were phrased .. not as nicely as I hoped. The sources were good though, but I'm just ashamed at my waffling throughout. I hope I get a nice marker for hist ext ): Because the way I phrased things and said things.. ahmygad T_T I think there's something wrong with me these days and my ability to say something exactly how I want to say it. See, I bet that even sounds weird. greaaaaaaaat ):

I'm superbly tired now. These exams have tired me out so so much, especially in this last week. One to go though! I'm really excited hehehe. Even if it's economics, which is my worst subject that I have to count. So. Goodluck me. And everyone else who does eco, or any other exam. Hm. Today really does not feel like a Friday.

I was also talking to Arfa today, who has finished his HSC (yesterday, actually). I am such a masochist. Why the hell would I want to listen to someone talk about how awesome post-hsc is when I'm still doing my hsc?! But yes. POST HSC LIFE IS AWESOME. Apparantly, and so far. I cannot waaaaaaaaait. Especially to go overseas, and to schoolies, and to uni. Not looking forward to GETTING THE RESULTS THOUGH. Fml. If it's below 96, you're not going to know the ATAR. And I'm terrified that it is going to be below 96. Hoooooly crap.

I've made up my mind to change this template post-hsc. Haven't thought really hard about what I want yet, but I have something in mind. Just gotta find the right codes now! YAY. I was also thinking about making a wordpress just to figure out the whole css thing, because that's the stuff I'd need to learn if I want to get my own blog domain. :D Post-hsc is going to be epic.

But omg I forgot that summerbeatz was on Nov 20th T_T. That's the day I'm watching HP, so no concert for me. WAH.

i know i can make it today my life begins

2010-10-27T15:57:00.002+11:00

118/ really smooth writing pens make me happy.

maths3urant

Not much to comment about... A lot less stressed for this exam. I suppose it's because, deep down, I know that it probably won't count. It seemed a bit easier than some of the past papers I did ==;; but.. I don't know. And maths, as we know it, IS OVERRRRR. Now that feels weird. I reckon I'm somewhat expecting to randomly open fitzpatrick and do an exercise or something. BUT NOT SO. I don't have to touch maths for ages (: (:

Anyhow, massive thunderstorm outside right now. It's amazing! I love thunderstorms when I'm inside the house, the only thing that I'll complain about is that this is the weather where I would love to just lie down and fall asleep (and I did. For like, half an hour), before I forcefully made myself wake up so that I can go finish memorizing 3u eng and finish writing my creative. Eugh. BUT I HAVE TO DO THIS RIGHT, because this is the last time I'm going to be doing english, so it has to be done right. 3U is much easier to memorize than 2U, although when I told Karen this yesterday, she just said that it was probably because we've been rewriting the same essay for the past... year. Literally. Which is true, hahaha. I also bought new pens, and they are NOT JETSTREAM LOL. They're Pilot pens :D Cost me like $4.50 per pen ahmygad T_T. But so worth it. They're High tec-point V7 RT lolol. Inky-ish, but so smooth to write with. It only leaks if I press superhard onto the page and the words just .. appear. I love new pens :D

Um. Not much to blog about, considering that I didn't go to Macq today. Hahah. Going to Macq is usually pretty eventful :P Yesterday I got there at around 130 and we went out to lunch at the cafeteria pretty much as soon as I arrived. Shared a pide with Karen, and they actually taste much better than I expected :D Refrained from buying a tub of Ben and Jerry's icecream. We did maths until dinner, and it took us forever to decide where to eat again. Yay for healthiness lolol and trying to not eat junk food like maccas and kfc for dinner. So we went to the Thai place at the front of Macq centre. Pretty good food, I got a Pad Thai because I didn't want anything spicy. And we saw the school counselor there LOLLL. And tried to take pictures ahahaha.

Downloaded the 2AM album yesterday. It's okay, they're all amazing ballads as usual, but none that really stuck out ): I'm addicted to a few other songs at the moment: On Fire - tK ft. YLam, Starting Today - Bruno Mars, Today My Life Begins - Bruno Mars, Like a G6 - FM.

Okay better get back to doing english. This was a really boring post, I just realised. But for me, it's only another three exams and six days till FREEDOM! How exciting.

~~English Advanced Paper 1~~

~~English Advanced Paper 2~~

~~Ancient History~~

~~Mathematics 2Unit~~

~~Mathematics 3Unit~~

English Extension 1

History Extension

Economics

Hey I also just realised, you know those HSC articles in the Daily Telegraph (and I'm guessing that there are articles on the HSC in the SMH too), WHY do they only feature public schools =_=; I mean like, they never mention selective schools until the day we get results back. Hopefully this year, it'll be how Ruse came first again hehehe :D. But I digress. I hope that while I'm in America, I can go to their newsagents and find a copy of the SMH/ DT and recognize people on the front page/ people who got 99.95ATARs. AND find my own name! (OMGPLS LOL) because if I don't, and I'm not even on that honour roll thing they have, it means that I've done really horrendously in these exams omg.

More motivation to ace english extenshunnnnn!!

Goodluck peeps :D

Oh and, as usual, HSC has made me forget birthdays. AGAIN T_T SORRIES. But, all the same,

HOPE YOU HAD AN AMAZING BIRTHDAY OWEN, ANDY AND FEI !

Saturday, Sunday and Sunday respectively :D Heheheh.

Still, for today

HAPPY BIRTHDAY INDIAAAAO :D !

Dudeeee! You are too cool. I didn't see you today too :S Unfortunate. But I know you're doing fine for the exams so far! And I will see you tomorrow, hopefully. Well I will look out for you tomorrow so that I can wish you a proper happy birthday for today ahahaha :D HOPE YOURE HAVING AN AWESOME DAY UZI, and I beat Ambika right? :P HAHA.

EDIT:

OHMIGOD ANDANDAND LOLOLOLOL.

For Kevin Sin:

HAHAHA. Couldn't resist.

... Don't hate me, plox D:

now i'm feeling so fly like a g6

2010-10-25T21:01:00.014+11:00

117/ If I had the ability to understand maths, it would make me (insanely) happy.

maths2urant

omg okay so. I'm really insanely frustrated with myself about maths. I went into the exam feeling confident! And then I get up to about question 8 and then I die. AJSKFLJDSLKFJSDFKL. I really hate the feeling where I KNOW I could've done so much better, I left out a simple graphing question because I thought I could go back to it and finish it but ohmygasjdidkfjsdklf. I hate myself sometimes. I hate how maths doesn't come to me easily, and I hate how everyone else has no complications with this subject. It freaking frustrates me so so so so insanely much that EVERYONE ELSE CAN DO THIS AND I CAN'T. What is wrong with me. T_T FUckkk. It doesn't help that there's some people like tang and elaine who finish with like an hour to spare. It doesn't help that I was studying 3u today at macq and realised that none of it makes sense to me. All I do is start to work, get so tired from doing something that makes no sense to me, and just fall asleep from that tiredness. I don't KNOW why I can't get maths. I'm embarrassed that something so easy is so hard for me to understand. I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE TO DO MATHS OKAY. I don't get why it's so hard for me to grasp this subject T_TT. FML. WHY ME.

Anyhow ==

Went to Macq after the exam and ate lunch first at Macq centre. Went to the library afterwards but it was PACKED as usual ): Kaz and I went to find seats on Level 3 but then the guys were like, oh there's seats on Level 4, but we decided to stay where we were to get more work done. Probably after a while, we went back up, and I highscored on Bravin's Fruit Ninja! Yay. Got some work done up there too, and when Kaz and I went back to Level 3, we just had a very interesting conversation until someone came up to us and told us to shut up. But nicer. Haha. We were about to go down to the lower levels to just talk, but then the guys came and were like oh we're going to go eat dinner now. So we just left for dinner after Kaz got picked up by her rents. Ate .. forgot what that place was called now, BUT NEVER EATING THERE AGAIN BECAUSE THEIR FOOD IS SPICY T_T. Dude I'm so angry at that person who served me, kus I asked for one of their dishes at first, but I asked if it was spicy and she was like, yeah. So I was like, okay fine, I'll just order something else. Sounded plain, and I thought the person would be nice enough to mention if it's spicy BUT SHE DOESN'T SAY ANYTHING.

IT WAS SPICY T_T. FREAKING HELL.

And all the guys today .. SO INSANELY SLACK ):

damn you peeps.

Nuuuu.. I feel so sad today. Frickkkkk

EDIT:

LOL OKAY. I found something that made my day infinitely better. Here

Dear Icebergs,

Sorry to hear about the global warming. Karma's a bitch.

Sincerely, The Titanic.

---

Dear Waldo,

Please return my invisibility cloak ASAP.

Sincerely, H. Potter.

---

Dear Yahoo,

I've never heard anyone say, "I don't know, let's Yahoo! it..."

just saying...

Sincerely, Google.

---

Dear Voldemort,

So they screwed up your nose too?

Sincerely, Michael Jackson.

---

Dear shooting stars, clocks reading 11:11, chain letters, and birthday candles,

WTF? You guys totally owe me!

Sincerely, waiting. still.

---

Hehehe.

ill be back

2010-10-23T21:12:00.004+11:00

116/ Inspiring messages makes me happy.

Show encrypted text

I need to stop taking things so seriously. And I need to start doing some more maths. Yuck. Been feeling sorta out of it all day. A few factors. Mainly tired. I hate this time of the month. I hate you sometimes. Horton hears a Who. Thank you for that CD. Thank you for spending time with me. For putting up with me. Eugh. I want this week to be over. Not really. Since it means that there's eco to do. fml.

SO OUT. OF. IT. T_T.

I still hate you right now.

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:

Spiders (the arachnid kind) and some insects.
HSC/ receiving my ATAR.
Letting people down.
Losing people.
The London Dungeons.
Regrets.
Standing alone in the dark.

SEVEN THINGS THAT YOU LIKE THE MOST:

People who mean a lot to me. (Friends, family).
Intensely awesome food. (like spag bol, and chocolate).
D&Ms.
Laughing until I cry/ my stomach hurts.
Brilliant photography.
My phone and itouch.
Handwritten letters.

SEVEN IMPORTANT THINGS IN MY ROOM:

My bed.
Books, including my HP collection and old diaries.
Photos.
Letters/ Cards.
Shoes.
Some of my soft toys.
Clothes. Jackets in particular 8)

SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT YOU:

I love world maps. I have two in my room.
I used to go horse-riding every weekend.
I was born at 4:20pm HK time.
I'm a hoarder. I collect movie tickets and I don't chuck out catalogues and magazines until I mass clean my room.
I am insanely superficial.
When I was young, I wanted to be an astronaut and work for NASA.
I hate taking risks.

SEVEN THINGS YOU PLAN TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:

Have a d&m with you.
Travel to Italy! whilst filling up my passport with travel stamps so that I have to go get a new passport.
Go on a missionary trip.
Plan my dream house, and have it built.
GET A CENTURION CARD ! (I can dream =_=)
Fall in love.
Learn how to make amigurumi to give to all my friends!

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN DO:

MAGIC. Totes. (y). And read the Harry Potter series over and over again.
Ramble. Especially in letters.
DRIVE.
Appreciate all the blessings I have in my life.
Climb a mountain! (Mt. Maria :D loool)
Paint/ Draw/ make graphics on ze computer.
Understand HTML.

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:

Sew ): and thus create/ alter my clothes.
Wake up insanely early during winter if I'm in my own bed.
Tolerate bitching against my closest friends.
Slam dunk.
Understand hard maths.
Eat cucumber. ITS TOO YUCKKKK.
Deny my faith in God. (Hopefully even in a life/death situation ==)

SEVEN THINGS THAT ATTRACT YOU TO SOMEONE:

Eyes.
Smile.
Confidence.
Seeing him be passionate about something.
Has a good sense of humour.
Words and advice that he gives and profoundly makes an impact on my life.
Ability to understand me.

SEVEN CELEB CRUSHES:

Alex Pettyfer!!
Gaspard Ulliel.
Taeyang.
Lee Min Ho.
Tom Felton.
James Marsden.
Channing Tatum.

Grace, Esther, Elon, Agnes and Ranen just made my day. Thank you so much you guys for coming around so late at night to just give me a card and lollies to make me feel better hahaha. (: (: TY FOR THE BRAIN JUICE LOLS. But yea, knowing that my churchies have my back, seriously makes me insanely happy (:

Eugh my stomach is killing me right now ahmygad T_T.

through you i can do anything i can do all things

2010-10-22T14:30:00.006+11:00

115/ wedding announcements make me happy.

I actually don't think that the thought of not ever doing these subjects anymore, is really hitting me. Like I only thought about ancient just then, and now I realise that I don't ever have to learn about ancient history ever again! IT'S REALLY SADDDD ): Even though I thought ancient was pretty boring sometimes, I WILL MISS READING ABOUT SPARTA AND ITALYYY. Actually, more the reason the visit Italy later on so that I can put my ancient sources to use (YAY. Eurotour 08ers, get ready. You all should have started to save up already :P). I think, if that thought had hit me during the exam, I would've tried to unload even more info onto the pages.

ancienthistoryrant

I think I did okay for Julius Caesar and Fall of the Roman Republic, except they might take marks off not adding enough sources and I'm not sure if I wrote enough (umm a booklet+ half for both Julius Caesar, and two booklets for Fall of Roman Republic), and I think I did fine for Pompeii/ Herculaneum too except I know I already got a mark off from multiple choice (PERISTYLE, NOT VESTIBULE DAMNIT). SPARTA SUCKED T_T EFFING question about How Sparta was governed screwed me up. Only rambled for about one and a half pages for that, and krypteia was about a page, and perioikoi was about half a page. I'm really worried I didn't write enough for Sparta. I wrote nearly one booklet for the last question on Sparta, which was about the religious stuff. I think I left out a few extra things I could say for that too. Which is really weird! Because last night, Sparta was my best topic. o_o. Lame. OH WELL ITS OVERRRRRRR.

THREE DOWN!

...FIVE TO GO ):

~~English Advanced Paper 1~~

~~English Advanced Paper 2~~

~~Ancient History~~

Mathematics 2Unit

Mathematics 3Unit

English Extension 1

History Extension

Economics

BRAVINNN soz bro, I won't be able to go to the USHER/TREY SONGZ concert. Actually honestly, I have no idea if I could go or not. See, my cousin's wedding IS THAT VERRRRY DAY. And it's not in Australia. So technically, if I can get out of not going to uni for about.. a week, maybe more, I most definitely will not be there. BUT if I can't, then I might be able to go! BUT I HAVE NO IDEA so it's best that I just won't buy tickets (y) or maybe I should buy tickets just in case? But then if I have to sell them, that's lame and I really ceebs. And I don't even know if I'm even going to be in Sydney that day. Is it a weekend? Ah wait I just checked, it's a Wednesday :s SO I HAVE NOOOOO IDEA WHATSOEVER. What should I do =_=;

And have the maths aids changed?? I went to two newsagents today and couldn't find the green ones we always use. I only need a new one because my old one broke =_=; It's in like... two three pieces lulz. Not cool. Also bought a new calculator today because I seriously can't find mine O_O I have no idea what happened to it ): ): And I had written my name nicely on the back of it too! So I went to accounts today, and some guy had handed in a calculator (the one I wanted) because it wasn't one that he thought suited him kus he had used the 82 one instead of the 100 one? I think. And so it's meant to be $30 right, but I got it for $20 LOL. Brand newwww, just ripped packaging (y). My dad was pretty happy. HAHA.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOLLY FOR YESTERDAY!!!

I'm so sorry for not remembering yesterday. Actually I did remember when it was like 1AM yesterday LOL but then after I started getting panicky about ancient I sort of forgot. ANYHOW 8D I HOPE YOU HAD AN AMAZING DAYYY. It's not everyday that you turn 18 ahahaa. Hope you also ate lots of CAKEEE :D

Note to self: The Secret Lives of People in Love by Simon Van Booy

EDIT: I am still too excited 8D New trailer that came out at the Scream Awards 2010

even when the rain pours down i will not burn out

2010-10-21T20:55:00.002+11:00

114/ once I finish studying ancient it will make me happy.

I am sort of very insanely nervous about tomorrow O_O. Even more nervous for this than I was for trials. Maybe because for ancient trials, I had about an hour, or two, to discuss with the other ancient kids but OMGNO I am insanely nervous.

I stupidly forgot to bring my Julius Casesar notes to study when I went to Macq today, so came home earlyyyyy. Hope I can go through everything by tonight ): I've still got like, one two points of Sparta and all of Julius Caesar, and another two three points of Pompeii/ Herculaneum TO READ THROUGH AHMYGADDDDD T_T.

Kill me now please please please. I am not ready to ace ancient history fafaskfjkldsjfklsdf.

WHY DO I ALWAYS FEEL SO NERVOUS THE NIGHT BEFORE EVERY EXAM THESE DAYS. JASKDJDSFKLSD. NOT COOL. ): ):

i feel i can achieve the impossible

2010-10-20T22:43:00.005+11:00

113/ knowing that God has everything under control makes me happy.

I feel really comforted from what Cho said in her blog post yesterday.

the distance.

it really is going by faster than i thought.
but i guess, what's important is that we keep moving on.
i've rather lost all expectation in myself. what seemed to be in reach now seems so.. beyond me.
& i do hate myself a little for not working harder these last couple of months, but you know. what can we do. (:
it's ultimately comforting to know that God really has plans beyond ours - i've really come to rely on that now, rather than my own expectations.

yu have to feel a little afraid of things beyond our control, sometimes.
though i believe that no matter what, i've learnt a lot, i've grown this year.
& with every life that crosses paths with yours, there is something learnt, some knowledge exchanged, something that has changed your life in even the most subtle ways.

Like, knowing that God really has plans for me, I feel a little more at ease. I haven't lost any belief in your ability to reach your goal btw Cho. I think that you are underestimating yourself, but DUDE! I am so insanely thankful for this post ahaha. I'm feeling exactly this ): so thankyouz for the reminder about how God really has plans beyond our own.

I think ultimately, I'm just scared that I'm not going to like what he wants for me. In my mind, I know what I want and I'm terrified that God is going to lead me into another path where I'm not really ready to go through. Or worse, I'm worried that God had a plan for me and I messed up one of the plans he had for me because of my lack of studying and laziness earlier this year. I KNOW I shouldn't be feeling like this! But I feel like as if I really want to go to ANU and if I don't get above 96, I'm really scared of what's going to happen. Translation: I don't want to go to Macq. I guess I'm also feeling nervous because I'm terrified that whatever ATAR I'm going to get, is going to make me a bad representative of Ruse.

Reading what I wrote just then seems like a load of bs. My relationship with God is based entirely on faith and so I really just need to trust him that this is how it's meant to be. I am insanely nervous of what's going to happen, insanely nervous to know what he wants for me, because that ATAR is going to determine what's going to happen for the next four years of my life. Or more. I really don't know if I'm going to be happy with it, like if I miraculously got into Usyd/ unsw (um, no, not going to happen), or I'd be excited but nervous, like if I got into ANU, or I'd be really mixed up because I can't decide what I should go with, like if I got into UTS and I'd have to decide whether I should stay in Syd or go to Canberra +_+; or I'd be feeling sick in the stomach because I'd have to go to Macq for law. Or if I really should be choosing law in the first place!

I do think I've learnt a lot in the past few months. Post-trials, I've realised how much my grade means to me, how much friendships mean to me, and I've noticed how we are all in this together and how easier it is for me to relax when I have my friends nearby. I've learnt that studying isn't such a bad thing after all, and it can be fun, and it's really not that hard to study when you get the hang of it. I've learnt that maths is insanely important and would have been much easier if I did the homework and really PRACTICED, english is all about memorising good essays TWO nights before, NOT one, choosing the right subjects is so important, exams need a lot of exam technique preparation, being on edge is not good for my sleep, sleeping late is not good for my body and my concentration skills, and doing DOE/ aiming high for cadets isn't only for a badge/ ranks. I wish someone had told me all this earlier.

But all I can do now is work even harder, and hope to God that my memory is working properly for the rest of these two weeks. TWO WEEKS! Can you believe it? I'm DONE in LESS than two weeks! Another 13 days. (: til freedom!

you can count on me like 1, 2, 3

2010-10-19T23:20:00.003+11:00

112/ really good study notes make me happy.

Ed and Tom pointed out to me today that I have a crooked nose.

T_T. FML. Did I randomly break it one day and not realise?!?!?! Like I'm usually not very self-conscious, but after noticing that I am close to not fitting into my Levi's anymore (I CANT TELL IF ITS BECAUSE IM GROWING OR IM JUST GETTING FAT), and my hair going flat again since it's getting longer, and my face and skin feels so dry because I feel so insanely dehydrated, and I'M GETTING PIMPLES WHAT IS THIS and my throat is starting to hurt ..

People, please don't look at me until HSC finishes. KTHXBAI.

ANCIENT STUDY HERE WE GOOOOO. Mod kids and PDHPE kids,

GOOOOOOODLUUUUUUUCK!

lucky to have been where i have been

2010-10-18T20:57:00.006+11:00

111/ exam questions that suit my essays make me happy.

PAPERTWORANT

PAPER TWO WAS INSANELY BETTER THAN PAPER ONE. The questions :DDD I was fully like OMG YAYAYAYAY. Worked perfectly. Thank you God. Hahaha. Worst thing was mindblanking for Mod A T_T. You cannot imagine the amount of bs there is in that essay LOLS. For some reason, I feel like I wrote infinitely less in paper 2 than in paper 1 ??? How does that even work.. the essays are around the same length o_o yet I wrote 9 pages for the essay in paper 1 and only a bit over 7 for my longest (Mod B) for paper 2. I even swear that I wrote bigger for paper 2 too ... DOESNT MAKE SENSE T_TTTT. Timing was better for paper 2 too. Maybe because I wrote less?? But anyhow, did Mod B, then I was going to do Mod C but then forgot my intro =_= so I went and did Mod A before Mod C. (y). Finished with about a minute or two to spare yay. I really really really hope I did enough to lose like, only one or two marks T_T. I don't know how they mark for HSC!

I'm actually sad that english advanced is over. I really liked our english class!!! And even the stuff we learnt ahahaha. GOOD TIMES :DDD

Went to Macq afterwards to studyyyyy because Ancient's on Friday and I need to learn everything by then lolol. And there was no way I was going to work if I went home. Like me now, I'm just blogging and going on tumblr. ahaha. Got a lift off Ed to Macq (thanks Mr. Li!) and then we had to walk to Macq centre to meet up with Jack and Kaz and Natalie, went to Azakaze for lunch, went back to Macq to study, and .. we didn't really get much stuff done =_=; I went through 8 pages of notes in the .. AT LEAST 4 hours that we were there T_T. So okay, I slept for about half an hour, and had interesting conversations with the guys again. About AskMen.com LOLOLOL. I actually want to visit that site and see how many of the things they say about girls on those articles are true. But yea, left at about .. 7, ate dinner with Dad at Pho Sam at Epping and then I just slept on the way back home.

I had another interesting dream last night +_= I went to sleep at 12, and didn't actually fall asleep until at least 2, I think. I also think of really weird scenarios before I fall asleep, I've realised... like last night, I was thinking about what would happen if we went to schoolies and then our house got burgled and the burglars were setting fire to the place like in Nikita and what happened to Alex, and they had people at gunpoint and I had to run over to the neighbours of that place and bang on their door and yell for help, and then running back to the house, I'd get shot by these other burglars who were waiting at the sides at the front of the house.. and then I stopped thinking about that scenario because I got too scared.

T_T I think there's something wrong with me.

And in the dream, I dreamt about having a science class in C9.3 (WTF) and I had some talk to myself about a single layer of cheese stuck to the top of a pizza, and a double layer of cheese stuck on the bottom of the pizza. And the differences between the two. And I was on the bus going to school and we passed the North Rocks Community Centre, and then the bus suddenly changed into my car. o_o. WHAT IS THISSSS.

Am I the only one whose having these weird dreams. . . .

Oh and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL!!!!!

Omg I am so sorry for not saying it to you this morning even though I TALKED to you this morning T_T SORRIES BUT i hope you had an amaazinggggg day (even with an exam on..) and celebrated it properly!

also

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HASH!!!!!

You are so entirely awesome (: (: I miss reading your blog! But anyhows, HAPPY BIRTHDAY I hope you had a super great exciting day today too and paper2 didn't spoil your mood for grand celebrations or anything like that ahahaha. GOODLUCK FOR MOD!

and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOUIEEEEEE

for yesterday! DUDEEEE Hope you had an epic epic day even though it might've been a lot hectic-er because you'd have been studying for paper 2, but maybe you might not have been since you're like an english genius :D ahahaha.

ps. Jess, maybe I wasn't supposed to.. LOL but I caught a sneak peek of your new layout!! YAYAYAYAY IT'S FREAKING AWESOME, I am again insanely jealuz of your outofthisworldkaboom html skillzzzz!!! BUT WHY ARE YOU HTML-ING BEFORE END OF HSC LOLOLOL. It makes me want to change my layouttttt but I really ceebs, because I added so many random things into this one, like the encrypted text thingys and the expand text thingys that.. yea. It will take too long and I am too lazy. BUT DUDEEE, I really like it :DD!!! Only other thing would be a back to the top button ahahaha. Kus. I'm lazy like that 8)

your grace has overwhelmed my brokenness

2010-10-17T16:34:00.005+11:00

110/ when i finish memorising my essays, it will make me happy.

I am slowly going insane from writing and rewriting my essays T_TT. At the moment, I've memorised my Mod B essay and half of Mod A and half of Mod C. I'm only weirdly memorising them at the moment because I AM SO FREAKING BORED. I love english, BUT I CAN ONLY TAKE SO MUCH +_+; I feel like I'm on edge at the moment. There is no way in this world I can relax until I finish tomorrow, and I am so scared that I am going to mindblank!!!! So I guess more writing for me. I'm actually more worried that I can't write fast enough tomorrow =_=; because my hand is aching already and I can't seem to find a good enough pen ): I used to have this AMAZING freebie pen, BUT IT RAN OUT OF INK. And because it's a freebie pen, I have no idea how to get another one.

I've also realised that when I'm not relaxed, I ALWAYS have weird dreams. Like last night's dream had something to do with me having a $99 (or was it$999?) fee because I had overdue fees for Eastwood library books (WTF? I haven't even been to that library to borrow books for years!) And there was more, but I've forgotten them now. The night before Paper One, I had a dream about how I was at yum cha with my mum after the exam and I was talking about how I forgot to write the sections at the top of the page, so the markers wouldn't be able to distinguish between which section, and I was screwed. OBVIOUSLY NOT A GOOD OMEN.

T_T.

Mcf4dyen STILL HASN'T REPLIED TO MY EMAIL ABOUT MY MOD C ESSAY FML FML FML. What happens if they ask for one related for mod c?!??!?!? My essay would be like... 750-800 words only T_TTTTT CRAAAAAP.

STUDY HARD RUSE 2010!

The headliner, finisher, I'm the closer, winner

Best under pressure one second's left I show up

If you're on the floor, bring out the fire,

and light it up, take it up higher,

gonna push it to the limit, give it more.

i go hard, can't stop.

but if i stop then just know that imma bring it back,

never quittin on believin that.

Edit: So last night, I was complaining to my mum about how my thumb was killing me because it felt like I was getting a blister from writing so much, and it was going red and felt like a hotspot. This morning, it was gone, but regardless, my parents went out and bought me ELASTOPLAST! LOLL. It's like a cling wrap bandaid HAHA. I don't even know if it's going to help, but it's the thought that counts right? I love my rents ahahaha.

ANYHOW, IT'S LIKE 7PM AND MCF4DYEN STILL HASN'T REPLIED TO MY MOD C ESSAY AKLSJFSDJFKLS. Mod A is done though, WOOHOO. But I feel like I've forgotten everything from Mod B and C already. T_TT WHY DO I HAVE SUCH CRAP MEMORYYYY.

searching far and wide

2010-10-15T12:53:00.022+11:00

109/ HP7 makes me happy

I don't think most people want to read my hsc rants lulz so yea, skip the next bit.

PAPERONERANT

I'm sorta not happy with how I went with 2U paper one =_=; The texts they gave us sucked! And seriously, what were the odds that they were going to make us do one related again =_=; omgr. EITHER WAY, IT'S OVER, but I would've rathered the Ruse trial paper one to this one T_T. Hopefully, the person who marks mine will be okay with a 4 page creative and loads of rambling on my comprehension. Definitely didn't write enough for the 5 mark question though since I spent way too long on essay damn damn damn damn damn ):

TIFFANY, GET OVER IT.

NB: Cheddar cheese does not go well with spag bol.

On a much much much better note,

HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS PART 1 TICKETS GO ON SALE TODAY! YAYYAYYY!

It looks like as if I'm going to be watching it with my fam on the 20th at IMAX! ECTATICCCC. I would've watched it on the 18th at midnight if I could, but I don't think my rents or even my sister is willing to do so LOLS. So Saturday night it is 8). BE JEALUZ CHRIS YIP.

EDIT: So Armageddon is on TV right, and I didn't finish watching it because my mum got mad at me for resting so much today, so instead I go onto youtube to watch the ending. FREAKING HELL (spoiler)

THE PART WHERE THEY DRAW STRAWS TO THE PART WHERE THEY LEAVE ON THE SHUTTLE. The whole scene where Bruce Willis pulls out the air thingy in Ben Affleck's space suit and chucks him back into the elevator thing, AND ESPECIALLY WHEN HE'S TALKING TO LIV TYLER AHMYGADDDD ): ): ): ): saddest thing ever.

I'M LIKE BAWLING. I've freaking watched that part ~~TWICE. TWICE!~~ THREE TIMES NOW And I've teared up ~~BOTH~~ EVERY TIME WHAT IS THIS AJFKLSDJF. Why do I do this to myself T_T/

im outta time

2010-10-13T17:57:00.004+11:00

HSC IS IN TWO DAYS?!?!?! THIS IS NOT COOL/ ASHDDJHFSDJFHKJASHKD FREAKJING OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

ENGLISHABSD JDFNKLSDNF KL i want to cry.
like I am insanely NERVOUS. LIKE CRAp. ITS LIKE AS IF THESEA RE THE FIRST EXAMS IVE EVERD ONE IN MY LIFE. BUT THEY ARENT BUT THEY MEAN SO MUICH. aw damn ): ): i need to do a past paperrrrr T_T. FANSFKLNDKFLNLKF.

btw. Do the exams start at 9:25 or are we meant to get there at 9? !
IM SO NERVOUS. FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFCUK.

CALM.
where is the calmnessssssssssss.

never say never

2010-10-12T01:58:00.004+11:00

BREAKING NEWS. LITERALLY.

NO WAY LOLOLOLOL.

IT REALLY HAS BROKEN LOLOL.

Sorry. Had to share. Ahahahaha.

x

EDIT: OMG how cute is Jaden !! I hope he won't turn out like all those child Hollywood stars, like that Home Alone kid.

it all has a price it dont come for free

2010-10-11T18:04:00.005+11:00

108/ considerate people make me happy.

I still have trouble sleeping. I'm tired, but obviously not tired enough to close my eyes to sleep. Slept late enough to wake at noon =_=;

LUMIX TZ10 or ZR3? The LX3 is so SO so so awesome but it's too impractical. I found it easier to use Kenny's DSLR than it was to use Nathan's LX, and DSLR cameras are so much more bulkier. The TZ10 is much heavier than the ZR3 though (218g to 153g, and both are heavier than my old FX07, but it has a GPS system (geotags the photo or something), better zoom (12x, compared to the ZR3's 8x), bigger screen, and faster shutter speed (1/2000s to 1/1300s). It's also more expensive. I think it really comes down to what I really need in a camera. I really want to have SUPER vibrant quality photos (which is why the LX3 would've been so good but the zoom sucks like crap at 2.5x, and even my FX07's zoom sucked and that was at ... 4x. Guess I'll have to drag myself camera shopping soon and see which one's more aesthetically pleasing to me. Although pretty much all sites that I came across for reviews of those two cameras say that the TZ10 is better. Overall.

I VERY STUPIDLY WATCHED A CLIP OF GG THAT A TUMBLR FRIEND RECOMMENDED. AKSJFKLSDJFKLSDJFLK SDJKFL. Why did I just spoil the entire season ending for myselffffff. T_T. And Chuck Bass has a very nice voice. HAAHHA. I didn't know that. I really should watch GG after HSC.

Things I find out on tumblr:

True love exists. Love at first sight does not.
I'm not the only one who hates comic sans and papyrus.
Photos look better against a black background.
Binder clips do more than just keep paper together.
Words can literally be lost in translation.
There are so many shoes out there that I really really really want.
And clothes.
And rings/ accessories.
): I want to go shopping.
There are so many places out there that just HAVE to be seen!
I want long hair.
Screencaps are so cool.
There are a lot of mindblowing facts in this world.
Some people in this world are insanely cruel.
Others are insanely pretty.
Mean Girls/ Harry Potter/ Friends/ Old Spice ad, etc. will always be quoted.
I love houses with really high ceilings and white walls and lots of natural light.
I really dislike the fact that brown eyes are a dominant gene.
My childhood memories are constantly revived.
It is the best site to find great quality photos of anything. I prefer using tumblr to get images over google.
Forever alone.

I cleaned out my wardrobe a few days ago. Translation: I chucked out half the clothes in there. And gave them to my sister. So now, there's so much SPACE ! FOR NEW CLOTHES :D Yayyy. I don't know why I feel like I want to go shopping so much these days.

Dude people I'm really sorry for not replying to texts at the moment. My phone is really starting to piss me off because I constantly have to delete text messages since it freaking LIMITS my inbox/ sent messages folder. So every time I text I have to delete messages that I WANT TO KEEP. Trying to figure out a way to save all my texts to my computer.. I'm not even sure if it's possible at all, BUT I'M TRYING. If anyone knows how to save messages from a LG phone, PLOX TELL ME :) :) !!!

It is so close to crunch time.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY CHRISHAN DHANAPALARATNAM !
I hope you are studying hard, dude! But also celebrated your day awesomely anyhow :D

x

10점 만점에 10점!

2010-10-10T23:04:00.003+11:00

107/ finding a lost usb makes me happy.

FINALLY GOT THROUGH 3 x 8 HOURS OF MATHS TUTORINGGG. I am exhausted. I was going to sleep right after dinner, but then I needed to send an epic text (y). And I had to wait for the right time to do it so I tumblr-ed until now.

SHORT TERM AND LONG TERM GOALS:

Start playing piano again.
Play Yiruma's Kiss the Rain.
Play Jon Schmidt's All of Me.
Decide what camera I want.
Save up for that camera.
Drive again.
Learn a language. Fluently.
Skydive.
Cook more often.
Rearrange my room.
Jailbreak my itouch.
Get a case for my itouch.
Get new headphones.
Buy more shoes.
Make amigurumi.
Make paper cranes. Like Cho's present.
Buy a decent pair of sunglasses!
Buy new makeup/ skincare products.
Go shopping in general.
Save up a lot of monies.
Get a job.
GET A PUPPY.
Go gym.
Fill up my passport with so many stamps that I have to get a new passport because I've run out of pages, not because I need to renew it.
GET A BLACK AMEX. .. Kidding. Not really. But if I had one, hoooooly crap. (8
Own a shopping centre/ restaurant.

.. Yea I think I started dreaming a little bit too far ahead at the end of that list. Lack of sleep does that to me. Hm. But I do want to become that successful in life one day.

Being tired makes me feel grumpy too. And I start to not make sense.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACK ZHANG!

x

don't look now

2010-10-09T22:05:00.006+11:00

106/ SHE'S THE MAN makes me happy.

Freaking hilarious. I even remember when I first watched it in the cinemas for Flo's birthday at Castle Towers after church, and we even went to Casba's before we watched it for lunch. And then ever since then, I've never gotten sick of the movie. Amanda Bynes is SO PRETTY ! D: and Channing Tatum LOLOL :D the appealing guy. man. guy man. Flow is flow.

I seeeeee you through your window, while I'm staaaanding on a treeeeee outsideee.
MALCOLM! CAN YOU SHED SOME LIGHT ON THE CURRENT SITUATION?!
ROFL. I mean like if I had to make a list of what movies I could watch and never get sick of, this would be on it. Basically any movie where I could just sit there and recite the script. And that goes for The Notebook, and Mean Girls, and Bring it On, and probably a lot of the Disney movies. LIKE THE HUNCHBACK OF NOTRE DAME WAS ON TONIGHT and I totes didn't know until Dad changed the channel and it was the credits. Devastated. Haven't watched a classic disney film for ages. HSC please be over so I can watch movies and not feel guilty about wasting time.

Hey did you guys know that the actor who played Toby in She's the Man was the red power ranger??? HOW COOL IS THAT. But I have to say that Paul is the genius in the movie. Favourite character after Viola ahahaha. (:

HANG TEN.

Most importantly in this post though,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARTHUR GOR
HOPE THIS WAS AN AMAAZING DAY FOR YOUUUU :D Sorries that I won't be at church tomolo to actually wish you happy birthday face to face belatedly, but STILL.

x

raise your glass

2010-10-08T23:51:00.002+11:00

105/ have free 3 to 3 calls make me happy.

SUPER disjointed post.

.. I feel pretty noob asking this, but PEOPLE ON 3, how do you check credit =_=; BESIDES planet 3 since my phone is not from 3. Only my sim card is. Freaking hell, my mum showed me my phone bill for Sept 4 - Oct 3. I'm on a $29 plan, and I used nearly $110 this past month. I SWEAR I didn't even text that much, but it says I spent over $70 on texts.

?!?!

I am so calling from now on =_=;

HASH, THANKYOU SO MUCH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Went to intu today and did 8 HOURS OF MATHS. 2 holiday revision courses, 2u + 3U and 4hrs each. Repeat for tomorrow and Sunday. Hooooooly crap. I keep thinking today is Saturday for some reason. It's getting too close to ENGLISH PAPER ONE IM GOING TO FREAK T_TT.

I'm getting pimples now T_TTT FAR OUT.

on a completely different note,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CONNIEEEEEE :D

x

and im that little bit of hope

2010-10-06T23:43:00.002+11:00

104/ GETTING economics makes me happy.

It doesn't feel as good as getting a particularly difficult maths question, but..

I'm freaking ecstatic. Learnt so much Eco today :D TOM CHEN whatever I'm getting in Eco for HSC is dedicated to you. You also should not have told me that you beat my high score on fruit ninja by the way, I might spend a few minutes on your iphone tomorrow to make sure I beat it. ALSO FINISHED MY ENGLISH. So the story still sucks, but at least it's something =_=; Now to find everything and save everything into separate files to send to Mcf4dyen and M4yers. ESTHER ZHOU WHY HAVE YOU NOT REPLIED TO MY MESSAGE?!

.. okay just checked my phone, my message inbox is full again. This is why I hate LG phones. They never have sufficient space allocated for the messages - it's capped at like, 250 ish messages in inbox and sent messages. Freaking asodksdlfk =_=; Yet EZV still hasn't replied. What a dog. ):

I still feel unaccomplished though. Not sleeping until I feel that satisfaction of doing enough study. I have approximately one hour before I will be losing precious sleep time. Or gamble the fact that I might sleep in too much again, and get to Macq by .. noon. But REGARDLESS, STAYING UNTIL 10PM AGAIN. I am still unable to work very well at home.

I think I have a new timetable.

Sleep at midnight.
Wake up at 7.
Get ready and go to Macq, assuming I'll get there by 830.
WORK until 10pm, allowing approx an hour or so of edwardo -..ment?/ lunch/ so forth.
Go home, shower.
Blog/ fs/ tumblr/ eat if necessary.
Sleep at midnight.

(y).

And for all your super super super heartwarming/ panic-preventing/ encouraging comments, I am so so grateful. It certainly made me work harder today. Whoever sent me "The World's Greatest" by R Kelly, THANKYOU! It's been on repeat all day.

I am such a hypocrite +_+ I write all this stuff to motivate myself and then I get bombarded by panic, and then I don't follow my own advice. GREAT WORK TIFF.

Okay just got a text from Esther. LOLOLOL Goodstuff today Ksin, with the invite for the party this Saturday ROFL. Kidding, it was an awkward conversation mangz >_>

x

please return my call

2010-10-05T22:59:00.003+11:00

103/ getting a high score on fruit ninja makes me happy.

Last night, I was on the verge of crying. I was panicking so much. And this was like, 2, 3AM in the morning. I realised that I have so much work to go - I still haven't rewritten my 3U creative for goodness sake! English is supposed to be my best subject! What if I can't memorise them all in time, there's hardly any time left! I have tomorrow and Thursday to finish off rewriting my essays and creatives and finish eco notes that are taking me FOREVER (NO KIDDING) and once next Monday hits, I think I'm going to panic every single day. And I feel like as if I don't know anything about economics, and I don't have time after this week to really LEARN everything about economics! And I made such STUPID mistakes in a 2U paper (I scribbled STUPID in big letters all over it) and I haven't even touched 3U because I'm so afraid of maths. Ancient isn't sticking inside my head, and every time I read ancient notes, I keep thinking, would mod have been easier to remember? Would I have enjoyed mod more than ancient? Why did I not choose better subjects? Why did I not choose subjects that scaled better? Why did I not choose subjects that RUSE ACTUALLY DID PRETTY GOOD IN?! And then I think about my ATAR estimate, and then I think about how it's so difficult to keep up with everyone, and then I think about WHY THE HELL I WAS SO STUPID TO NOT WORK PROPERLY THIS YEAR. And then I think about why it only hit me during TRIALS that I was wasting away Year12.

I am so scared right now. I AM NOT FREAKING READY. It took me forever to get to sleep. I wanted to call someone too but then I kept thinking that it's so late, and it's all just so stupid and everyone's going to tell me the same thing. STOP THINKING AND JUST WORK. STUDY HARD. WORK HARDER. CONCENTRATE. But what if I'm just like that. Like, even working harder isn't going to be enough. I know I have to stay positive, I know I have to work, I know I have to concentrate and just DO THE STUPID STUDY, but why does it not stay in my head? I can do the study. I can rewrite everything and try to understand everything, but IT'S NOT STICKING IN MY HEAD FUCKFUCKFCUFKCFIAJFKJF. I am RUNNING OUT OF TIME. I KNOW so many people tell me that I can do it and I just have to do my best. But FML I wish it was that easy.

I'M FREAKED OUTTA MY ASS. (taking the words of Lauren Yip. LOL). But I am. I am so so scared. I don't even know what I'm scared of. I think right now I'm just so entirely disappointed in myself. I don't know how I can get out of this mess.

I need to cheer up. I need the right advice. I need to work work work work work. PLEASE STICK IN MY HEAD.

x

too late

2010-10-04T20:27:00.003+11:00

102/ perfectly made iced chocolates make me happy.

Macq today. I woke up at 9, looked at my phone clock and I was like, oh crap I'm supposed to be at Macq NOW. So I texted Tom and told him that I was going to be late, and somehow fell asleep again until 10. Stupid DST. I didn't get to Macq until .. around noon. =_=; Got some eco notes done, but besides that, sort of uneventful except for seeing ruseys again :D And also saw Cho, Jo, Alo and Nathan.

Why is it, that every time I hang out with you people, I get interrogated T_T.

Car trip home though, HAHA it was pretty epic. So throughout the entire day, Ed was trying to get the name (I'm never telling, by the way) and on the way back, in Nik's car, Jack was still trying to get the name. Somehow, we began playing this random game that Jack made up, and basically I'd give the first letter and last letter of any person's name and Nik and Jack would guess what the name was. Um, not sure why we agreed to play it LOL I think we just had nothing else to do... anyhow. The first two we played, Nik won and then in the third game, the letters were J and A. After quite a few guesses that were pretty valid, like Joanna and Jessica, Jack suddenly goes:

"HEATHER! In the gangsta way."

Nik and I were fully like O_O WTF. LOLOL. What a noob.

Yea that's the epic story of the day (y). The end.

Macq again tomorrow! MUST SLEEP EARLY TONIGHT. My stomach was hurting all day T_T fml. And I missed dinner because after I got home and talked on the phone for a bit, I just slept. But I've had dinner now. :D

OH! Also, I learnt today, that if you buy a large iced chocolate from the Gloria's at Macquarie Centre, they don't give you two stamp thingys. =_=; It's still one. Damn you EZV for getting two at Epping! I thought you actually would get two for buying a large. ): And they made it crap. Tasted like chocolate milk. The one at Epping tastes so much better.

MINNAAA you are so right. Co-Ed is so much better than I expected. and Jack you really shouldn't have deleted our awesome photos ): and vids ): ): ):

x

copy and paste

2010-10-03T23:01:00.005+11:00

101/ really cute puppies make me happy.

I really really really really want to go out and buy a puppy already! Both my parents think that it's best to get one after the uni offers come out, just in case I do go to Canberra, but argh! I seriously want a dog. When I get my own place, the first thing I'm buying is a dog. I've wanted one since Year 4 and I've GRADUATED ALREADY ): And I still don't have one. Actually I wanted a horse first in Year 4, but then after I stopped going horse-riding lessons in like.. what year 5/6 I sort of gave up on that idea ahaha. Still. Even a cat would be okay. I just want a pet D:

Went to CHL today, saw a lot of Baulkos and Ruseys :D and FINALLY got that milkshake. I was feeling insanely tired all day though so I think I might just go sleep now =_=; Could hardly concentrate today. I hate daylight saving. I feel like as if I'm jetlagging. I already found it difficult to sleep early before DST and now =_=; my 1am sleeping time has turned into 2am. And I really hate all this rain.

Maybe I shouldn't hate so much. I'll make another I love list to stop myself from being so negative.

I love sunny days.
I love it when i dont need to choose another song myself because itunes plays good songs on shuffle.
I love the sound of heavy rain.
I love the smell of books. Especially Harry Potter books.
I love really pretty handwriting/ font/ typography.
I love it when my hair dries fast, so I don't need to use a hairdryer.
I love waking up and realising that my hair isn't in a mess.
I love genius videos like that one* that Hannah showed us today.
I love Pepero.
I love my parents for buying me Pepero, knowing that I pretty much live on study food these days.
I love my parents regardless.
I love my sister for doing so much for me in this past year, and putting up with me making her do everything.
I love staying up by myself at night when everything else is silent.
I love yellow post-it notes.
I love being able to remember particular maths formulas, like sum of AS is (n/2)(2a+(n-1)d).
I love encouraging text messages, and ones that make me feel more determined, but not stressed.
I love the feeling of freedom
I love how we blare k-pop in Kin's car and accelerate just to catch up to Pei. It's fun.
I love that I'm slowly starting to figure myself out, and asking deeper questions to myself, like seriously considering what I want to do in life, and how am I going to achieve that.
I love that God is with me at all times.
I love how there are just some lows in my life because they're reminders that I need to rely on God, not on myself.
I love difficulties in life, because that's when I rely on God and get closer to him as a consequence.
I love how I can overcome my own faults.
I love the feeling of overcoming my own faults.
I love feeling determined and motivated.
I love how you can say things that are so meaningful in just a few words. Completely something that I cannot do.
... I might dye my hair this week. The only thing stopping me is that it means I'll never have this shade of hair colour ever again. I like original things too much.

And here's the videoooo :D MEAN GIRLS DISNEY-STYLE. Love it.

x

just gonna stand there and watch me burn

2010-10-02T17:14:00.006+10:00

100/ being warm and indoors when it's pouring outside makes me happy.

DON'T FORGET DAYLIGHT SAVING. TURN THE CLOCKS FORWARD ONE HOUR. YOU GET ONE LESS HOUR TO STUDY.

100 happy memes! :D

Got woken up this morning by an absolute downpour outside my window. It was raining so hard and it looked so cool that I got up and and opened my blinds to just watch the rain fall. But then I got sleepy doing that and slept for another four hours I think =_=;. Today was just one of those days where you can sleep the day away because it's so so comfortable lying in bed and listening to the rain (: (:

Bleh, I find it hard to express myself these days. It's as if I'm using the wrong words for everything and every time I reread something I wrote, it doesn't seem to make sense. It's as if I'm phrasing everything that I say wrong, and whenever I'm trying to explain something, it doesn't come out right =_=; It is so so so so frustrating. Maybe I just need to start reading classics again - I have a whole heap of those orange Penguin Classics that I haven't finished reading.

Must get rid of all this msn speak.

And I have confirmed my suspicions, I most definitely cannot study at home. I slept until 2pm and I caught up on Hellcats and Nikita yesterday. AHMYGAD What is wrong with me. T_T. WHY am I watching TV shows when I have LESS THAN TWO WEEKS LEFT. STUDY. Okay, not sleeping until I've done three 2u past papers today.

Bruno Mars' new album just finished downloading. Listening to Grenade at the moment :D I really like it. Oh and the song I was looking for was Count on Me (: I still love SHINee's Lucifer album more than this.

Study Playlist (aka songs that keep me awake and motivated to study):

2012 (Final Version) - Jay Sean ft. Nicki Minaj
Oh My God - Mishon
Got Your Back - T.I. ft Keri Hilson
Choose You - Stan Walker
Letting Go (Dutty Dutty) - Sean Kingston ft. Nicki Minaj
Grenade - Bruno Mars
The Only Exception - Glee Cast (Lea Michele)
It's Amazing - Atozzio
Worldwide - Lil Eddie
Stronger - Kanye West
Bad Girl Good Girl - miss A
A-Yo - SHINee
Lucifer - SHINee
미인아 (BONAMANA) - 슈퍼주니어 (Super Junior)
If We Ever Meet Again - Timbaland ft. Katy Perry
Hurricane Venus - BoA
Hold On - Toby Mac
DJ Got Us Falling In Love Again - Usher ft. Pitbull
Foolin' Around - Usher
Tonight - FM Static
삐리빠빠 - Narsha
Somebody To Love - Justin Bieber ft. Usher
Get Em Girls - Jessica Mauboy ft. Snoop Dogg
queen - 손담비 (Son Dambi)
Dreams Again! - After School
Copy & Paste - BoA
爱我别走 - 周杰伦
Mastermind - B2ST
Dynamite - Taio Cruz
Break Your Heart - Taio Cruz
Love The Way You Lie Mashup - Sam Tsui
Don't Want An Ending - Sam Tsui
In My Head - Mohammed Ali
If I Said Hello - Mishon
Live Like We're Dying - Kris Allen
California Gurls - Katy Perry ft. Snoop Dogg
꺼져 줄게 잘 살아 - G.NA ft. 용준형 of B2ST
As A Man - Gummy
Without U - 2PM

GOGOGOGOGO!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAIY!!!!!
:DDD I hope you're having/ had/ will continue having a very very awesome birthday!!!!!!!

x

one day at a time

2010-10-01T21:53:00.006+10:00

99/ knowing that ive had a decent amount of sleep makes me happy.

This week has passed much faster than I expected. I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIMEEE. To do so many things. Daylight saving is this weekend too. So we get one less hour. +_+

It really does not feel like school finished last week. Instead, I feel like I'm slowly going crazy. Not being able to see a lot of my friends is definitely a huge reason. And even though I see people everyday (unless im being a noob and staying home because im lazy to get out and end up not working/ studying properly) it's not the same. I STILL MISS EVERYONE.

But it's become easier and easier to start studying. SECOND NATURE WOOT. I still get distracted easily though ahaha. Like I got so hungry today at Epping. Unfortunately it was getting late and too close to dinner to buy something from subway and I forgot to bring study food because I thought I could go home at around 4. And my phone was out of batt by around 2pm. fml. So sorry to peeps who texted me for the late late reply. I always feel so disconnected from the world without my phone T_T.

I will stop complaining about now (:

YESTERDAY! was hectic. Went to study at Macq with MIC people and Simon. I have to remember to go buy some of those fruit candy that Simon brought. Freaking awesome lollies. I got too addicted. And for the first time, I tried out writing on my arm with a sharpie for motivation (y). I wrote determination, and then Billy tells me that all the toxic stuff inside the ink is going to be running through my veins. =_=; fml. Is that actually true =_=;; Regardless, he proceeds to write even more on my arm.

But I got to learn a lot yesterday! MR CHOW :D ahahaha wallace you have to always teach in that chinese accent its freaking hilarious. Except I think most of us were laughing too hard at you to really concentrate. But yay I get binomials now and remember most of motion. Missed out on some sort of slight d&m. And nearly missed the train going back to epping too. I AM SO UNFIT +_+; I need to go running in the morning freaking hell.

Yay Jess thanks for the partay mangz :D It was hectic! The food at Sevo RSL is getting worse though. Used to be so much better. Especially the sushi train. I got to see a lot of Baulko peeps that I havnt seen for a while though - Ann and Mish in particular. I also realised that I find it really cool when we all travel somewhere in a fleet of cars LOL. Played King, and I'm staying away from Jager, Kahlua and Baileys for a long time.

Tang probably freaked me out too much last night as well =_=; FREAKING HELL. I actually found out last night that I didn't finish my UAC properly - like I filled everything in bar the credit card/ payment part. And the guys were talking about it (this was about .. 6something?) and I was like OMG NO. HAVNT FINISHED PROPERLY. So while they're all like ah it's cool, just make sure you submit it before midnight yday night, TANG just randomly goes "Wait what? I thought it was due at 5pm".

O_O.

At first I just laughed it off, thinking that he was joking. BUT HE WAS ACTUALLY BEING SERIOUS WHATTHEEFF. So I freaked and didn't really relax until I actually had it done when I got home. BUT OMG TANG DONT DO THAT. T_T. He was wrong by the way.

Went to Epping today thinking that Intu holiday course was this week, BUT ITS ACTUALLY NEXT WEEK. What is wrong with my timing these days omg +_= lame. I got more time to just STUDY then. Saw Lisa, Mich, Cath, Bernard, Lingo (: (: and I bought post-it notes! yay. My house is going to be covered with yellow patches soon. Filled with maths and eco notes. teehee.

Going to Macq next Monday and Tuesday. And maybe Wednesday. Macq is open 9am - 5pm on Monday (labour day). That means I actually have to get there EARLY otherwise it's going to be PACKED since everyone else probably wants to go to library and the only other library that I know will be opened is State. But I ceebs going all the way to city =_=; and I think everyone else will be thinking that too. So unless anyone wants to open their place for study :D ... then yea, Macq it is.

Castle Hill all weekendddd :D YAY FINALLY I GET TO GET THE CARAMEL MILKSHAKE. Frick I've been craving it ever since I had it two weeks ago.

Lastly:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINGO FOR YESTERDAYYYY.
HOPE YOU HAD AN AWESOME DAYYYY. omg ive known you for so so so so long. SWOT SHOP BUDDIES :D i swear we won that comp LOLLL. and chinese school buddies, even though I hardly talked to you then. I remember waving to you once though. Hm. LOL. And seeing you at Ruse orientation and saying hi :D I remember thinking in year 6 that I hoped to be really good friends with you in HS. I WOULD SAY THAT WE ACHIEVED THAT DREAM :D teehee. I love you mangz ! You've been one of the best friends anyone could ask for. Doojge, rememberrrr :P and cadets - every single biv and freaking awesome annual and being in your section and climbing mt maria together and frick. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. Even though i saw you today HAHA. Stay close, you mean tons to me.

and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JES FOR TODAYYYYYY.
SUP SNEAKY JES i know you got my text this morning :D THANKS FOR EVERY OUTING WITH YOU. They're always freaking fun, and I usually go home feeling so tired from being high with you ahahaha. HOPE YOU HAD A FREAKING FANTASTIC DAY, Woke up without a hangover, and liked your presents!!!! :D I still don't know what I chipped in for. . . BUT REGARDLESS :P hahaha. LOVE YOU LOTS. SEE YOU SOON. GET OFF YOUR LAZY BUTT AND GO TO CASTLE HILL LIBRARY PLOOOOOOX!

also
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBOT AND ARITREE!
ROBOT I STILL REMEMBER YEAR 7!

"PASSION?! I'LL SHOW YOU PASSION!"
-stabs self dramatically-

ahahahaha best english memory ever. I'm pretty sad that I never got to talk to much post-L but that's okay, one day :D HOPE YOU HAD A SUPERGREAT DAY TODAY!

And Aritreeeeeee softball/ maths buddy ! Hope you had a supergreat day today too!

x

EDIT: LOLLLLL the house opposite mine is blaring music (its midnight atm) and Miss Independent is playing right now. Im getting bombarded with memories of Ruse2010 every day. Like on tumblr where there was this picture with the words "chasing butterflies" and I just immediately thought of Cath chasing that cabbage white butterfly in ag for our insect project and running through a field of stinging nettles to catch it LOLL. Omg WHY do I still miss you all so much ?! ):

EDIT AGAIN: CALVIN CHENG/ TOM CHEN/ BRAVIN RAGAVAN, what was the name of the song we were listening to in tom's car yday when we were on our way to the buffet ? I think CC said something about how it should've been played at our grad? I think it was Bruno Mars something but FORGOTTT T_T and it's bugging me.

you are the only exception

2010-09-29T20:54:00.003+10:00

NOTE TO SELF:

STOP DWELLING ON THINGS YOU CANNOT CHANGE.

STOP THINKING ABOUT ANYTHING AND JUST WORKKKKKK.

FREAKING HELL GO.

T_T i need to talk. and stop mood-fluctuating.

clap your hands

2010-09-29T16:26:00.004+10:00

98/ being around the best grade in the world makes me happy.

The Eco lecture thingy at school was today. Pretty uneventful, it was nice to see about 25 other ruseys though :D and Ye0 was superawesome and gave us free morning tea and lunch. I suspect that that was why most people stayed LOL since today was really all just about getting the notes. and reading through them. There's apparently a soft copy of the notes going around, and we also got a sheet on stats and a past paper with answers. (y) so yeeeep :D

Got so edwardoed today though omg. Esther took my phone as usual and started texting CC. And then Jack, Tom and Bravin all took my phone during morning tea and locked themselves in one of the rooms in Barrengarry House to text more. LOL they chucked us this silver platter - I think they were trying to do the whole "put-a-reflective-thing-under-the-door-to-see-whats-going-on-on-the-other-side" except Esther, Ash, Linds and I just stole it from them and tried to hit them whenever someone got close to the door. They eventually took my sim card out and gave me back my phone so =_=; I think they used Bravin's phone to continue texting.

Did you guys know that theres TWO doors to get into the Conference Room?!??! LOL. We gave up, eventually, and went back to the conference room to get food, and tried locking the door so that they couldnt get in. But there was another door that we forgot to lock =_=; DUDE, we didnt know okay. But we learnt our lesson by lunch (fish and chips), and we locked both doors after all the girls had gotten into the room so that we could go get the food first before the guys came in and took everything.

Anyhow this is a pretty bad recap. I'm supertiredddd ): Chin why did you wake me up at 430 this morninggg ): Went back to sleep and didnt wake up til like 8.

BUT OMG TODAY IS ALREADY WEDNESDAY FMALKSFMLKSDNGOIN OIADNFJNSDJ. I'm starting to panic like crap mangz. ogmsdklfmsdklfmsdklf. T_TTT.

NEVERTHELESS, MOTIVATION for today:

RUSE2010, WE CAN DO THIS! 99.95 all the way
I said this to Garvs once. My motivation is that even though we might not be ceebs to study anymore, we have to do it for team! The rest of Ruse relies on EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US to do EXCEPTIONALLY WELL so we can be proud of one another. We can't give up now, JUST THINK ABOUT WHY YOUVE HELD ON FOR SO LONG. And you all know that you are all capable of being the best docs and lawyers and in any career you choose to follow. It's stupid to give up the opportunities now. It's the last stretch. I think everyone's tired. But you HAVE to KEEP FIGHTING and GIVING your ALL, to the point where you can stand at the end and KNOW that there is NOTHING you didnt give of yourself during these last few days. Forget about past crappy results, you cant change that. But you can change what happens between now and the HSC. You could be getting a 95 ATAR if you dont work, to a .95 ATAR depending on how dedicated you are in making these last .. 15 DAYS worthwhile. Don't be worried, just be determined.

And from now on, I'm writing motivational messages on my arm every morning. So I stole the idea from Hellcats, BUT ITLL WORK. I hope.

x

for potential in everyone

2010-09-28T11:52:00.007+10:00

97/ beating meelo at rps makes me happy.

CHIN, in all honesty, I actually woke up when you called at 5 something, but I ceeb-ded answering because I knew I was just going to fall asleep right after. I actually missed the next call, and the third call, I think it was at.. 830ish, I DID WAKE UP LOL. But then I went back to sleep and texted you at 10. when you actually told me to text you 10mins later. Oops.

BUT THE FACT IS THAT IM AWAKE NOW WOOT. You made me forget my dream though. Anyhow, ONE DAY D: I will most definitely wake up the FIRST time you call. T_T.

I have no idea why I was so exceptionally tired though. Like I didnt even sleep that late. 1am is a perfectly acceptable time during the HSC period. So I actually slept for 9 hours!? Wth. I'm getting insanely distracted at home though. Studying at macq with the ancient kids and bravin, squed, meelo and wuman is much much more productive. I DID 10 HOURS YESTERDAY. Insane. I have gone insane. But I have to keep that up +_= and do even more. Fml.

Good short d&m yday, guys. Wuman, you nearly made me laugh until I cried at your epic pushups LOLOLOLOL. And the security camera LOLOLOLOLOL. Eddddddddd please upload vids HAHAHAHA. It is freaking hilarious.

I BEAT MEELO AT RPS. FINALLY!!!!!!!

I feel like as if that was my biggest achievement yesterday LOLLL. We've versed for like.. I don't even remember how many times, and yesterday was the first day I beat him. Ever. Like, even beating him just the ONCE already made my day ahahaha. Let alone best out of 3. :D

But Macq library was so stuffy. Especially since we were studying on Level 4, like I kept getting headaches and having to go to the bathroom and just splash water onto my face because it was so stuffy. Their ventilation system is crappy as. Hope they fix that in their new library that they're building at the moment. And it was unbelievably packed. It's such a huge library too but pretty much every desk was taken. O_O.

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BACK TO ECO. I feel like I should go to a library. Studying at home by myself is freaking hard kus there's noone to keep me accountable, and noone to make me continue working +_+.

TIMETABLE
Monday 27th Sept:
~~Ancient Study Group 10AM - 3/4PM @ Macq Library~~
~~Finish rewriting Mod A essay~~
~~Finish English creative 2U~~
~~Do 1 2U Maths Paper~~
Finish English creative 3U

Tuesday 28th Sept:
VERY IMPORTANT!!! Finish Economics Notes @ Home/ CHL/ WR depending.
Finish English creative 3U

Wednesday 29th Sept:
Economics Study Lecture 9AM @ School
Do 3 eco past papers (no essays)
Do 1 2u maths past paper

Thursday 30th Sept:
BUSY ALL DAY (;
But before I go, write out Belonging essay

Friday 1st Oct:
Intu Maths 2U Holiday Course 9AM - 1PM @ Epping
Private Tutoring 2PM - 330PM @ Epping
Do 3 2u maths past papers.
Write out Mod A essay

Saturday 2nd Oct:
Intu Maths 2U Holiday Course 9AM - 1PM @ Epping
Do 3 2u maths past papers.
Write out Mod B essay

Sunday 3rd Oct:
Intu Maths 2U Holiday Course 9AM - 1PM @ Epping
Do 3 2u maths past papers.
Write out Mod C essay

x

ps. 14th March, 2nd March, 16th June!

pps. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALAN FOR THE 26TH AS WELLLLL. and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TREV FOR YDAYYYY (: (: (: Hope you guys had an awesome day even though its STUDYTIME!!!

ppps.
16 full days left
and then sleeptime for PAPER 1 THE NEXT DAY.

and if that isnt motivation enough:

dont you think its time you started

2010-09-26T23:39:00.004+10:00

96/ being organised makes me happy.

Subjects:
2U ENG - Rewrite creative, Mod A Essay. Send essays, creative, edit, Memorize.
3U ENG - Rewrite creative. Send essay, creative and edit. Memorize.
ECONOMICS - Notes, Past Papers
ANCIENT - Notes, Past Papers
HIST EXT - Write essays
2U MATHS - Past Papers, Syllabus
3U MATHS - Past Papers, Syllabus

TIMETABLE
Monday 27th Sept:
Ancient Study Group 10AM - 3/4PM @ Macq Library
Finish English creatives and SEND 2u/3u

Tuesday 28th Sept:
VERY IMPORTANT!!! Finish Economics Notes @ Home/ CHL/ WR depending.

Wednesday 29th Sept:
Economics Study Lecture 9AM @ School
Do 3 eco past papers (no essays)
Do 1 2u maths past paper

Thursday 30th Sept:
BUSY ALL DAY (;
But before I go, write out Belonging essay

Friday 1st Oct:
Intu Maths 2U Holiday Course 9AM - 1PM @ Epping
Private Tutoring 2PM - 330PM @ Epping
Do 3 2u maths past papers.
Write out Mod A essay

Saturday 2nd Oct:
Intu Maths 2U Holiday Course 9AM - 1PM @ Epping
Do 3 2u maths past papers.
Write out Mod B essay

Sunday 3rd Oct:
Intu Maths 2U Holiday Course 9AM - 1PM @ Epping
Do 3 2u maths past papers.
Write out Mod C essay

someday it'll all be over

2010-09-26T22:00:00.003+10:00

95/ knowing that im seeing a bunch of ruseys tomorrow makes me happy.

I'm going to post at 10PM every night now.

My parents want to move housessssss. They got some real estate agent to come look at our house today so that they could get an approximate price so they can start looking for new houses. Specifically, they want to move to Epping. For convenience. I DONT WANT TO MOVE HOUSESSSSSSS. Freaking Bella Vista is a hole, BUT ITS A FREAKING NICE HOLE. Apparently the rooms of the apartment that they were looking at is about a third of my room now o_o. O_O. LIKE WHAT. I can't even fit my bed in that amount of space!!!!! Or maybe I can, but then I won't have space for my bookshelves of soft toys and booksssssssss ): ): ): But they really want to move. So. =_=. Like if I take the financial thingys into consideration, I can see why it'll be good to. BUT STILL.

Downloaded some songs today to get me through studying. ANY MOTIVATIONAL SONGS SHOULD BE RECOMMENDED 8)

Motivation for the day:

DONT GIVE UP RUSE2010! KEEP HOLDING ON. DO IT FOR THE TEAM.

&. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSH LIUUUUUUU.
You have come so far since Year 7 !!!! SO PROUD OF YOUUUU esp for english :DDDD I am so excited that you're getting baptised too YAYAYAY. LOVE YOU SO MUCH (: (: Thank you so much for being there for me whenever I needed it, for giving me all those little pushes to work so much harder, for being your funny self that I wouldnt be me without :D I'm so so sorry that I couldnt go Bankstown with you today to celebrate properly, but AFTER HSC OKAY. RAINCHECKKKK. (:

also HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELOOOOOOOON
Sorry for not being able to make it to your party !!!!! I HEARD YOUR FOOD WAS AWESOMESAUCE. I'm superjel. But thanks for the awesome chocolate cheesecake on Friday tooooo omg yummmmmm. THANKYOU for being such an freaking cool CMI leader, it's been so so so fun having you around. And for all your encouragement during these past two years, since you've been through all this crap alreadyyyy ahahah. We should crash your place soon after hsc :D teehee.

last but not least HAPPY BIRTHDAY ENOCHHHHHH
HOPE YOU HAD AN AWESOME DAYYY. You're always so quiet but SO FREAKING NICE. We need to talk more ahahaha.

x

ps. TOBANG PEOPLE:

HAHAHAA. but yes, all in good fun (: (:

when youre close to tears remember

2010-09-25T22:39:00.001+10:00

SO FRUSTRATING. STUDY IS MAKING ME GO CRAZY. MY LEFT HAND IS ACHING AND IT HURTS. WHY?! IM FREAKING RIGHT HANDED. AHMYGAD ): I MISS EVERYONE. BEING IN THE HOUSE FOR SUCH A LONG PERIOD OF TIME IS NOT GOOD FOR ME. I'M CRAVING A CARAMEL MILKSHAKE FROM CHL. I HAVE INTU ON FRIDAY 1ST-3RD OCT. 9-1PM. I NEED TO GET OFF THE COMPUTER. I HAVE NO IDEAS FOR CREATIVE. AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO'S FINDING IT HARD TO STUDY PROPERLY??

why does my hand hurt T_TTT asdjlkfjdskf .

... the light in my room just blew out too. GREAT.

get your head in the game

2010-09-25T10:17:00.004+10:00

94/ being home alone to study makes me happy.

So I'm not going to hiatus this time around. I figured that last time, by cutting off everything, I died pretty epically in trials. So to keep me a LITTLE distracted but not too distracted, I'm keeping my blog and formspring alive (: They'll be short posts though. And I've already gotten Cynf to deactivate my facebook (deleted the email notifications about pw change already!) and tumblr is GONE. No reblogging because that takes freaking ages. I get too distracted on tumblr.

So far, i've just rewritten my Mod A essay and I plan to get both creatives done by tonight to send to Mcf4dyen by tomorrow. Yay. 30/275 as of last night. ): MUST WORK HARDER. SLEEP EARLIER SO THAT ILL ACTUALLY WAKE UP WHEN CHIN CALLS LOL.

I get insanely bored so easily though ):

Anyhow, enough! I'm going back to english-ing.

19 DAYS LEFT PEOPLE.

x

so make the best of this test

2010-09-24T18:22:00.002+10:00

93/ one last tribute makes me happy.

Here's a toast.
To the good days, the better friends,
The ones that I just can't live without.
To the people who taught me how to party,
how to live, how to have a good time.
Even when we are just sitting around.
Here's to the people who, no matter how bad things seem,
I know are going to be there for me.
For me to lean back on and to catch me when I fall.
Here's to my best friends, to people who I can tell my secrets to,
who can relate to me, and can make me laugh until I cry,
and let me cry to them when times are great and when times are tough,
and who help me through the never-ending problems of my life.
To the people who don't turn their backs on me, and who have never believed that I was not good enough for anything. People who have not let me down.
People who have gone through so much themselves, yet still have time for me.
I don't think you know how much you mean to me.
I look up to you people, because you are strong and caring and beautiful.
Here's to the memories, the moments where I'm around you all and our stomachs hurt from laughing so hard.
Here's to the times when we get so high from just breathing in so deep,
and for the split seconds where I realise that I don't want to be anywhere else in the world,
and I don't care about the HSC, or rankings, or rules, or parents, or school,
and the only thing I care about are you people with me.
You guys make me feel invincible.

I hope you all know that I always want to be here to listen to you all laugh and cry and help in any way I can,
and I will try my absolute best to be at least half the friend you all have been to me.
I hope you all know that I am the person I am today because of you all,
so thanks for being the friends who believed in me, supported me,
who have always understood, who have accepted me, and have always cared.
And even though I know I have to throw myself into the future,
a huge part of me wants to hurl myself back into the past.

Ruse 2010,
I've been thinking a lot lately about taking chances
and how it's really just about overcoming your fears.
Because the truth is, every time you take a big risk in your life,
no matter how it ends up, you're always glad you took it.
- Scrubs

YAY, I love you all (:
GO FORTH, HSC AWAITS.
GET YOUR FREAKING HEADS IN THE GAME !

x

we will still be friends forever

2010-09-22T16:20:00.003+10:00

92/ good UMAT results for everyone makes me happy.

The worst part was hearing the bell ring at 3:05. There was just such a profound sense of sadness and finality in that. Like I could literally hear myself thinking, holy crap. thats, the last bell we're ever going to hear. That really marked the end of our high school days. And that was when it has finally hit me, that I'm done. 13 years of school, people!

I remember hugging Tanya - dude, seriously, Pansy has just done so much for our grade. And then I saw Squed with tears and CC was trying not to look like he was crying and Rol started crying and then I just died from the waterworks again. And we were so busy hugging everyone and saying bye that most of us (Chrishan, Nik, Brian, Mike, me), ones who, earlier in the week were like OMG WEDNESDAY, LAST BUS TRIP EVERR, actually missed the bus. HAHA. So sorry Alan and Romdom and Louie ): and whoever else caught the bus without us. We stayed in the quad and just went back to crying and hugging people. Well I did. +_+; And after most people had left we just sat and reminisced a bit and said bye. Got a lift off Mike home (: yay ty Mike, say thanks to your mum again for me.

High school has just been an amazing journey. I think I'm somewhat repeating myself from the last two blogs LOL. But no kidding, I love Ruse so much. I STILL wish that I was closer to some people before I left, but we still have time (: POST-HSC and UNIIII. Hopefully I can make it into ANU though, at least. HAHAA. So even if I go interstate, i hope our grade sticks together through thick and thin. I want outings and dinners and sleepovers every time I go back to Sydney. And if I suck too much to get into ANU then I'll prolly see you guys more often that usual LOL.

Now that its actually the last day of school, i have to say that i feel incredibly sad, im very very afraid of forgetting all my memories, im really anxious about how ill be able to keep in touch with everyone, and im so scared of wasting away without my grade's support every single day. i fucking love ruse2010 so much.

STOP MAKING ME CRY FAIJSFKLDJFDAMIT.

I'm hungry. If it wasn't so cold today, I'd have grabbed a tub of icecream and started eating.

x

and as our lives change from whatever

2010-09-20T22:24:00.004+10:00

91/ Ruse 2010 never fails at making me happy.

I think it’s starting to hit me now. I’m exhausted from crying so randomly after the assembly today, that I went home and just slept until dinner. Like I was fine all up until I saw Minna and she had tears and I just waterworked from there ): ): And it was literally like, I would start crying and then I would calm down and then I’d see someone else cry and then I’d cry again, like when I saw Linds and India and Pansy. Friiiiiiick ): Lingo/ Ned/ Eddie’s song had me on the verge of tears as well. And omg LOL to Eddie and Vinnie, I’m so sorry for crying so hard at you two T_TT; I think when Eddie just started talking to me I just got so sad that I might not ever get to see her and have all her support and her random hugs and her epic songs that she makes up and just, yea, the thought about not having that support was just so intensely horrible. And Vinnie kus .. well, I don’t know why exactly - I still think I was douche in year 7. But I think it’s kus he’s always been so nice to me and I feel like I owe him tons. I’m sorry for getting everyones shirts wet ahaha.

The thought of not being able to see everyone everyday is killing me. I know I havn’t been the best student at Ruse, but I’ve only gotten through it because Ruse2010 has always been there to support me and make me work so much harder. I feel like I owe the grade so so so much for everything they’ve done for me, and there’s not enough time to repay that kindness and niceness and all-round epicness. There really is not going to be anywhere else that I could find such amazing people. Ever. And I feel like I havn’t appreciated everyone enough.

I know I’m someone who just craves company. When I’m by myself, I tend to get very negative and I can get easily depressed. SO WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITHOUT YOU ALL T_TTT. There’s so many people that I’m JUST getting to know. I really really really really need more time. Why couldn’t there be a high school year, like Year 13, where all you do is get to know your grade even better?? We should petition.

I have no idea why I’m still feeling sad. I’ve been telling CC all week that we still have schoolies and formal and outings and we can go on coffee breaks together and see each other at uni. Yet the fact that we’re losing this Ruse bubble where it’s only just us 170ish of us and we get to spend so much time together, I’m really scared that somehow, we’re all just going to forget each other. And I think even though I’m like NO WAY. FACEBOOK, PHONES, TECHNOLOGY ROCKS, I know deep down that I’m definitely going to lose contact with some, if not a lot, of you.

Ruse has just gone by so fast. The idea that you don’t know what you’ve got and you don’t appreciate it until it’s gone is so so so true. I’ve had the most amazing time, the best six years of my life. I’m going to miss all this. FML I’m going to cry again on Wednesday and I’m already tearing up now. I know I’m going to reminisce so much, just hanging in the common room and in the library and bus trips and

AJSDKDJSFK The thought that I can’t do any of that anymore after this Wednesday is making me tear up again. STOOOOOOOOP IT.

I love my ram! He will always remind me of these epic adventures during these six years (: (: And I’m bringing him to schoolies. And I’ve already been pricked by the stupid needles that are holding the ribbon onto him. Maybe I’ll sew it on instead so I won’t continue injuring myself.

LOVE, TIFF
(NO MEELO, just, no)

PS. KEVINSIN, MINCO AND YOUR RAPPING WAS VERY COOL. THIS IS YOUR SHOUTOUT. I WAS SITTING IN THE FRONT ROW DURING YOUR DANCE. STOP HATING. (y) (:

PPS. Assembly didnt have the most sentimental vibe that i was hoping for, but i had superhigh expectations ahaha. MINCO AND YFM AND MIC ROCKED THE JC HOSKIN AUDITORIUMMM. and lingo/ ned/ eddie had me on the verge of tears, and kadi was freaking AMAZING as usual and nik/ alan/ tim's compilation of songs and louie’s band was epic and squed/ minna/ ksin/ meeeeloooo/ bravin's intro was so so so good, i especially loved minna's last song, and george did a pretty good taeyang interpretation but i missed one of the songs when we were getting ready for MIC ):

PPPS. STACEY LAW HAS GOT IT GOING ON.

PPPPS. ESTHER you'll get your shoutout next post LOL. Ive been putting off the big shoutout post (:

x

all the times we had together

2010-09-19T17:54:00.004+10:00

90/ epic msn convos make me happy.

YO RUSE 2010,

The years have really flown. I’m struggling to find the words at the moment.. maybe also because it hasn’t hit me yet. Still. Haha. I can’t imagine not being able to see you all every day, being able to just bump into people on our way to class, meeting people in the library and saying hi during frees, finding people in the canteen lines so that they can buy our food for us, yelling together about senior priority on buses, milling around the quad during roll call with everyone.. I’M REALLY SAD NOW. I’m scared that I take all of you guys for granted. Would it really be that easy to just call someone and arrange for coffee together during uni? Would we all be able to keep in touch even though some of us will be going interstate? Would anybody bother organizing reunions next year, in 2, 3, 4, 5, 10 years? Will we be invited to each other’s weddings and attend (according to fl00d) two funerals? (SAY NO FOR THE LATTER PLS. I DON’T WANT ANY OF YOU TO DIE). I mean, it’s only the weekend and I see you guys tomorrow and yet there’s the mantra inside my head going ‘THIS IS THE END.’ (to the tune of “this is the moment” lulzzz) but my point is,

Well, I’m going to miss you guys ):

Very very very very very very very muchly.

… x 12983oi480923480-234-0932480324.

High school has given me the best memories in the world, and I’m so glad that I went to so much tutoring in year 6 so that I became smart and could come to Ruse and meet you all (and then deteriorate in smartness). There are no other people I would have wanted to spend these last six years with. And it sounds like such a general thing to say, but I’m not kiddinggg. Each one of you has probably sometime made my life hell (by commenting about my height D< style=""> YOU MAKE ME HAPPPYYYY.

I hope that you can say the same too (:

And I also hope that in the coming years, I can still talk to you peeps for eons into the night, go on holidays together and take gazillion photos and eat lots of brilliant food and have another girls’ night and hope that Chinmay wont ruin it again :P, go crazy on bus rides and remember the farty ol bus that was always late and play random games like Big 2, Charades, … what was the game that Nik made up?, laugh quietly when someone mentions the word hippo/ hippopotamus (for two completely different reasons), dance whenever I hear songs such as OMG, Streetlights, Mirotic, You Belong With Me, Apologize, I Gotta Feeling, I’m Still Missing You get played on the radio, feel high and very passionate about a game of Pictionary, sit on grass and squash it, chuck konckers around, parle en francais, sing Stacey’s Mom and Lean on Me, march on parade to the tune of S Club 7’s Bring it All Back, miss FREDs and not miss freeze-drieds, cheer when You Found Me plays on my ipod because it reminds me of a very awesome band, see at least one of us go on all these reality tv shows like Masterchef (Ruth :D) or Australia’s Got Talent (Murphy LOL) or Australian Idol (SO MANY OF YOU) or Who Wants to Be a Millionaire (I mean like one of us has to win that, right.. HAHA) or win the Nobel Prize (Stacey) or appear as a candidate for Australia’s Second Female Prime Minister (Tanya) or go on a Minute to Win it (Minna) or Australia’s Funniest Home Videos. I don’t think I’ll ever know anyone as dedicated as Captain Alan, or as knowledgeable about gaming as Cabbage, or as happy about anything Karlie Kloss as Ash, or as good at lipsyncing Every Other Time as Garvey and Tom LOL, or as good at making me addicted to coffee as Regg, or as inspiring in their faith and as good as singing as Lil and Sally, or as motivational and supportive and hug-giving as Eddie and Janny, or as HTML-skills-are-out-of-this-world as Jesstay, or as funsize as Grace, or as easygoing and confident as Yi, or as hater (yet closer to becoming Youtube stars than Angel Esther and Yani :P) as Bravin Ksin and Milo, or as child-loving as the Yuzhonigus Pedofilicus, … and I will continue this tomorrow because I AM INSANELY TIRED. Shoutouts will also be tomorrow.

I am so proud to be Rusian 2010, we just radiate this epicness, you know?

KEEP IN TOUCH OKAY, I freaking love you all to bits. PLEASE DON’T LEAVE ME TO FEND FOR MYSELF IN THIS COLD DREADFUL WORLD WHERE ALL THE PAIN AND SUFFERING IS BRAVIN-SOURCED ): ): ): A quarter of you are going to take turns send me to hospital (as a GP) and saving me in hospital (as a surgeon), and another quarter of you are going to help me financially and make me rich, and the other quarter is going to help me get out of jail and/ or sue lots of people and the last quarter will help me make my life epic – like Shez and Regg YOU CAN COLLABORATE TO DESIGN MY DREAM HOUSE ONE DAY KKKKK. Hehehe. This is me being selfish ahahaha. But it’s a good way to see you all againnn :D Except maybe in the life-threatening situations in hospital. BUT YOU CAN HEAL MEEEE :D so yeeee it’s all good.

LOVE FOREVER,

Tiff.

Ps. Come find me tomoloooo because I bought a graduation bear today so you can all sign it! Except for Esther, because yea. We’re not friends enough.

HAHAHAHA. Jokes E. Zhu-Vasey. Iaosdias.

Pps. http://ruse2010.blogspot.com

Ppps. I’m graduating (sort of) in 12 hourssssss ?!?!?!

we remember

2010-09-19T02:01:00.001+10:00

89/ thinking about all the awesome times we had makes me happy.

Every blogger seems to have made their 'final goodbye speech to ruse2010'. SO OKAY MY TURNNNN. :DDD

Dear Ruse 2010,

It's been a looooooong six years. Yet paradoxically, it feels like just yesterday that I was with my mum on the first day of school in year 7, hanging around the notice board and looking around nervously because I KNEW NONE OF YOU. We had an assembly in the quad and we headed to the lecture theatre where we got given these Ruse folders and our diaries and THE TIMETABLES. That were so impossible to read back then because it was literally jibberish. Like what is MTL? Maths doesnt even have the letter L in it. But it got explained and even though we were all still very lost (except maybe Stacey because shes a person who just GETS things. And Captain Alan, I bet), we all headed to our second period. Since the assembly took up the first.

I experienced the very epitome of the name of our high school as the first class- the awesome amazing Agriculture. AG5 mangz, we were the cool. I remember walking in and sitting next to JAN ZHANG! and I knew her name because she had her name on her pencilcase. I surreptitiously looked at it (y) teehee. I remember Sakthi was the last to walk in though, and we had 7 girls in the class so she had to sit by herself T_TT. It was awkward. And I don't even remember what class I had after that.

Moving on, there were so many random year 7 memories. Peer Support Group: William was the Tree Man because he sat in the tree while we did our peer support group sessions on the front lawn. Grace and Mich and I were the only girls in our group, I think the others were like, Bainy, Vinson, ... and I've forgotten. LOL SOZ. Leave a message if you were in my PSG ): IM REALLY SORRYYY. And there was Peer Support Camp which was, pretty eventful. Maybe not in such a good way because there was just so much UNNECESSARY DRAMA FOR YEAR 7s. Got a cabin with Kadi, Frankie, Rol, and I also experienced (apparantly ==) the first of many times where I fell asleep midsentence.

I remember Mas0n's class where we would just TALK all lesson and she hated Louie until Louie got a great english mark LOL. We had vis reps ALL THE TIME, and we had Bulj3v1c for science and Br1ggs for maths and when we learnt languages, Phil1p made us write name tags, and Simon had his upside down - NOWIS (: and she was talking to Grace about how her name was really nice in French and pronouncing it, said "grass" LOL. And in Ag, (forgot the name of teacher?!!) drew cherries and us being an immature class laughed kus the drawing was innuendo-ey. And Jack's kingdom. I went back today, actually. I just stood in that area behind the VA room and just .. contemplated.

I often think about what my life would be like if Year 7 was different. If I was a better person back in Year 7 and not so sensitive. . it's weird, but I don't regret anything. I think.

Year 8 was YA! year. I like to think that these epic people changed my life and made me into the person I am today (: (: It was really a time where I could be as crazy as I wanted to be and create random things. and 8L NUTCASES of course (: (: I still have that family tree somewheree.... but it was that year that Twistas were invented and VA room/ squashed grass became the hang out, and in Ag we dissected Bob the chicken and even had a funeral for it, and went to Easter Show with a group of awesome people, and I joined Cadets, and went on NZ ANNUAL - where the Bravin story has to be retold:

So we were trekking through the bush with our heavy packs on and walking sticks. NZ isn't any other trek though, it was a perilous journey filled with mud puddles and mud swamps and mud quicksand. On that day, Bravin was the navigator and I had previously noticed that he wasn't one to care about mud on his pants. Like he would literally walk through mud where the rest of us (mainly me) would actually TRY to avoid the puddles. But anyhow, he was navigating, and as usual, went through the mud. Except this one time, he realised that the mud puddle was actually really deep and he's sort of stuck. So he turns around, and Mike (Gounder) is behind him. He turns around and goes "Hey Mike, can you help me out here?" and stretches out his arm. But Mike doesn't really hear him, and he moves... to go find a log to cross the puddle with. So Bravin who thinks that Mike's moving to help him, stretches out his arm ... and misses. AND FALLS INTO THE MUD SWAMP EVEN MORE LOLOLOLOLOLOL.

Okay fine, maybe it was a had to be there moment. BUT IT REALLY WAS FUNNY. ... Maybe I just like to laugh at other people's expense P: HAHA sorry bro.

Strangely enough, I don't remember a whole lot of Year 9. . . . . . . . . .
OH but I remember that was the year that the first lot of the newbies came. We were all so excited ahahaha. And 8L became 9L and a lot smaller. Buuut... that was about it ): Maybe it'll come to me later.

Year 10 has got to be one of my favourite years. Eurotour 08 was insane. To this day, it is still my favourite holiday ever ahahaha. And MIC, And I'm starting to burn out so I'm going to just leave it at that and let you guys reread my blog (starts from June 08) for the rest. (y)

LOL. Sorry, I'm just lazy and VERY HUNGRYYYY ): And I'm also really really really really really really really sad that I cant find a lot of photos before Year10. T_TTTT. -cry- So if you guys have any photos of meeeee please email :DD I want to develop them for a photo album (: (:
Or USB it to me :D ehehehe.

Zomg this became a recap of memories, instead of an actual goodbye letter.
...oops. I'll try again tomorrow. LOL

x

as we go on

2010-09-17T22:54:00.004+10:00

88/ mass group sticker photos make me happy.

IM IN DENIAL. SCHOOLS NOT ENDING ): ): ): ):
I really can't imagine not going to school anymore. It's just so weirdddd =_=;;
I'm actually really scared of bawling my eyes out on Monday too. I CANT CRY BEFORE MIC PERFORMANCE MANGZ ): ): I wont be able to concentrate properlyyyyy. They better shove in the MIK or whatever you guys are called RIGHT BEFORE so I can laugh til I cry, which is much better than bittersweet tears. And I hate my camera, so I can't take proper photos. I freaking miss my Lumix so much.

I'm annoyed right now too. For some reason, all this competitiveness between Ruse and Baulko is killing me =_=; I DONT KNOW WHYYYY. I love so many Baulkoians, but I hate how some of them have this intense dislike of Ruse. I think they mean it jokingly, hopefully, but all the stereotype about Ruse pisses me off. How can you guys be so judgemental without even understanding anything about us ?! I guess I'm sorta sensitive about the whole thing since at church I get the whole ooooooomg ruuuuuuse suuuuuuucks. I'm freaking sick of it. There's a neverending sense of OMGGG YOURE SO SMART, NO SYMPATHY. And at the same time, OMG YOU GUYS SUCK BECAUSE YOURE SO SMART. Do we get a freaking choice here? WHAT THE HELL. There was a huge period where my emotions were put down so many times because baulko kids just kept going on and on and on about how baulko > ruse. I hate it when people think they're superior.

Hm./ I have to stop being so sensitive.

On a happier note, Ruse 2010 has made me so insanely happy. I can be on the biggest highs with you guys - like today, after school LOL. MASS GROUP STICKER PHOTOOOS. 10 of us just piled into the Morning Glory sticker photo booth. It was crazy as, and we were all making so much noise, but so FUN HAHA. Actually, I don't even know who has them right now LOL. But I hope that whoever has them has a scanner D:

I guess it's about time to write a tribute to the grade who has made my life freaking awesomesauce. I have to say in advance, that I'm getting pretty sick of writing memory letters. ITS REALLY HARD TO WRITE ABOUT 12983209840932 MEMORIES OKAY. And the probability of forgetting SOMETHING is reaally high ==;.

So anyhow, I'll try my best (y)

... tomorrow.

Ps. I asked Bravin this earlier, but on Monday, if there was one person you could talk to for ages, who would it be? We sort of cheated and listed a few LOL, but yea, really made me think. I came up with five people - J, K, C, J, S. (:

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2010-09-12T16:44:00.003+10:00

87/ knowing that you want to talk to me makes me happy.

A letter to someone who means so much right now:

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EDIT: Okay so I decided that it was somewhat lame to leave it as just one piece of encrypted text lols. Yesterday was quite hectic. It was honestly a very facepalm-headdesk-worthy day. I realised a lot of things that were just so exasperating and stupid that I wonder what was really going on for me to be so muddled.

Got Chin to wake me up at 630AM in the morning so I could study a bit before I went to Intu. Complete fail. At least I actually picked up - on the second time he called - but it was a whole lot of mumble from me and a whole lot of TIFF ITS TIME TO GET UP. GO DO WORK. GET OUT OF BED. I think I distinctly remember saying something like Nooooo. I can study in bed.

WRONG. I can't. Basically hung up and went right back to sleeeeeep. Woke up about an hour later to get ready to go to Intu since rents had to leave at 8AM. LAMEEEE ): AND THERE WAS A SPIDER IN MY BATHROOM YUUUCK. I think it's still there. Like, half curled up at the back of the door, and I just keep an eye on it, just in case it randomly decides to epic crawl to my clothes or to my toiletries. Eugh, yuckkk.

OH yes, spider. Reminds me to remind you all to go watch what happened to Esther, courtesy of Milo (who should not consider himself that cool because I GOT A BDAY TEXT FROM JAN TOO :D .. eventually) and Ksin. Uh... link... lemme go find it in a sec. But seriously, genius. It was epic to the epic.

I think I'm off topic. Intu. So I got there at about 830AM and decided to finish writing in India's memory book (I wrote 12 pages btw, if anyone cares :D BEAT AMBIKAA) and did ESP 8. ANOTHER EPIC FAILLL ): But then I had a tute after ESP but only then did I realise that I forgot to bring any of my previous exams to mark down. ==; Called Dad and told him, and he basically said, no we cant pick you up. So I had to stay at Epping GJs for another hour before they came to pick me up. Ate lunch at Ewood, went home to get ready for Eng tutoring.

OMG. Okay, so I show my tutor my english essays, and I've brought my previous essays that I fullmarked in. She starts reading my Mod A trial essay, and she stops. Picks up my previous essay from Term 4, and compares them. She turns to me, and pretty much says to me that THESE TWO ESSAYS ARE COMPLETELY DIFFERENT.

AND IM LIKE WHAAAAAAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I read my Term 4 Essay and my Trials Essay, AND THEY ARE COMPLETELY DIFFERENT. FUCK MY LIFE. I basically learnt the wrong essay for trials. As in, I copied/ pasted a draft into a new document, and learnt that. And got 14/20 for what couldve been a 20/20 essay.

HOLY FREAKING FACEPALM/ HEADDESK.

I was sad for the rest of the entire day.

Then I got home, completely wasted and feeling retarded for doing such a stupid thing in my life and contemplating mind death (no not really) but IT WAS HORRIBLE. LIKE WHAT WAS I DOING?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

So I get home and decide to do Co-op anyway, because I'm missing Elon's Awesome Crazy Hat 21st Birthday Party right now for stupid SCHOLARSHIP APPLICATIONS THAT I PROBABLY WONT EVEN GET and I log in to Co-op. And then I look at my UAC number and I think. Wait, why is this one different? So I go back to my private blog, because I wrote my BOS number in that back in Year10, and the number is 20064324. And I'm like yea that's cool, it matches Co-op. BUT THEN, I switch to my other page where I have my other UNSW scholarship stuff open, and I'm like WAIT. WHY IS THIS 20064234?? AND THEN I THINK, FUCK MY LIFE. IVE SENT IN THE WRONG UAC NUMBER FOR MY ENGLISH 4U. Because I distinctly remember writing down 20064234 on the front page. T_TTT.

So I panic, and Debs, Chin, CC and Esther are completely bombarded by my panic. But thankfully, Esther has a bout of smartness, and tells me to try logging into UAC with the two different numbers, because theres no way that UAC would let me log in with the right pin with a wrong number. SO I TRY IT AND IT WORKS AND IM JUST SO RELIEVED AND YAYYYYYY.

But that was facepalm/ headdesk worthy number 2.

Note to self:
1. FINISH SCHOLARSHIPS/ PRINT/ GET READY FOR SIGNINGS TOMORROW
2. LEARN MIC DANCE
3. GET A MEMORY BOOK (?) y/n havnt decided yet
4. FINISH ECO NOTES
5. FINISH ANCIENT NOTES
6. REWRITE CREATIVES - 2u/3u
7. REWRITE MOD A ESSAY (omg)
8. PRINT ALL ENG ESSAYS (2u/3u) TO HAND IN TO TEACHERS TOMORROW
9. COOK DINNER TONIGHT
10. SLEEP EARLY SO I CAN WAKE UP AT 6AM TOMORROW (aka 11pm)

x

keep holding on

2010-09-10T22:38:00.003+10:00

86/ perseverance makes me happy.

My emotions are so fucking HAYWIRE right now. Half the time, I'm on a massive high. And the other half of the time I'm on borderline depression. I am so scared that I cannot make it into ANU Law so so so bad. I think that's all I'm aiming for ahahaha. The more I think about it, the more I want it. It's a completely new experience, and ANU is so great for international law. I want to see where it will bring me in life (:

But, I talked to c0nn0rs the other day. My estimate... is not very high. Like, in all honesty, it is LOW. VERY LOW. Not 80s ==; but it's low. I hate myself for it. Like it really makes me question what I've been doing all year. Looking back, I really don't recall myself working very hard for my HSC, and this is what it all comes down to. I burnt out, badly, right before trials too. Which definitely didn't help. 96 ATAR. I can get that, right? And if not.. I know God still has a plan for me.

It's funny how I've forgotten about God over the past few weeks. Most considerably that, before trials, I didn't even bother asking him for help. I decided that I could do fine, as if I can't catch up, right? FREAKING WRONG. I underestimated the exams, overestimated my own ability, and stopped relying on God. It wasn't even until tonight, when after reading Jess's blog about her 98+ estimate, I nearly broke down.

I feel like as if I'm in such a mess right now! There's all these uni applications, and I KNOW that my estimate is really holding me back. I don't know HOW I allowed myself to get to this stage, but I know that I really really really want to get out of this crappy crappy estimate. My report, I haven't seen it, but I know it's not good. I don't even want to think about the amount of unexplained absences because I was just too lazy to put in a few letters after I was away. And why was I away? Probably avoiding teachers of the subjects I had work due. FUCK what was wrong with me!? I feel insanely terrible and regretful of what I let myself do in this past year.

Why do I avoid problems all the time? It's crazy. Whenever I don't want to face something, I just run away from it. I really really cannot anymore. I really have to tackle all my problems properly. So ANU, new start, new working environment. Canberra is quiet, it'll be good for study, and for me to reflect on myself as a student.

275hours studying update:
I'm on 264.5hours to go. yay =_=;;;

ECO, GO.

x

ps. expect a change of blogskins AGAIN soon ==; I love this layout, but I AM SO BORED OF IT. It won't be fancy though xD nothing too personal this time, because I don't have enough time to play around with HTML at the moment.

2010-08-31T22:40:00.003+10:00

85/ finishing notes make me happy.

I've really been neglecting this blog..

I've also realized that I just cannot do long posts hahaa. I tend to ramble too much, and reading through the entire previous post, I really couldn't help but wince at how many times I said LOL. +_+++; It's really become a sort of second nature to just say that. I should go on a 40hr famine of saying LOL. I think it would be very difficult.

For the past two days, I've been like a hermit and stayed inside my room being sick and feeling sorry for myself D: Okay so I'm not that sick, but I think I've done more work than I would have at school. NO JOKE. I started making eco notes, yay! But it's taking me about a day to just go through ONE chapter (-.-) omgg I fail so hard.

beautiful hangover

2010-08-29T00:54:00.003+10:00

84/ free food makes me happy.

Feeling quite sick. My nose keeps running at weird times. Like during intu exam today, I used like fifty billion tissues and even the tutor had to ask me if I was okay ==; Then from then, all the way until just after dinner, my nose was a-okay. AND AFTER DINNER, my nose started running AGAINNN. I hate this. Plus I have cramps and I'm tired and feeling a bit groggy, but I don't particularly want to go sleep because I hate sleeping when it's that time of the month. But I'm also very cold and my arms ache and basically, I feel sick.

Went to the USYD Open Day today. I wasn't going to go, but then this morning my mum was like "YOU SHOULD GO". I didn't really end up having much of a choice, since they wouldn't come pick me up from Epping until like 4something. Which, would be a huge waste of time so I went to the open day anyway. Left Epping at 1130, got to Central at 12ish (I LOVE THE SYD TERMINAL TRAINS LOLLL. THEYRE SO FREAKING FAST) and caught a FREE USYD BUS to usyd. Walked aimlessly around towards the law building once I got there and immediately found the other ruse kids :D and ALICE JOE who I havnt seen be yonks.

Maybe I should compile a list of who I saw today. Honestly, today was more of a social gathering than it was an enriching and educational experience of what uni is like. Or maybe uni would be like that, not sure.

So: Ash, Esther, Yani, Linds, Alice, Didi, Jack, Bravin, Milo, Ksin, Helen, Kim, Vanessa, Rfafa, Yuz, Calvinmah, Tom, Leslie, Wallace, Billy, Fei, Regg, Shez, PK, Kcho, Gordon, Andrew Wong, Sid, Andrew Song, Andy Chen, Andy Kwong, Min, Howard, Lil Victor, Jes, Stacey, Sampson, Amelia, Melina, Kadi, Captain Alan, Alan Ngo, Catherine, Kris, Trev, Doug, Mich, Derek, Lil, Elaine, etc. Off the top of my head hahaha.

BUT YEA, you get the idea. Saw Ruseys, and then most of us were trying to find fooooood. I think everyone was thinking subway, but by the time we got to subway, we had heard about the free bbq at the engineering precint, so we decided to go there instead. SO WORTH IT LOLLL. Got three free sausage sizzles and free icecream (I MAD MY OWN ICECREAM LOLLL, and it was strawberry flavoured and green and free) and free bottles of water :D awesome. And it was funny kus that was pretty much where we found most of the ruse kids LOLLL.

Didn't do much after that. Just hung out for a bit, and Ash and I went back to the quad to get booklets and talk to people about Law and etc. But while we were talking to people, everyone else decided to catch a bus and go back to Central without waiting for us xp. Got back and most people had left to go home, while peeps like Tom, Jack, Howard, Lil Victor, Andy Chen decided to go play pool. Obviously Ash and I wanted to go home but it was still early and Tom was fully like "omg we waited like an hour for you guys to get here. What was the point of waiting then!!!" and etc ==; WHAT A WHINER. LOL.

Ended up going with them for what was meant to be half an hour, that turned out to be about like.. one and a half hours LOL. Kcho, Min, Gordon, Andrew and Andy Kwong appeared. I LEARNT HOW TO PLAY SNOOKER. It's seriously not as fun as pool, because it's like, you're by yourself. NO TEAMS, how lame. And it has weird rules. PS. I DO NOT JINX YOU GUYS ALL THE TIME LOL. You cannot use me as an excuse and say that I jinx you guys whenever I watch or say something. just kus you guys suck xp hahaa. Luckily, the guys also grabbed a pool table so I got to play both :D teehee. Min/ Kcho/ me vs Gordon/ AndyK/ Andrew. Second game was Kcho/ me vs Gordon/ AndyK. WON BOTH LOLLL. Actually there was another game between those two, except I sunk the black ball ==; so ==; LOL DOESNT COUNT.

Went home at like 430, kus Jack had to go get a haircut. I will seriously lol if it turns out funny hahaa but yea, got to stratty and THERE WAS TRACKWORK YUCK. I seriously hate trackwork so much. Took like 20mins to wait for a bus ==; but I just read the books I got from usyd to pass the time and mum decided to pick me up from parra instead, so I didnt have to bother catching another train to sevo. PLUS I got to sleep in the car on the way home yay so caught up on some sleep.

And.. that's about it.
Probably going to CHL tomorrow with Rfafa and Kinho and MY COUSIN IN COMING TOMORROW. Excited :D. Going out for dinner as well methinksss. But omg wait, that means I still need to clean up my table and my room. CRAPPP +_+;

I should have also brought a camera today to take photooooos )": We really are running out of time for memories and etc.

By the way, who else is going to UNSW open day next saturday?

x

pps/
1. I wish I know what goes on in that mind of yours!
2. I find it quite funny that we get along so well.
3. Crap. I am SO sorry for not following through today ): omggg.
4. Shouldve tried finding you today ==; Hope you had tons of fun though P:
5. I will totes have a full conversation with you one day HAHA and I do wish that we were closer friends.
6. I need to have the same amount of determination as you do.
7. Why do they say those things about you, yet still seem so close to you?
8. WHERE ARE YOU THESE DAYS. ):
9. Stop bugging me. Seriously! STOP IT. STOP IT.
10. You really shouldn't be "not bothered"

just a dream

2010-08-26T21:19:00.003+10:00

83/ finishing long posts make me happy.

I have a feeling that this is going to be quite a long post ): considering that I havnt posted since... last thursday.

LAST FRIDAY WAS BORING. Literally, I sat there for most of the day doing nothing productive. Like I've said before (i think), SCHOOL IS SO POINTLESS NOWW ): I mean study, we can do at homeee. I only go to school now for the people teehee. Much fun in seeing everyone else when we're much more relaxed after trials. (: (:

Lemee seee. Forgotten my timetable, as usual, so I think I had ancient first pd - fell asleep, 3u eng where I got 3u back - didn't do terrible, I'm alright with my marks, but I could have done better. 2u eng, where we had Chau-ey do his speech, and then we analyzed Red (why are we going through another set of poems by the way?? like we're DONE!), double maths after recess - did a past paper and got 2u mark back == fml. and double eco after lunch but there was a chem meeting for the chem people where they went through their exams - obviously I didnt go because I didn't have exams lulz.

Anyhow that was a weird ramble that wasn't even important. What was more important was what happened when I tried to get to Epping!!!!! T_TT

Okay so basically, Tang's 18th dinner was that night. And it started at 6, except I had intu tute that same day, finishing at 6. So I was like, okay, since I didn't need to go to Eco kus everyone else bar me and Doug who didn't do chem was at chem, I might as well leave school early and go to an earlier tute so I won't be late! So I arranged for a 3oclock tute instead of a 430 one. Feng was with me at the library then too, so because I had no idea about the Epping bus times, I asked him. He told me that they came at about 230, and I was like yea okay, I'll leave in a bit. This was aboooout.. 2?

But I was readingggg and somehow the time just flew and the next time I checked the time, it was like 230 ==; so I was like FMLLLL better go and hope that theres like a 245 bus or something. THERE WASNT. So I was waiting around and the next bus came at 302. I called Intu, told them I'd be about 15mins late, and evrything was okay. EXCEPT BY 305 ruse kids started coming along and I was like, maybe I shouldve caught the school epping buses instead, but it wont matter, because it's past the time that the buses should be coming!

... IT DIDNT.

LIKE WTHCKKK ): ): I saw the TWO SCHOOL EPPING BUSES PASS ME.

TWO. BOTH OF THEM.

):

I basically called up Intu at 330 and I told them about how my bus that was supposed to come HALF AN HOUR AGO still hasnt arrived, so I wouldnt be able to make the 3oclock tute. They told me taht they had already filled in my 430 tute so I basically didnt have a tute that day anymore. Which was fine, as it still meant that I wouldn't be late for the dinner. :D

Stayed at the library until Ash came to pick me up, and we went to ze dinner!
Awesome fun - Yuz was just, gone by the end of the night hahahahahahaha.
And we played awesome games like, ABCD - you know the slapping game, but then we somehow just started teaming up and changed it from slaps to flicking foreheads. IT FREAKING HURTS and i SWEAR that i have like a mini bruise from someone who flicked me. AHMYGADDD ): ): Had cakeee and we made a little too much noise methinks. We got warned about being too loud lulz. But it was all in all, quite epic and I had an amazing time (: I went home smelling like korean bbq though ==;

Then RALLLYYYYY on Sat. Had intu at 9am as usual, was SO hard to pay attention during that exam - i was late and it was a difficult exam too ): ended up just skipping all of q7 because I was just so out of it and excited about RICE ahahaa. Finished about 1130, and checked my phone after, to see that CC sent me one at about 930 telling me to go outside and wave at the cameras because Sunrise was filming in Epping (lolwhut!!) and Fee THAT SHE HAD SLEPT IN AND MISSED HER BUS LOLNOOB. So I called Naa (who didnt answer) and Josh who told me that NAA WAS LATE TOO HAHAHA. So I met up with Kenny in Epping and we all just waited for everyone else to arrive. Naa and Josh got to Epping at nearly 12, and we went back outside the gates to go to GJs kus we were getting hungry and Naa bought a scone (which actually tastes so much nicer than I remember!) Fee calls while we're still waiting, that she's already here and asking about which platform we were on and I was like: er. we're at GJs.

And the train that we were meant to take just left, also.

So by the time we got to the station, we had to wait for the sydney terminal train. DUDE it isnt just me okay, HOW MANY OF YOU know that syd terminal also means CENTRAL?? Like I thought it was the airport or something. Anyhow, no matter. We decide to wait for it anyway since it was coming in about 6mins. Naa and Fee decide then that it was an opportune time to go to the bathroom. They're gone for a while, and us left on the platform (kenny, josh, me) took a polaroid on kenny's awesome bigger polaroid camera and josh showed me this awesome old school camera he gave to kenny but it didnt have any film in it.

Syd Terminal train ended up being delayed by ages but we still decided to catch it because it was express, but when we did end up catching it, IT WAS SO CRAMPED +_+. NO seats and we were stuck in the luggage compartment all the way to stratty. But it was much faster than taking the normal train.

Met up with Jed in the city and we went to eat at Takeru on Sussex. Service there is SO fast, the food was out in like, less than 10mins. I ordered a Tonkatsu Doria because Naa advised me to. It tastes like normal fried rice with lots of cheeeeese and the tonkatsu was nice. But Jed's Unagi Doria tasted a little bit better. ): And Fee's Ramen was even nicer. From now on, no buying Rice from Jap restaurants. ITS ALL RAMEN.

Went to Pool City after that to play POOOOOL. Josh and I bet against each other that we would win. Played three games - first team was Josh/ Jed/ Naa against Kenny/ Fee/ me. FREAKING HELL FEE IS A BEAST AT POOL LOL. I want her on my team every time hahahaha. Won the first game. Second game was Josh/Kenny/ Jed against Naa/ Fee/ me. We lost ): But it was okay! I THINK this one was the one where Kenny kept hitting all the balls a bit too hard and they all fell off the freaking pool table hahaha. And one hit Jed LOLOLOLOL. I couldn't stop laughing at him.

Last game was Jed/ Josh/ Me vs Naa/ Kenny/ Fee. WE WOOOON. Losers didnt do anything, although everyone won two games each. Except Naa, who lost all three of her games hahahaha. But she was very beast and got two balls in one shot one time :D Kudos.

Went back to Sydney Entertainment Centre after that and just took photos next to the Ferris Wheel. Kenny taught Jed a bit of the Wedding Dress dance by Taeyang and they were all so funny P: took more photos and luvo-ed with Fee/ Naa. Cho and Nathan came by after a while and not long after we went to RALLLYYYYY. Met up with a load of people: saw all the baulkoers, sten, avi, kathy, and other hcac peeps, other bhcac peeps, cynf and arthur, ruse kids - bella, janet, mattwang, cc, lee, michelle, etc. It was just a huge gathering :D

We sat on the floor seats for once! It was different, but just as fun. New Empire played and we moshpitted 8) and we saw SANG CHOI BAO AGAIN LOLSSSS He was hilarious. Steve Chong also played the song that he wrote to his wife Naomi to propose to her (RUSE KID, CHYEA) and it was so sweet :D. Played King Caractacus with GLOW STICKS, and saw HIROSHI on stage! Hahaha. At least they had some guy walking around hahaha. "All my people kiss my hand in greeting" and omg lol when he said that he was "looking for his thinking cap" everyone was like: "... omgggg." HAHA. We all totes knew the game was coming.

The talk was awesome, as usual. Steve Chong is totes cool, and he talked about the crippled man whose friends cut a hole in the roof of the place where Jesus was teaching and lowered him. Basically, this passage:

Luke 5:17-30 (New International Version)

Jesus Heals a Paralytic
¹⁷One day as he was teaching, Pharisees and teachers of the law, who had come from every village of Galilee and from Judea and Jerusalem, were sitting there. And the power of the Lord was present for him to heal the sick. ¹⁸Some men came carrying a paralytic on a mat and tried to take him into the house to lay him before Jesus. ¹⁹When they could not find a way to do this because of the crowd, they went up on the roof and lowered him on his mat through the tiles into the middle of the crowd, right in front of Jesus.
²⁰When Jesus saw their faith, he said, "Friend, your sins are forgiven."
²¹The Pharisees and the teachers of the law began thinking to themselves, "Who is this fellow who speaks blasphemy? Who can forgive sins but God alone?"
²²Jesus knew what they were thinking and asked, "Why are you thinking these things in your hearts? ²³Which is easier: to say, 'Your sins are forgiven,' or to say, 'Get up and walk'? ²⁴But that you may know that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins...." He said to the paralyzed man, "I tell you, get up, take your mat and go home." ²⁵Immediately he stood up in front of them, took what he had been lying on and went home praising God. ²⁶Everyone was amazed and gave praise to God. They were filled with awe and said, "We have seen remarkable things today."

PRETTY AWESOME.

The message that really stuck out was that, the fact that Jesus told the man "Your sins are forgiven", means that while the world and everyone sees that the problem of this man is that he is crippled and that he can't physically stand, Jesus sees that the real problem is how and where the man (and we) are standing before God.

I think the whole talk was a huge reminder for us to really put into perspective the things that are really important in our lives. For me, it was a reevaluation on how much thought I put into the HSC, and the lack of thought I put into God. It's awesome that Rally can always always make me rethink about my relationship with God, but like Vinh says, we can't only rely on Rally, on that one day per year to make us feel like that particular day is to get closer to God, to rethink and reevaluate where we stand before God. It's a daily thing.

Rally wasn't as epic this year. But it still served as an amazing reminder and hopefully as a huge evangelistic program for everyone else. I hope everyone who went benefited from it!

After Rally, went to eat dinner at Superbowl since us (Kenny, Cho, Josh, Adrian, Fee, Naa, me) hadn't eaten anything since lunch. Was so yum, and there was a HK game show on at the same time so we were watching them play the games LOLOL. Kenny and Josh decided to reenact it the next day at church, except Josh wasn't there so Arthur substituted instead.

this.

HAHAHAHAHAHA. omg fail.

PHEW Finally caught up on the outings. This week has been sorta hectic - getting more papers back, none of which I'm completely satisfied with but some like Hist Ext and 3u eng I'm a bit more happy about than others such as 3u maths and 2u ENG. I really want to cry at my 2u eng mark hahaha ==; SO FREAKING DISAPPOINTED. But, more incentive to work for HSC.

Alsoooooo, my cousin is coming to Aus this weekend! He's staying until next Thursday which is so awesome. He's doing his MBA atm at Shanghai but I totes look up to him both philosophically and literally. LOL. And my parents always speak so highly of him too HAHA. ALSOOOOO MY YOUNGER COUSIN (aka this cousin's younger bro) IS GETTING MARRIEDDDD.

I AM SO EXCITED. MY FIRST RELATIVE GETTING MARRIED. Like, cousin relative. Not aunt/ uncle relative. AHMYGADD It's so weird, because it feels like yesterday that I was still playing around with my cousins in Hk, and now its like, been nearly 10 years on and Ive only seen him once/ twice since then and now hes getting married O_O. But Im also devastated because I actually dont know if im going to be able to go to their weddinggg ): ): ): It's apparently scheduled for MARCH WHICH SUCKS because I cant leave Aus in March! That's when uni startssss ): ): aaargh.

Anyhow I'll leave this post now LOL. It's so so so long =_=; sorryyyyyyyy. I havnt even gone on about my hung parliament rant, or my prefect luncheon update, or what happened to my dog update, or how I was sick and I got better and I'm sick again, or ruse rings, or how I really really don't want to go to school tomorrow because we did a 3U maths paper in class today and D0yl3's marking mine and I know I did really badly and she's going to rant at me again. ): seriously, WHY DO I JUST NOT GET MATHS?!

x

And yay, I love you bunch of peeps so much :DD
Prefects 09/10 for life (:

awake

2010-08-19T19:26:00.002+10:00

82/ finally finishing freaking 4u eng makes me happy.

This had to be one of the biggest miracles that I've ever had in my life. Freaking amazing.

So mooooost of you probably know that yesterday night, I basically gave up on 4u english. It was at a point where, to me, it was literally UNSAVEABLE. The concept had just collapsed on me and nothing was making sense. To actually really be happy with my work, I'd have to have started the entire short story. I was going to drop it in the morning.

And then I think CC started some weird trend, where people started asking me about 4U and going WHY ARENT YOU DOING ITTTTT. etc.

8/18/2010	8:59:45 PM	- tif ( SHINee: Lucifer* )	Calvin	ive given up on 4u btw
8/18/2010	8:59:50 PM	- tif ( SHINee: Lucifer* )	Calvin	just, not enough time and no concept
8/18/2010	8:59:50 PM	- tif ( SHINee: Lucifer* )	Calvin	fml
8/18/2010	8:59:53 PM	Calvin	- tif ( SHINee: Lucifer* )	WHY
8/18/2010	8:59:54 PM	Calvin	- tif ( SHINee: Lucifer* )	NO
8/18/2010	8:59:56 PM	Calvin	- tif ( SHINee: Lucifer* )	WE'RE NOT PLAYING
8/18/2010	8:59:57 PM			You have invited Calvin to start Rock, Paper, Scissors. Please wait for a response or Cancel (Alt+Q) the pending invitation.
8/18/2010	9:00:03 PM			Calvin has accepted your invitation to start Rock, Paper, Scissors.
8/18/2010	9:00:06 PM	Calvin	- tif ( SHINee: Lucifer* )	OI
8/18/2010	9:00:10 PM	- tif ( SHINee: Lucifer* )	Calvin	lol !
8/18/2010	9:00:11 PM	Calvin	- tif ( SHINee: Lucifer* )	DO 4uNIT
8/18/2010	9:00:19 PM	Calvin	- tif ( SHINee: Lucifer* )	have u finished?
8/18/2010	9:00:21 PM	- tif ( SHINee: Lucifer* )	Calvin	"we're not playing" -aceepts invite-
8/18/2010	9:00:22 PM	Calvin	- tif ( SHINee: Lucifer* )	dudedude
8/18/2010	9:00:25 PM	Calvin	- tif ( SHINee: Lucifer* )	LOL yeah ==
8/18/2010	9:00:29 PM	Calvin	- tif ( SHINee: Lucifer* )	i love spr
8/18/2010	9:00:31 PM	- tif ( SHINee: Lucifer* )	Calvin	HAHA

ROFL. What a noob/ edwardo. I'm also getting $20 from him for sure.
Anyhow, eventually I ended up talking to Salleee, Ash, Yun, Chin, Rfafa, and I have to completely dedicate my entire 4u eng short story to you six. Which, isn't much, because it's still revolting. LOL.
I'm just super ecstatic I finished.

In all honesty, I have no idea how I finished.
I think I started working on it at like a bit past midnight, so effectively, I wrote a 6k story + 1.3k rs in 8hours???? Completely impossible. That meant I had to write 1k/ hour! REALLY do not remember how it happened, but it did. I am only tremendously indebted to God and you six for pushing me to continue with it, and YOU SAVED 1UNIT OF MY HSC LOLL.

Don't bother asking if you can read it, because I'm so embarrassed about it x_x

But ITS OVER.
ITS OVERRRR.

I was also talking to Amelia today during our double free. The first half of the first pd was spent trying to set up CS in the library before getting owned by w1dmer. He was fully like "What are you doing? Where did you get that cable from? Put that back by 5mins time or you can all get out."
And we were all like o_o wtf.
For some reason, everyone seemed to be away today?? Like nobody was around LOL. But we ended up going to VA room and just talking about how SCHOOL IS ENDING SO SOOON. and how prefects had to be the highlight of our entire ruse life (;

hahaha, no joke.

And went back to Squashed Grass today ! It was so serene (except for the fact that the wind was blowing at like 4893894023km/hr) but I felt so peaceful being back there with the awesome people who completely changed my life (: (: (: Bringing my polaroid tomorrow too! So we can take photos everywhereee.

I wonder how many polaroids I'm going to need to buy for the end of school.

x

ps. I am so sorry for such a crappy non-flowy post ): ): if you guys had seen me today, I was literally either REALLY HIGH from adrenaline of pulling an allnighter, or just so tired to the point where I didnt even realize that I fell asleep. I need to buy three more GJ's iced chocolates to get two free reg drinks! yay.

pps. I REACTIVATED FACEBOOK. But it's not fun anymore.

home home homeboy

2010-08-17T20:48:00.004+10:00

81/ finally getting our jerseys make me happy.

I have this major feeling that this post is going to be verrrryy disjointed.

You have to actually watch the initial news vid to really appreciate that Huntsville Rapist Bed Intruder Song LOLL. It's freaking catchy ): I watched it last night and had the song stuck in my head all day, damn you Bravin.

WE GOT OUR JERSEYS TODAY YAYYY. So the whole thing about us getting our jerseys refunded was a LIE. WAS IT YOU, MILO ?! I bet it was Milo who started the whole rumour. LOL. Anyhow, so when I got to school this morning, after CATCHING THE BUS for the first time in about a month, saw Kaz signing in, and then we saw people with their jerseys, so we were like OMGZ -runs to hsie staffroom- I think Ned, Channi, Janny, Dolly and Simon were in there handing out jerseys to peeps (THANKS BTW C: ) and it was pretty quick. Except for mine. ): ): I thought that the company had decided to be mean and not send out all the smaller sized ones.

But after Billy couldnt find his either, he went to check if someone else had already gotten it for him. Turns out that TOM had grabbed all of the MIC ones to give to us during practice XD THANKS LOL but I was worried for a while +_+;

Free first period, did nothing but bludge in the library reading picture books with Dolly and Lil, and then ended up in the snr study room with Chin, Yuz, Tom, Dolly and others watching all these weird vids on a video site similar to youtube. Can ANYONE tell me why watching someone get hit by an icecream truck is funny ? D: It sounded as if he actually DIED. ): but apparently he didnt. The person was being weird though, he completely deliberately walked into the middle of the road ==;;;

Anyhow, after that, Tom decided to set up CS on the laptops, and THEY TAUGHT ME HOW TO PLAY LOLZ. I annihilated Yuz :D That's all you need to know. Bahaha. Okay, kidding. He did kill me many more times than I killed him, but for someone who started playing today, apparently I did very well 8) yayy. CS is so retardedly unrealistic though. You can shoot people THROUGH THE WALLS. Like wtf that's just never possible okay. Not even with magic. You'd have to blast the wall first! BUT IT WAS FUNNN (: I won't game though, THERES NO TIME LOL. I'm already freakishly good at procrastinating, let alone start dar-geying.

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I don't know what caused the change, but I am so much happier having you two as friends(: it makes me very happy that you guys dont actually hate me.. LOL.

NOTE TO SELF: BRING USB TOMORROW FOR SOPH (getting dramas) and MUDEY (getting songs) and work on 4u eng. yuuuuuuck. I love wednesdays though C: SO I HOPE TOMORROW IS A BEAUTIFUL DAYYYYY.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TOM!
You got my birthday text, so I don't really have to repeat everything I said to you already LOLS. HOPE YOU HAD A GREAT DAY!

Got maths back and ancient back already. So much regret but also so much motivation to work harder now.

x

Edit:

I just have this massive sudden urge to cry. I think the stress from trials has finally caught up to me and it's freaking overwhelming. That, coupled with the whole impossibility of so many different things, like you and maths and not being to understand myself.. GAH. I feel like I haven't cried for a long long time and I really really really need to just let go. I just want to stand at the top of a cliff and just scream forever. Maybe it's just me, but crying is such a huge emotional outlet. I also seem to be more motivated and more focused after crying. But fuck, I don't want to breakdown. But everything just seems so IMPOSSIBLE these days.

AND STOP TALKING ABOUT EXAM RESULTS. T_TT; farrrrr out.

game

2010-08-16T19:06:00.003+10:00

SCHOOLS BACK. So today wasn't as horrible as I thought, mainly because I didn't end up doing my eng speech, nor did I get maths papers back. But both are on tomorrow, so. .. ==; Anyhow, the point is, I JUST HAVE TO KEEP A POSITIVE ATTITUDE ABOUT SCHOOL.

I really feel like I'm not treasuring these last few weeks at Ruse enough. I love seeing my grade everyday, and just having all these weird moments in class - especially maths and ancient LOL.

Like today, Shazzy, being the star of the ancient class, didnt want her exam back (not that anyone really did.) (maybe danny.) and thus decided to hide behind her chair, declaring "I'm a chair". WTH LOL HAHHHA. Shazzy you the noob. C; ps. I enabled comments without the verification code, if i get spammed with random comments, its yur fault ;_;) and I think this post doesnt really make much sense because I stayed up til like 430am finishing the stupid speech that i hate. AND IM REALLY HUNGRY.

Okay Ill try again posting after dinnerrrrr ):

JERSEYS ARE HERE APPARANTLY!!!??

and oh quiz (stolen from janny and jess):

This is going to be mαjorly personαl, you reαdy?
yus

Promise to tαke this without deleting αny questions?
yeayea

Are you hαppier now thαn you were five months αgo?
five months ago was... march. then, yes, i am much happier :D

Hαve you ever slept in the sαme bed with αnyone?
yus i haveeee.

Cαn you sleep in totαl dαrkness?
yep

Your phone is ringing. It’s the person you fell hαrdest for, whαt do you sαy?
sups.

Whαt do you think αbout the weαther?
HATE THE WIND

Are you ticklish?
i dont know... LOL sometimes i am, and sometimes im not. ill go with no.

How mαny people do you trust with everything?
everything is such a broad word. one.

Whαt wαs the lαst thing you drαnk?
watur?

Is there αnyone you wαnt to come see you?
not really hahaha. i like being reclusive sometimes (;

Nαme one thing you love αbout winter?
MY BIRTHDAY

Hαve you ever dαted α Goth?
nop

Are you currently looking forwαrd to tomorrow?
no, im not.

Nαme something you dislike αbout the dαy you’re hαving?
IM SO HUNGRY RIGHT NOW LIKE OMGZ

Cαn you commit to one person αnd one person only?
probably.

Whαt’s the first thing you did when you opened your eyes todαy?
hear my marmie trying to wake me up

Hαs αnyone told you they don’t wαnt to ever lose you?
yeppppp

Hαve you ever kissed the lαst person you sent α text messαge to?
nup

Is there αnybody thαt you wish you could fix things with?
yes.

Could you go out in public, looking like you do now?
i could, but id prefer not to. haha, already in pjs C:

Do you think things will chαnge in the next 3 months?
YES

You never know whαt you got until you lose it, true or fαlse?
depends, but usually true.

Do you hαve α friend of the opposite sex you cαn tαlk to?
yes

Life without your best friend, how’d thαt go?
NO. FREAKING HORRIBLE. I have to stop thinking about it LOL because I can start crying if I imagine it too much.

Whαt do you miss the most αbout your pαst?
that i would still have time to study

Ever get hurt by someone who promised they wouldn’t?
yes

Are you good αt hiding your feelings?
dno... am i?

Are you listening to music right now?
nup

When wαs the lαst time you were in α very good mood?
saturday

Would you hook up with your sister's best friend?
er no O_O. she's four years younger than me.

Where is the person who hαs your heαrt αt the moment?
you mean me? at homeeee

Hαve you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do?
yus

Hαve you lαughed todαy?
yes C:

Whαt mαde you lαugh reαlly hαrd todαy?
jim's quotes, stories told to me by minna, jes, ksin.

Do you trust eαsily?
yes.

Are you one of those people who just doesn’t cαre?
i hate feeling like that, but yeaaa i think so.

Would you rαther not eαt or not sleep?
SLEEP IS FOR THE WEAK.

Whαt do you normαlly drink in the morning?
watur

Cαn you wαlk into α room full of strαngers αnd mαintαin your confidence?
probably. its walking into a room full of strangers that NEEDS confidence.

Does tαlking αbout sex mαke you uncomfortαble?
no lol, after talking to people like hannah, there are many other topics that make me uncomfortable hahahaha.

Do you believe thαt αll boys αre the sαme?
course not.

You αre single, why?
because hsc is a betch.

Did you drink αny αlcohol this week? Did you get drunk?
yes and no.

Do you like to cuddle?
with the right person :)

Would you ever try being α vegetαriαn?
no lolll. i love animals, but if i didnt eat any meat, id be even smaller than i am now. and ill probably starve since im so picky about the vegetables i eat already.

Do you believe thαt there’s αlwαys room in your heαrt for someone?
yep

Hαve you ever hαd stitches?
nope, havent broken anything either :D

How come you’re not going out with the person you like/love?
because i havnt met him yet.

Are you busy tomorrow?
yep

Are you weαring pαnts?
yep

Do you think someone is thinking αbout you?
yep, since im talking to people atm haha.

Are you short?
ive been told so, but of course not.

If you won α million dollαrs, whαt would be your first thought?
now i can pay for my uni fees upfront.

Is your phone right beside you?
in my pocket

Do you know αnyone thαt is gαy?
yep

Who wαs the lαst person to smoke α cigαrette in your presence?
iono.. my uncle?

Is it cute when guys/girl kiss you on your foreheαd?
yes C: very.

How mαny people cαn comfortαbly sleep in your bed?
two, or three. LOL

The very first time you kissed your current bf/gf, who mαde it hαppen?
n/a

Whαt wαs the lαst video you wαtched on YouTube?
Good Morning America Forever 21 Haul Part 1 (off yun's blog)

Would you ever αgree to αn open relαtionship with someone?
no.

Is there something thαt you could never give up?
yes

Would you prefer α smαll, intimαte wedding proposαl, or α big-scαle, over-the-top proposαl?
something that i dont expect and is mindblowing (: hahaha. i love surprises.

Whαt’s bothering you right now?
english 4u

Do you hαte αnyone?
i can, but noone comes to mind atm

Whαt were you doing αt 12αm lαst night?
forgot, but i was awake

Do you drink more αpple or orαnge juice?
neither, breakfast.

Wαs this summer α good one?
not as good as the coming one (;

You kissed someone todαy, didn't you?
nop

Do you hαve αny plαns for the weekend?
RICERALLY BABY (: hanging out in the city with my lovelies.

Is the lαst person you kissed mαd αt you?
n/a

Cαn α boy αnd girl be friends without hαving feelings for eαch other?
yes (:

If the lαst person you kissed, sαw you kissing someone else, would they be mαd?
n/a

Does the person you like, like you bαck?
lol, im thinking that you dont mean the platonic like, so no, ofcourse. i havnt had the opportunity to meet taeyang or LMH ):

Do you think long distαnce relαtionships work?
for some people yes, for me, probably not.

Do you believe in kissing when you’re not together yet?
believe in it? well obviously it exists == but i probably wouldnt kiss someone that im not dating.

-

2010-08-15T18:43:00.001+10:00

FFS, WHY IS THE SPEECH SO FREAKING DIFFICULTTTTT.
FMFL.

say the word and we'll go

2010-08-15T00:23:00.006+10:00

80/ freedom makes me happy.

I love the feeling of freedom. Seriously hahaha, these past two days have been amazing fun C:

So city with peeps was hilarious. Inception was a two hour movie where you just sit there and let it screw over your mind, but the way it ended was pretty cool. Maybe what I think happens in the end is why I don't really like it that much, but meh, I'm just picky with my favourite movies. So for some reason, even though I left State Library at like... 130, i just bummed at the dymocks store after tang had texted me saying that all the guys were SUPERLATE kus they all went to Squed's. But for some reason, by the time I made it to where we were all meeting, everyone was there already ==; wthhhh LOL.

Went to Maccas to eat, then Inception, then we split up; girls went to K, guys went to get Jack's phone and some adidas store on pitt st, but apparently there were no more iphones and tang's adidas store doesnt exist, so they eventually came to Show and took over our K sesh. It was fun though, seeing them go crazy hahaha. We made such a mess too kus of the popcorn ): dont think we'll ever be allowed back LOL.

And then dinner afterwards, which was a lot of wandering around city where noone could make up their mind where to eat, although Jes is right, PIZZA HUT BUFFET IS A WASTE OF MONIES ): ): ): AND LOL i had nothing to do with the bistro HAHAHA. the guy was just sexist ): Wish I couldve gone with you peeps to Norita though, ORGANIZE ANOTHER OUTING ASAP!

And Kadi's bday partee today was freaking leet. HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY KADI BUBZ C: Thanks for inviting me, I had a great time. Got there way late though ): at like 530 kus I had eng tutoring and I cant skip it because of STUPID ENGLISH SPEECH ON MONDAY, but by the time i said hi to kadi and went up to the loft, we started playing PICTIONARY, FACK that game is hectic. I got a massive headache from screaming and yelling and going crazy over it LOL. Eventually, we lost. BUT THATS OKAY BECAUSE WE'RE NOT SORE LOSERS HAHAH. And I sort of wanted the game over because we had been playing for like... nearly 2hours +_+ HAHA.

Had dinner, which was YUM, esp the lasagna. and watched ruth vs child at pool, then minnazor and jes made up some random pool game where they just kept trying to mess up each others shot. Went back inside and played some MARIOKART. Chin and I make a leet team -hi5- and we just kept winnninnggggg 8D. But I realized that mariokart wii is different to mariokart ds, so a lot of the courses were different. BUT STILL, massive loads of fun.

Tried starting another Pictionary game, but then CC decided to butt in and make us all play Articulate instead, which was fun, haha. But then minnazor and jes had to leave, so the teams got all screwed up. eventually we got a small game going but then ended up going back downstairs to dance kus kadi called us to, and mudey was very .. amusing indeedd :D

Bummed around, then went back up to the loft to verse Sabby in MARIOKART, and I owned for like one course, and then he beat me for the rest ==; NO MATTER LOL. I DEMAND A REMATCH, SABBY. Then Cabbage came back from Ruby Moon (?) and they and Nik started playing Brawl, which was crappy for me because all i do in brawl is buttonbash LOL.

The rest is a bit of a blur, but I remember we had CAKEEEE which was chocolate and yum and took more photos and went to watch a bit of tomb raider and soccer and then went back outside to watch the guys in a game of pool, then went back up to the loft and played a short game of I never before I had to leave.

AWESOME FUN, THANKS SO MUCH KADI!!!! C: Hope you had an awesome day too, hehe.

Now I need to get stuck into Eng speech writing/ vis rep making. Yuck.

x

ps.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVID ! (for yesterday, if you consider a 1am post the next day)
I need to borrow your itouch again to pwn your angry birds game 8D.

let's have a party

2010-08-12T11:51:00.008+10:00

79/ the awesomeness of the State Library makes me happy.

So.. post-trials, I feel like I'm really just bludging so much that I have nothing left to do. I tried installing Pokemon yesterday, and going back to Neopets, but I dont know.. it all seems so boring now ): And yes I really should be doing my 4u LOL. And OMG I was playing pokemon for a few hours yesterday and my Torchic was on Lvl 31, and I saved it, BUT NOW ITS GONE and the whole pokemon game WONT WORK!!!! T_TTTT -rage-.

Right now, I'm at the State Library where the net is SO IRRITATINGLY SLOW. Which is why I'm not tumblr-ing or doing much. Well it's like noon now, so I have nearly two more hours till I have to get going (: Have to buy another train ticket though, since I really ceebs walking back to Town Hall from Martin Pl.

OMG speaking of which, during the holidays, I was going to State Library to work on History Ext, right. And on the street that the Library is on.. forgot the name, I SAW JOHN HOWARD. Yes, ex-prime minister, JOHN HOWARD. It was raining then, though, so I was in a rush to get to the library since I had forgotten my umbrella ==; but I looked up just to see this man in a suit with an umbrella rush across the street and HE LOOKED EXACTLY LIKE JOHN HOWARD. But we were both rushing so I never got to talk to him or ask for an autograph or anything LOLS.

I don't know why I'm so ecstatic over that hahahaha. Probably because I never usually see any politicians actually on the street, looking normal. I feel really sorry for them, because they have to watch EVERYTHING that they say. Like on the TV now, how the Labor party is completely bagging out Tony Abbott. It's amusing, really, to see the weird facial expressions Abbott has, but at the same time, I feel so sorry for him! (and similarly, KRudd). I was talking to Dad about how I would probably vote for Labor because with all these ads, he really looks quite douchey hahaha and it would be sort of embarrassing for Australia to have a not-so-confident/ bad-with-words prime minister. Like America and George Bush Jr. But Dad was like, someone had previously said that America's government is good in the sense that it doesn't matter whose the actual President, because their inner workings are so good. I'm not that familiar with politics, but it actually does seem to be that way.

I wish I knew what I wanted to do in my life. Even people with ambitions to be a doctor have some sort of purpose to why they are studying. I'm just studying for the sake of being a student, and for the sake of getting a good ATAR, and for the sake of getting a job, stable career, etc etc. But I want to be able to do something that I like and that I'm good at and at this moment, I have no idea what that is.

Omg this guy left his laptop open and the screen is reflecting the sun and it's blinding me. Gah.

Anyhow, so I guess I would've done med if I was any good at science, but I'm not ==; So that's completely out of the picture and it also kills off stuff like engineering. There's law, and there's architecture, but the thing is, with law, I think I'd actually have to be really passionate about it. Considering that I'm not completely passionate about it, except for the fact that it seems interesting to study, I'm not sure if that's even the right career path for me. Architecture seems so fun, but again, I guess if I ever did architecture, I'd have to leave Australia to work, because the job opportunities here in Australia aren't very good. And same with law, because I want to do media law, and do something like what Adam from Masterchef did - media law for DISNEYLAND. That would actually BE a dream job LOL.

I know that the only thing I really want to be able to do in life, is to inspire people. How I'm going to achieve that, I'm not too sure. But that's the thing that's driving me at the moment. I guess I really shouldn't be worrying - I KNOW that God has a plan for me in life, but I do want to at least have some sort of direction ):

It's 12:14 now, so I think that the chem people have finally finished their exams! YAY! Congrats guys!!!!! As for people like Kcho... LOLL bad luck. P: haha jokes, GOODLUCK FOR MOD. And same to any other people who still have exams, in particular, the french/ jap kids who have so much to study for language T_TT. That's another dream of mine though. A goal, actually. I want to be at least trilingual hahaha. I've always wanted to be ever since my mum told me that my godmother was trilingual and I'm like, holy crap that's awesome! She knows, chinese (mando and canto), english and french. Which was why I was studying French lulz. And anyhow, she married a French guy, and my godsister - Christelle, is so pretty ;_; I wish I was half french hahaha.

It's been forever since I last saw my godmother properly though. Like before we moved to Australia was the last time I saw her face-to-face. And I've never met my godfather or Christelle, I've only ever just seen photos. Nevertheless! I can't wait until I can go to France and really visit them. I think I was meant to go this year, post-hsc, but then it's winter there and it's like, impossible to do anything during winter in France ): lameeeee.

HK will be cold too though, so I've been on the lookout for more winter jackets, yay! I saw this awesome warm trench coat at Forever New yesterday during the shopping spree with Fee and it was $70! discounted from $100. Except my mother would completely own me for spending so much on a jacket ==; no matter how soft and pretty and puffy it was. She'd be like, THAT'S $490 IN HK$! and etc. hahaha. But I'll tell her about it later and hopefully, it might be discounted even more by the end of this week or something and I can go buy it. -fingers crossed-

Damn, I better get back to work. I just realized that I have class tomorrow at Intu so I can't come back here to work ==; and Saturday I've got more tutoring, and Sunday is .. well, Sunday. And then Monday is back to schoooooool, noooooooooooooooo ): ): ): ): ): ): ):

Really do not want papers back.

x

ps. CHRISYIP I DO NOT EDWARDO YOU LOL. You just edwardo yourself by responding to that picture in what could be an english essay when you should be concentrating on chem you noob. Hahahah. In response to this:

littlemisscompulsive:

how romantic is that!!!

(see here)

,this is what he emailed me:

hey dude.

in reply to ur comment "how romantic is this?" in regards to the pic of the guy proposing to the woman on the cliff:

NO. NOT COOL. Whilst initially seeming romantic, note that they are on a cliff. The salient positioning of the woman to the left side of the cliff underlines the dangers which she risks by rejecting the man, a view reinforced by Mr. Collin's blunt assertion "it is by no means that another offer of marriage may be offered to you again." If the man were to physically force her off the cliff, then his words truly foreshadow this cathartic tragedy. Furthermore, this may be emphasised by the opening line in the epilogue of "two star crossed lovers doomed to die (or something like that LOL)." Thus, the prophetic statement underscores the pressure which she is under to oblige the man and reply with a "yes". In conclusion, with reference to Austen's Pride and Prejudice and Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet, we can essentially gain a deeper understanding of the perilous nature of the situation in the picture, again a bleak representation of the subjugation of women in modern society much akin to the restrictive role of women before their liberation in the 1980's resulting from the influx of egalitarian and feminist values.

SO NO. He could just push her off LOL. Not cool. instead very freaky lol.

omg. you just edwardoed me again. i spent like 5 min writing this. i hate you. remind me to punch you the next time i see you haha.

chris.

So my response is that:
that comment of "How romantic is this" wasn't even my comment in the first place LOL. I just reblogged it from someone. So I can't really be held completely responsible for a rant that is not even meant for me :D. (don't bother mentioning how it was me who reblogged it in the first place, WHAT ARE YOU DOING ON TUMBLR THE NIGHT BEFORE YOUR LAST EXAM?! LOL)

Therefore I completely agree with Jess that Chris Yip is the true edwardoer of himself.
hahahahaha.

dangerous

2010-08-11T18:58:00.001+10:00

78/ finishing exams make me happy.

THAT'S RIGHT.
MY TRIALS ARE OVERRRRRRRR.
THANK YOU GOD.
:DDDDDDD

Ecstatic, but really, I don't feel any different from before.
==;

Anyhow, after 2u today, which was harder than I expected, I went to Parra to go shopping with Feeeeeee :D yay. We were going to watch a movie, but then nothing we wanted to watch was the right times for us ): well we could've watched killers, but wasnt sure what it was about, and the fact is that we could spend that close to $20 on clothes/ accessories instead :D. Which we did!

I have a new favourite store.
Collette Accessories is AWESOME. Has the nicest accessories I've seen for ages. Bought an airplane necklace for nearly $9 which, I think was quite worth it kus it's so cuteeee. And the propeller part SPINS. 8D It's awesome. Also saw a really cute rocking horse necklace but it wasn't as nice as the airplane one, even though it was only around $5. The bags there are really nice too, might go back again to buy one later. And check for owl-themed jewellery because I have developed an obsession for them after Cho got me an owl locket for my bday C: I'll go when I have more monies.

I've realized that exams are so good for me, because I just DONT SPEND during it AT ALL LOL.

Went to Valleygirl and bought a pair of high-waist shorts as well. $30! But I think it was worth it because I don't have a pair C: And we just bummed at GJs at Borders after the shops closed. I tried Fee's Creme Brulee drink and now im completely tired from coffee overload. COFFEE JUST DOESNT WORK FOR ME. T_TTT;;

Also now that exams are over, I've lost all lazy privileges at home now LOL. I used to be able to sit upstairs and do nothing, and my parents and Steph would bring me food and water and it was awesome. But now I have to do chores and clean up my room and desk which, looks really horrible right now because there's just paper EVERYWHERE. Omg lol I'm not going to have fun cleaning it up T_T But I know that once I start, it'll take me forever since I'm a neat freak when I can be bothered to be one.

Mum's also taken a liking to baking chocolate fondants all the time now XD I've had one a day for the past three days or so hahaha. They're getting better everytime! I love how the chocolate is so lava-like :D so yumm~

Oh yea, and I watched World's Strictest Parents today. LOLLLL. Holy crap their boot camp is crazy scary. The guy who went was basically crying after they made them do all these random crap. And at the beginning he called the female officer "sir" and she's like "Do I look like a sir to you??" and she sounds so outraged, and he's worriedly like "No!! I just don't know how to call it!!" Hahahah. Reminds me of cadets.

x

hurricane venus

2010-08-09T18:38:00.009+10:00

77/ sometimes, exam weeks make me happy.

HELLO ! GUESS WHO'S BACCCCKK 8DDD
So I've finished pretty much all my exams, bar 2u maths.
Feeling pretty ecstatic right now, even though I'm not confident about any of them at all.

HOPE FOR THE BEST, EXPECT THE WORST.

Goodluck to all who have JUST started exams, that is, BHHSs, HGHSers, CTHSers, CHSs; it'll be over before you know it ! And then its classes, all over again ==; I love exam weeks sometimes just because there are no classes C: So I can stay home and sleep and just relax, finally.

Still have loads to do though! And KEEP WORKING HARD to everyone else in Year 12 who has bio, geo, music 2, maths 4u/2u, chem, va, (whats ees?), mod, drama, french cont and jap cont :D
Yes, I was looking at the timetable sheet when typing all that out.

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On a more personal note, my exam week has been alright.

Strangely enough, I've felt calm for pretty much every exam (bar eco ==;) even with my absolute horrendous timetable. Definitely God-blessed C: I love how everyone at my church is completely rallying behind us year 12s. I also feel completely blessed that I have so many brothers and sisters that are with me as I'm doing these exams. We're not alone :DD And it's really reassuring to know so.

Yesterday, went to church for english service and then immediately after, went with Rfa gor to study at Castle Hill Library - Kin went as well, and Alice was there! Went to drivethru maccas first, yay. It feels so long since I've had Maccas since all I've done is been staying at home being nerd/ procrastinating. And junk food is so bad for everyone but still tastes so good ;_;

Anyhow, ended up meeting up with Josh and Chun2 there as well, saw Aaron and a few other baulkoers. I love how CHL has so many powerpoints LOL. Epping hardly has any at all ==; So I might go to CHL a bit more these days instead of sticking it out at Epping.

TO CONTINUE:
a quiz stolen from salleeeee and maybe I might do that 30day thingy XD Speaking of which, I havnt even finished that letter one. Oops. I'll go find it after I finish this,

WORD ASSOCIATION
(Write the first word/thing/person that comes into your head when you read this word:)

1. coffee: mocha
2. dog: vira
3. slut: supre
4. candy: lollyworld
5. pole: may
6. ocean: blue
7. brave: bear
8. loving: heart
9. cookie: subway
10. death: grim reaper
11. life: book
12. child: yoogeun XD just watched that vid of him dancing to luciferrrr :DD

WHICH WOULD YOU PREFER

1. Ten guilty men go free OR One innocent man goes to jail for life: ;_; one innocent man. It's like, either have Sirius in Azkaban, or have all the deatheaters escape from it.
2. Eaten by a lion OR Eaten by thousands of small insects: LION.
3. A life of contentment without love OR A life with love and heartache: a life with love and heartache C: Better to have loved than to have never loved at all.
4. Skydiving from a plane OR Bungee jumping off a bridge: Skydiving, methinks.
6. No television OR No music: no tv
7. No more pizza, ever OR No more chocolate, ever: no more pizza. At least chocolate can make me happy when im sad.
8. A trip to Europe OR a trip to Hawaii: europe :D
9. An hour with your future soul mate OR An hour with a lost loved one: lost loved one, because i'll meet my future soul mate in the future right? -- WHAT SALLEE SAID :D
10. No longer being able to cry OR No longer being able to feel the need to cry: um o_o. they're both such sad choices. If I had to choose, rather no longer being able to cry. At least you still have emotion in you ==;
11. Sex without love OR love without sex: love without sex
12. Loving someone who doesn’t love you OR being loved by someone you don’t love: T_T, both are horrible ! okay umm, loving someone who doesnt love me. Because being loved by someone you don't love.. could get messy.

THE LOVE LIFE

1. Are you currently in a relationship: with God
2. Are you currently looking/interested in someone: hsc
3. Are you a virgin: yes
4. If yes, how long do you plan to be one: till i'm married tyvm (teehee I'm agreeing to all of Sallee's answers :D)
5. How many times have you been “in love”: none
6. Looking back, how do you feel about that person(s) now: n/a
7. Name three things (physically) you look for in someone: umm height, smile, eyes
8. Name three things (mentally/emotionally) you look for in someone: strong faith in jc, confidence, trustworthiness
9. Biggest turn offs include: liars, pessimists, etc.
10. Your ideal date would be: noooo idea.
11. You want to get married, where, when, how: where - would depend, probably somewhere in syd LOL, when - when im ready to?, how - uh. LOL I really dont give much thought in thisss. With all my lovely friends and relatives.
12. Does anyone have feelings for you right now that you don’t return: nooooop.

THE FRIENDS
(of your friends, who would you say is:)

1. The one you immediately go to with a problem: chloe/ cynf/ janny. I think it depends on the problem. I suppose, usually cho.
2. The most rational: hrm, rfa gor
3. The funniest: naa/ shazzy
4. The one you spend the most time on the phone with: estherrrr, maybe?
5. The craziest (but in a good way): pikachu/ kenny/ osh. its a tie ==;
6. The most honest: chloe
7. The purest: romnie
8. The smartest: stacey
9. The most athletic: rfafa
10. The most compassionate: eddieeee
11. The one most likely to get thrown in jail and why: CC for one day hes going to follow up on a dare that would probably chuck him in jail.
12. The last one that said “I love you”: chloe or cynf, cant remember now. lulz~

HIATUS

2010-07-28T22:20:00.005+10:00

SO.

Exams are coming up, and I'm terrified of completely dying in them because of a lack of study. Hopefully a hiatus can change that, as well as temporary blocking of all sites that distract me, including formspring and tumblr. You'll probably see be blogging again post trials. But either way, YOU GUYS KEEP ME ACCOUNTABLE, okay?

If I start posting again, remind me that I'm just bludging and procrastinating. T_TT;

For all other year12s, STUDY HARD

x

I'll back off so you can live better

2010-07-26T18:21:00.011+10:00

76/ the idea that DH is coming out AFTER HSC makes me happy.

Firstly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PETERRRRRRR C: C:
I hope you had an awesome day today, even though trials are coming up and everything ahaha.
Goodluck for them by the way, and keep pwning esther with your kpop knowledge. XD

Anyhow, Chris tagged me to do this HP Quiz thingy.
Tagging Crystal and Linny to do this if they read this then.

List the books in order from your favorite to your least favorite.
1. Deathly Hallows
2. Philosopher's Stone
3. Prisoner of Azkaban
4. Chamber of Secrets
5. Half-Blood Prince
6. Goblet of Fire
7. Order of the Phoenix

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List the movies in order from your favorite to your least favorite.
1. Philosopher's Stone
2. Half-Blood Prince
3. Goblet of Fire
4. Chamber of Secrets
5. Prisoner of Azkaban
6. Order of the Phoenix

Top 5 favorite characters?
1. Fred/ George Weasley
2. Hermione Granger
3. Draco Malfoy
4. Ron Weasley
5. Ginny Weasley

Five least favorite characters?
1. Peter Pettigrew
2. Umbridge
3. Cornelius Fudge
4. Rufus Scrimgeour
5. Voldemort

Do you prefer the books or films?
Depends which one youre talking about but generally, books

Three favorite spells?
Accio
Expecto Patronum
Lumos

Three favorite potions?
Felix Felicis
Amortentia
Veritaserum

Favorite member of the Golden Trio?
Hermioneeee C: shes an absolute genius.

Favorite family?
Malfoy.

Favorite antagonist?
In the movies, Bellatrix, cause noone plays a better antagonist than Helena Bonham Carter. But in the books, Malfoy C:

Favourite death eater?
Snape

Favourite chapter from your favorite book?
Two from DH, The Forest Again (when Harry goes to fight Voldie) and The Flaw in the Plan (when Harry goes to fight Voldie) LOL.

Favourite non-Hogwarts magical building?
My house. loljk. Umm, Beauxbatons.

Favourite Diagon Alley shop?
WEASLEYS WIZARD WHEEZES or Ollivanders.

Favourite Hogsmeade shop?
I think I would love Scrivenshaft's Quill Shop. The equivalent of a stationary store in the Muggle world XD.. okay yea Honeydukes too.

Favourite Unforgivable Curse?
Imperius Curse

Favourite mode of wizard transportation?
Time-turner. if that counts. Haha. Apparition then.

Favourite Weasley?
Freddddddddd.

Favourite Order member?
Tonks.

Favourite DA member?
Neville

Favourite pet?
Definitely Hedwig

Favourite Hogwarts room?
Room of Requirement

Favourite Hogwarts professor?
McGonagall

Favourite non-human Hogwarts resident?
Buckbeak

Favourite Tri-Wizard champion?
Fleur Delacour

Favourite house elf?
NONE. SPEW. Okay maybe the Hogwarts kitchen elves XD

Favourite wizard sweet?
Sugar Quills

Favourite couple?
James and Lily

Favourite friendship?
The Marauders

Biggest surprise of the series?
SNAPE & LILY. Did not see that coming.

Biggest letdown of the series?
Harry's angst in the fifth. Yuck.

One character you wish lived?
Rowena Ravenclaw. She's smart enough to find some way to get the rest of the four founders and then they can form Hogwarts.

Moment that will always make you cry?
When Harry goes to meet Voldy

Your patronus would be a ______?
hummingbird!! theyre so cool.

Three things Amortentia would smell like to you?
New books/ glossy magazines, spag bol, and

Show encrypted text

You would use Felix Felicis to ______?
get a good atar for the hsc !!!!!!!!!!! (Ill use it on the day that I get my hsc results C;)

Ron/Hermione or Harry/Hermione?
Ron/ Hermione.

James/Lily or Snape/Lily?
James/ Lily.

Do you think Harry Potter is better than Twilight?
HOW IS THIS A QUESTION?! Undoubtedly.

Are you going to go see the Deathly Hallows Pt. 1 in theaters?
YES YES YESSS C:

Do you own the books/movies?
All the books, not all the movies.

Have you ever played any of the video games?
Ooh I think I played it on Gameboy when I was younger.

Don’t they kind of suck?
Um, yes. BUT STILL C: It wasnt THAT bad.

Do you think it would be cool to have a pet owl?
YES

How about a rat?
Um, not as much, but rats are still okay.

Have you ever listened to the soundtrack?
Course. Hedwig's theme is probably the most easily recognized piece of music in the world C:

Which house would you want to be in?
Slytherin. LOL okay probably Ravenclaw.

Which house do you think you’ll be placed in?
Hufflepuff ;_;

Do you like Draco?
YUS, especially in the movies C:

Would you ever enter the Tri-Wizard Tournament?
AHAHAHAHAH no. Id cheer them on for sure though.

Would you keep your money in Gringotts?
Yus C:

What class would be your favourite?
CHARMS.

Do you think you would enjoy being a witch/wizard?
Whut are you talking about, I am one. Love it C;

Favourite movie set?
Hogwarts Castle when its snows!

Favourite movie scene?
Harry using the Felix Felicis or Ron accidentally eating the love potioned chocolates from Romilda Vane. FREAKING HILARIOUS. C:

Favourite scene in the movies not included in the books?
Ummmm when Snape tells Harry to be quiet when he sees him during the scene where Dumblydore gets killed.

Scene you were most disappointed didn’t make it into the movie?
Oh yea, no quidditch was pretty sad ): butttt I guess Id say how Lily didnt get a part when James was taunting Snape. I WAS SO looking forward to that !

Death Eaters or Dumbledore’s Army?
DUMBLEDORES ARMY FTW.

Fred or George?
Fred.

The Ministry of Magic or Gringotts?
Ministry of Magic.

Sirius or Lupin?
Sirius.

Occlumency or Legilimency?
Legilimency.

Animagus or metamorphagus?
Definitely animagus.

Mermish or Parselmouth?
Parselmouth

Draco or Lucius?
DRACO

Peter Pettigrew or Mundungus Fletcher?
Neither, hate them both.

Whomping Willow or flying Ford Anglia?
Flying Ford Anglia XD

Invisibility cloak or Pensieve?
Invisibility cloak

Grimmauld Place or the Burrow?
The Burrow. I hated the movie scene when they destroyed it T_TT

Werewolf or Inferi?
NEITHER. Oh, wait, werewolf C: Kus Remus is one and he's still awesome.

Herbology or Care of Magical Creatures?
Care of Magical Creatures

Professor Binns or Professor Umbridge?
Binns. I'd get too owned in Umbridge's class for laughing at her.

Peeves or Nearly Headless Nick?
Nick, definitely. SO much nicer.

Hippogriff or Thestrals?
Hippogriff C:

Durmstrang or Beauxbatons?
Beauxbatons. Kus Id totally go there C:

Portkey or Apparition?
Apparition

Horcruxes or Hallows?
Hallows. I want the cloak 8D

Are you happy with the Epilogue or do you wish something was different?
VERY HAPPY. SCORPIUS MUST BE AWESOME. Oh except I was always a N/L shipper so iono, maybe change that.

FINALLY. Hahaha, finished.

^ Click for the DH posters! If I'm getting one, Im getting the third one XD SO EPIC. But argh Hogwarts burns T_TTT;; Furthermore, in a complete HP craze, I went to go watch the DH trailer.. D: I AM SO EXCITED. I was literally shaking when I watched the trailer, but maybe that had to do with me being cold since it's still freezing at night. I have a feeling that Im going to leave IMAX watching Part 1 in a daze and adamant for Part 2 ==; which is why a part of me doesnt want to watch Part 1 until I can marathon it with Part 2 LOL. I'm sure cinemas would probably have a HP Marathon when Part 2 comes out though :DD Yayyy. Now click v for trailer + sneak vids of DH 8D including interviews C: ~ AND AHMYGAD THAT LAST VID IS SO CUTE (!!!!!)

cause youre hot then youre cold

2010-07-25T21:51:00.005+10:00

75/ adam winning masterchef makes me happy.

ECSTATICCCCCCC |DDDDDDD
YAY ADAMMMMMMM
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS FONT ISNT BIG ENOUGH TO EXPRESS HOW YAY I FEEL RIGHT NOW LOLOLOL

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Okay now that Ive posted that, I can slowly analyze how it went tonight. Well, whenever they filmed it anyway lolol.

I think I missed most of the start of the comp because Mum hadnt called us all to dinner yet and yea, couldnt be stuffed to go downstairs. But I went after I talked to Esther on the phone kus she was all like MASTERCHEF IS ON NOW RAR RAR RAR. etc .

So whatever, by the time I started watching it, I think they had just arrived at the Masterchef kitchen and George/ Gary had finished explaining how the day worked. I really liked the first part, I think it was superfair XD and it wasnt something nervewracking or lame like a taste test. I HATE THOSE LOL. I found it hilarious that I've watched Masterchef so much that Steph and I were just naming the spices/ fruits/ cheese/ sauces/ fish etc along with them XDDD. I lol-ed at Callum though when he named the Romesco sauce P:

Practical skills was even cooler. Adam was fully like NOSWEAT!! -platesupperfectomletteinlessthan5mins- XDD and Callum was just like -gahimsoscrewed- except I know he made one better that I could ever make one LOLOL. All of mine would turn up like his first scrambled eggs one hahahaa. and omgzzzz the turned carrot was awesomeee. I saw the one that George and Gary had done and I was like HOLYCRAP THAT LOOKS SO COOL. I lol-ed at Callum's turned carrots too hahahaaa.

Second part was so cool. I loved how Adam's invention had a story/ name behind it all (Three Little Pigs LOL how cute, and did you guys hear what he called the last pork belly? something to do with a bellybutton.. HAHA) but yea I was totally cheering for both of them at the beginning but I think by now I was going for Adam XDD. Callum's dish looked alright and it was cute! BUT I dont think it was really at par with Adam's somuchmoreawesomerlooking dish. Looked much smaller too :/ But anyhow, Dad, as usual has all these conspiracy theories about Masterchef (actually in all honesty I swear he has conspiracy theories for everything shown on TV LOL. Like all of FIFA he was talking about how FIFAs definitely rigged.. HAHA ANYHOW) so Dad was going on about how they had to make sure that there wasnt a HUGE difference in between Adam and Callum and how that totally shouldnt have happened (he wanted Callum to get eliminated like WAAAAY back HAHA). I sort of agreed, I thought Adam's was a whole lot better, but I suppose if they did make a huge difference in the scores, Callum wouldnt have tried at all for the last challenge because it wouldve meant that Adam had such a huge advantage to win.

Last dish was awesome. I think it was called Custard Apple and Guava snow egg? Looks so cute and Steph couldnt stop going on about how she wanted to go to Quay now and taste it. Hahahahaha dream on. Because it's been on Masterchef now and especially since it's the last challenge, I dont even want to think about how expensive it must be. Besides, Quay is the highest ranking Australian restaurant in the world apparantly, so regardless if Peter's food was brought onto Masterchef or not, its super super fine dining. Hence, super super super super expensive.

Honestly, I thought this challenge couldve been harder. It seemed SO much easier than Adriano Zumbo's V8 cake, but even so during the entire challenge I was so scared that Callum was going to win because he's so gun at desserts XD. I was so sad when Adam screwed up the blowtorch bit. But anyhow lolol during the tasting when Adam had his plate up and he was like "I always seem to come second in everything" LOLOLOLOLL. COMPLETE awkward turtle for a moment after that HAHAHA. The judges would look so bad if they made him come second HAHAA I'd have no idea what they'd tell him when he realizes that he has come second YET AGAIN LOL.

Oh and during the scoring, when Matt Moran scored Callum's dish, he commented about how he preferred it to Peter's. LOL OH DAMN. Was it just me, or did you guys also see how he sorta paused for a split second after he realized what he said? XDDDDD.

And I also thought Julie looked rather out of place at the end. I think POH WOULDVE SUITED BEING THERE BETTER. But hey that wouldve been funny, two asians winning Australia's masterchef lulz. Loads of confetti as usual, and the families, and LOL George is so smart in bagsing Callum as an apprentice for The Press Club hahahaa. I bet all chefs wouldve wanted him to work in their kitchen. Hey actually, I just remembered, didnt Callum ask for an apprenticeship at some other chef's kitchen just the other day during finals???? Eh, anyway.

SO ADAM WON YAY! With.. how many points different was it ==; Adam got 89 and Callum for 8..2? 83? I think it was 82. Oh so actually it wasnt a SUPERHUGE difference, but dude 89 out of a possible 100 is hectic for a Masterchef finale. What did Julie get last year?

THAT IS ALL.
Masterchef is finally over, I can stop watching the same show everyday now XDD I just wonder how many people tuned in to watch the show today. I shall go check this as well as the score that Julie got last year:

Poh got 75 and Julie got 82. REALLY? Thats such a huge difference in scores O_O. But granted, their first challenge last year was much harder. Poh only got 11 for the first one and Julie 12, whereas Callum got... ceebs figuring it out ==; ANYHOW.

Um, as for how many people, last year was 3.3mil and for tonights finale, its expected to have 5mil to have watched. Apparantly they cant confirm until tomorrow and WA hasnt finished watching it yet either XD haha time differences.

LOL I think the masterchef forum website is absolutely getting owned right now, theres so many people trying to get on the site that its shut down for a moment XDDD. Ooh interesting facts about Adam and Callum:

Adam was a media lawyer for WALT DISNEY JAPAN! How freaking cool, I want to do that!! And he finished year 11 when he was 14. O_O. But Callum has loads more comments/ fan messages than Adam LOL.

AND OMGZ did you guys see the JUNIOR MASTERCHEF?? HOW CUTE AHAHAHAHA. I am totally watching that. Except it would make me feel so crap about myself because those little kids (I think 8-12?) can cook so much better than me XD. But at least this time the judges wont be so slack and im so excited kus theyre just so cute. And this would really revolutionize how kids these days eat. Oh and Jess! You can finally see that not every kid of Gen Z is like that YOU DUN GOOFD kid. C: Hopefully~ hahahaa.

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level up

2010-07-25T19:27:00.003+10:00

74/ birthdays make me happy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STACEYYYYYY
Resident genius grows one year older 8D
yayayayayay hope you got my text,
and hope you really did have an amazing day
BECUS YOURE SUPBAATSHOU NOW AND TAHTS OLDDD
not really.
BUT ITS A SPECIAL DAY IN BIRTHDAY YEARZZZ
so today better have been awesomesauce C:

...
Weekends have already killed my vocabulary -cries-
HOW THE HECK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ENGLISH TRIALS T_TT

Anyhow, nothing interesting going on in my life, as usual.
Lalalalala~

MASTERCHEF IS ON TONIGHTTTTT
FINALE BABY,
I shall post again post-masterchef I suppose.
Knowing me, I'm going to have 2138042 comments about what happens tonight.

ADAM PLEASE WIN YO.

x

Digital Bounce

2010-07-24T23:27:00.009+10:00

73/ making graphics make me happy.

This is how I relax C:

Finally changed backgrounds after like, MONTHS of the top one (Y) I still really miss Eurotour08, but there are more pressing matters (HSC).

In all honesty, it took more time for me to decide what to put on it instead of actually making it ): I couldn't decide whether to leave it to just SHINee or add some LMH, BB and B2ST. So I had to look around deviantart a bit to figure out what looks best - a whole mashup of pictures or reediting of one/ two photos. Well you can see what I ended up deciding with.

Hehe ShaWol ftw! 02 november is simple, it's the day I finish my HSC, so I suppose it's a reminder of what's to come and how I really don't have long to go. Everything just relates back to the HSC these days gah. Still, I'm feeling insanely proud of my creation LOLOL. It could be better, but it's late/ early and I just couldnt be stuffed to continue fixing it LOL. I had to redo the entire background just because I was randomly drawing on it and it didnt ctrl-z properly afterwards! T_TT.

While I was making it, I was also going to post a whole list of bible verses on it, except I stupidly copy and pasted an entire passage which was too much for poor GIMP.

IT FROZE ITSELF and I was panicking because I hadn't saved it at all since I started, so if I restarted GIMP, I'd have lost THE ENTIRE THING. Which was why I was so adamant that EVEN IF I had to leave my computer on all night for it to unfreeze itself, I would. There was just no way that I'd let hours of work just disappear because I accidentally added too much in one go T_TT. It took 15 way too long minutes to unfreeze. I just hate it when my computer lags.

Today was superbly hectic. Woke up late, I was supposed to get up at 8 but I pretty much slept until 830 ==; Intu started at 9 and it takes me half an hour to get to Epping from my place by car. So I was already in a rush ): Did my second ESP (that I MUST REDO LOL BECAUSE I MUSTVE DONE SO CRAP IN IT). TWO HOURS is such a long timeeee. I nearly fell asleep sigh. I could feel myself not trying very hard during ESP. Crap. ==; I'm scared about going to my first class kus then I'd have to get my exam back and I just did so bad that I have to laugh about it or otherwise I'd cry.

Went to library afterwards and saw Natalie and Ruth C: but library closes at noon on Saturdays -rages- so I had to go to GJs instead. Walked with Ruth to the other side of Epping kus she had Talent, and we saw Cabbage just after we got to the other side before we all dispersed towards our respective tutoring places :D. Ordered a chicken and sundried tomato filo at GJs - about $6, yum but not filling enough- and just did maths for about an hour before maths tutoring.

After that, walked back to the library for mum to pick me up and slept on the way back home. I had about 15mins really, to finish getting ready for english tutoring straight after, but it took me half an hour instead ==; trying to print and find everything because due to a change in tutoring times, I lost an hour to do english work. Had english tutoring, which consisted of A LOT of cutting down of my essays and got home, watched a bit of TV, ate spag bol while rents went out for dinner with family friends and made my new computer background after such a long day of hardcore tutoring C: yayy.

x

Oh btw! For all 3ueng people who are still wondering about 2003+ texts, I emailed m4yers last night and got a reply this morning:

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Hi Mrs M4yers!
Just a few minutes ago, someone told me that the texts for 3U has to be written/ produced before 2003. I'm wondering if you can confirm this for me, because for the past two assessments I've used a text that was written in 2005. If it is a problem, would it be fine for me to use LIT, TSN and two related texts (a short story in 1997 and a film in 1999) instead? Or do you think that I should continue to use the one I'm using now?

Thanks in advance!
Tiffany.

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Hi Tiffany,
You have asked the 'burning question'! We have been told 3 different answers to this question by different people at the Board of Studies! On Monday, Ms St L0u1s is going to ring D0n C4rt3r - head English bloke at the Board to hopefully get a definitive answer. For the Trial, don't worry. We won't penalise you anyway. Use whatever you have now. I will let you know as soon as we know the right answer. It is ridiculous that even the people who should have the answers, can't agree! Sorry if that is even more confusing!

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So yea! I guess it's okay to use 2003+ texts for trials but I will rage if they wont let us for the actual HSC. It'd mean that I'd have to find ANOTHER related text that works with my OTHER related AND the two supplementary o_o. freaking.. ==;

bbi ri bop a

2010-07-23T22:31:00.005+10:00

72/ the thought about all this being over soon makes me happy.

This is fcking INSANE. I feel so unbelievably overloaded. My trials timetable has got to be the WORST in all history.

Monday:
2U Eng Paper 1: Belonging essay and creative and comprehension.

Tuesday:
2U Eng Paper 2: Module A, B, C essays.

Wednesday:
3U Maths
Ancient

Thursday:
3U English: NTG essay and creative
Westpac (MUST FIND SOME WAY TO GET OUT OF THIS !!)

Friday:
History Ext: What is History essay and JFK essay

Monday:
Economics

Wednesday:
2U Maths

But honestly, I am going to DIE for the first week. I think ultimately, it's seven english essays/ creatives altogether. That's approximately 8000 words in four days. And that's also disregarding ancient (3hr exam) and maths ext and westpac. I need to say goodbye to my hand ): ):

The more I think about it, the more crazier it sounds. I had trouble learning my 3u essay last exam! And that was only about 2.5k words, max! FFFFFF. The worst bit is, I haven't finished writing either of my creatives and I have to rewrite two essays (belonging since I have to integrate another related, and 3u because apparently we're not allowed texts after 03 and my related for both previous exams was an 05 + we have to add another related again), while also finishing my mod C essay. WHAT the freak.

These two weeks are going to be the worst of my life so far. I am so ready to just breakdown and cry my heart out. This would not be so bad if the freaking timetable wasnt so crappy but ARGH. Everytime I look at the timetable, I dont know whether to feel completely screwed over or realize how fast its going to pass. AND FURTHEREFFINGMORE, 4U REFLECTION STATEMENT IS DUE TOO. OMG GTFO NUWAY.

Note to self: PLEASE DONT STRESS OUT. JUST, DONT STRESS OUT. It's a total fml but I HAVE to get through this. I really don't have a choice anyway. Stick it out and God will do the rest.

I don't want to go to school on Monday at all.

x

a-yo

2010-07-22T21:19:00.005+10:00

There are a few things that I have to say.

1. ADAM FOR MASTERCHEF.
2. I AM INSANELY PROUD OF PETER FOR HIS KPOP KNOWLEDGE LOLOL.
3. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NIK FOR YDAYYYY
4. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ASHYYYY FOR TODAYYYY
5. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KCHO FOR TMRWWWW

We have 10 people in our grade whose birthdays are during trials!!! :S :S We should throw a massive party for all ten of them right after LOLOL. C: But maybe not for us 4u eng kids who still have to finish ==; except maybe the ones who actually have finishedddd... GAH.

Note to self: finish writing creatives tonight, bring laptop tmrw for esther.

I can't believe I'm hardly ever catching my bus anymore. I feel like I live in Epping now, with all the days that I go there ==; Like in all honesty, Monday there's cadets, so I get driven home afterwards. Tuesdays now has Intu classes, unless CC convinces me to change to Friday, which is unlikely. We'll see. Wednesday I end at like 1130am both week A and B so I either stay at the library to work for a bit or go home or go to eco lecture. Thursday is history ext arvo classes and now an extra tutoring right after at Epping. Fridays are Intu as well, for tutorials/ classes, or studying at Epp library. Saturdays are Intu at 9am till about 1130, then tutoring from 12- 130, then go home/ lunch, english tutoring 330-430. ... zomggg. So packed. There is literally no day that I catch the yellow bus anymoreeee ): unless it's a Monday that doesnt have cadets on after school. Which is unlikely around this time because Passing Out Parade is coming up soon too so we'd have to practice for that. Blehh.

I still can't believe that trials are over in three weeks though. It's just passing so so quickly.

some random rant that is encrypted

Damn, now I'm in a bad mood.

loverholic, robotronic

2010-07-21T15:09:00.011+10:00

71/ 2집 Lucifer makes me happy.

I feel like I'm obsessed with Lucifer D: Like I can't stop watching the damn MV. But it's like how I've just replayed SHINee's Ring Ding Dong MV for like 30985034985043 times. :D I've been playing the new SHINee album nonstop since yesterday night too ==; hahaa. I think I might like SHINee's new album better than Taeyangs' :x

I also have realized that I really like Taemin's hairstyle. As in, for me. HAHA. It's a nice colour too O_O. It takes a while to get used to, but I think that it suits them better than any other kpop group ==; like I cannot imagine DBSK or SUJU coming up with this. Maybe 2PM P: I also realized today how many of the SUJU members remind me of people I know O_O.

BUT YEA. I'm loving their dancing styleeeee. C: and now I really really want a SHINee poster as well as a TS3 poster and a HP poster :DDD yaaaayyy.

x

edit: MASTERCHEF UPDATEEEE :DD
YAY JIMMY IS OUTTT. I was so happy to hear that Adam and Callum were fine XD ADAM FTW. Except I have a feeling that Claire might win :S :S eugh. Pleaaaaase no. TOMORROW'S ONE SOUNDS SO EPIC XDDD Zomgg.. like so much on the lineee :S :S Cannot wait hehehe.

last first day of term in school D:

2010-07-20T20:47:00.008+10:00

70/ finding a book to just READ makes me happy.

Today really did pass much faster than I expected. I remember looking at the clock in eco (fifth pd) and just thinking wthck its already past 12 ?? XD Didn't do that much today either.

1st period - free. Bludged. Got another copy of my timetable today LOL kus I lost it during the hols sometime. Must've chucked it out by accident when I was cleaning up after exams =_=;;; Or maybe its just stuck under piles and piles of papers around my desk/ room. gah, cannot be bothered to clean up since I'll prolly just give it all to Steph after HSC and she can do whatever with the papers, idc C:

2nd - 4eng. Nothing interesting. Talked to everyone about english 3u/2u more than 4u LOL. but altogether an uneventful period.

3rd - 3eng. Esther is the new edwardo. Our table just finds absolutely anything to talk about :DD HAHA. Mainly kpop. And we get silenced by M4yers like every 2 minutes P: NOTE TO SELF: FINISH WRITING ALREADY!!!!

4th - 2eng. Uh, slept .____." IT WAS VALID THOUGH, kus we were going through The Minotaur and I'm not using that for one of my poems P:

5th - eco. Was a little late kus I was talking to mcf4dyen about my related texts, but altogether uneventful again. I think I only rewrote the question and for the rest of the pd just talked about cadetships and bos numbers (which reminds me, I need to go email BOS because Ive forgotten my PIN # +_+) and canape parties. C: Why is eco such a bludgee...

6th - ancient - TOOK NOTES, a little :D I think ill stay after school tomorrow and work on my ancient notes C:

7th - maths - uneventful again because we had k1m. Just pretty much sat there and did some past papers.

See, absolutely completely uneventful last first day of term in school. Except maybe the time when India told me that we have approximately 35 days of school left. Not counting weekends and trials. THATS SO CRAZY. We only really have 35 days left to see each other at school. 13years of school and theres only 35 days leftttttttt wtffffffff.

Went to Epping after school today because I thought that we had Intu. Sat next to David on the bus there and just played iphone games LOL. I forgot what theyre all called but there was like.. this one where you have to jump on coins and stuff and just not FALL .. and I sorta failed epicly at that game. Fruit ninja was eaaaaaaaaaasyyy :D and angry birds was just.. no comment ==; Anyhow, turns out that esp classes dont start until next week !!! So I just stayed at Epp library until Dad came to pick me up. Read a book by Audrey Niffenegger aka the author who wrote The Time Traveller's Wife called Her Fearful Symmetry.

It's been so long since I last picked up a book to really READ. Not for a related text, or for a supp text, but actually just a book I wanted to read :D Made me relax so much, and I literally just sat there and read for like two hours. So awesome. C: Except I think halfway through I fell asleep ==; and now my neck hurts like hell for some reason. I can't turn it to the left or right without it hurtingggg ): ): After reading about 160 pages I just stopped and took a break, talked to Ruth for a bit and went back to doing maths past papers. STILL thinking about dropping 3u or not!!! Intu's stopping me from dropping but argh, so much time is needed to be spent on 3u so I dno... advice, people?

AND MASTERCHEF TODAY YAY ADAM. He's so awesome XD So creative and so naturally talented. Also I'm starting to like Callum a lot more now. He's just come such a long way since he's started!! And Jimmy is starting to piss me off kus the only thing he's supergood at making is curry. HAHAA. But if he opens a restaurant I'd probably go :D .. if it's in Sydney.

Also had the hot fudge cake from dominos today kus Mum just decided to randomly order it along with our pizza. SO YUM. It's literally like, gah YUM.

This made my day:

Morning Tiff,
today is the start of the last chapter of the saga which is your high school life. Cherish every last bit, for these will be some of the best moments in your life. Don't lose focus as well as you're so close. As you'll realise the life ahead lies with many obstacles, as everyone's will but its the people who travels with us that make it what it is. So remember, don't lose focus, don't lose faith, embrace your opportunities and cherish what you have right now.

From Kenny C: THANKS BRO! Even though I'm pretty sure he sent this to everyone, it's so reassuring to have people like him being there to support and push me along. Actually in all honesty, I had been sleeping late again last night, and just before I went to sleep, for a while, I just sat in bed and just looked up at the ceiling and just talked to God. It's been a while since I last did that.. because usually I'd be trying to fall asleep, or watching something on my ipod or curled up because that's how I sleep XD, but yea.. just sat there and let out all of my fears to God. I was also in a situation where .. I just had no idea what to do. It was one of those times when you feel like you're so stressed out and you have no way out of the mess. I basically was just like GOD WHAT DO I DOOOO. And I sorta fell asleep thinking about what I could do. Within moments.. I think I was about to fall asleep, I just thought of how I could fix it. And in the morning, Kenny sent the text.

Mum reminded me to count my blessings today. And to do devotion whenever possible, because I need to rely on my God more than ever these days. SO THANKYOU GOD ! C:

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x

ps. I really need to stop thinking about english and conflicting perspectives +_+ EVERYTIME that I hear a story with the same themes in them, I immediately think CONFLICTING PERSPECTIVES! or BELONGING! or OMG WHAT A SYMBOLIC METAPHOR THIS NON-DIAGETIC MUSIC COUPLED WITH THE JUXTAPOSITION OF THE BLAH MAKES! ... ==;

like this picture from alo's blog is just so awesome for a related text XD too bad we have to do something related to plath/ hughes relationship otherwise I'd have totally used it P:

ALSO! SHINee's Lucifer is out yayayayay. Hate the hairstyles, but Im loving the song :D Key's the worst. LIKE WHY. WHYYYYYYY ): I remember having a SHINee phase in year10 when they first debuted P: I think Ive still got most of their songs on my itouch :DDD

toki wo tomete

2010-07-18T21:12:00.015+10:00

69/ korean dramas with lee min ho in them makes me happy.

Oh, before I forget:

HAPPY FREAKING 18TH BIRTHDAY CC AND GORDON FOR YESTERDAYYYY. You are both old now and CAN VOTE LOLOL GG AUSTRALIA. Not really. But still, it sounds weird that you can. Gah, we're all getting old. Nuuuuuuu~

Okay Salleeeeee, I've decided that you can have Taeyang .. for a while. Lee Min Ho is awesome. I probably didnt like him enough in BOF kus of his curly hair. I like him with straight hair much much better :D -needs to watch Personal Taste- AFTER TRIALS D: and 4u eng.

But agh look:

Click ^ for more LOL I sort of went on a tumblr photo spam of LMH D; like SPAM.
but then it sort of morphed into a BOF spam HAHA. Eff, I miss watching BOF.
And the KEEP CALM one's from PP/PT. I think there is a time when all guys will have to go through that LOLOL.

But :DDD He's so cute even when he's not trying to be XDD

I also finally updated my kpop song list yday C: Added SOLAR, Vol. 4 BONAMANA, Oh!, the rest of SS501 DESTINATION (EP) and 2PM's Dont Stop Cant Stop. Have no idea why that wasnt already in my ipod after I added Without U XD but meh. SHINee's coming back tooooo :DD -excited- hehe. Didn't like Narsha's new song for some reason :S but I only listened to it once though. Like with Without U, i didnt like it the first time I listened to it, but then by hearing it more and more I liked it more and more C:

This is a useless blog post. My net is laggggyyyy zzz. And I have officially survived without msn HAHA. I ceebs going on anymore.

And no, I'm not ready to go to school ==;

OH AND MASTERCHEF, hahaha of course. CHEF SAKAI IS HILARIOUS XD And I couldnt stop laughing when Adam was talking about how he said the wrong thing in jap. About how he was chucking prawns into the.. whats that pot called again .. the one where you mash up the spices.. ANYHOW, he was chucking prawns "to make it lighter" except he said it wrong in jap and so he was like "Chef Sakai gave me a look that was basically like 'How does chucking prawns make it spicier?" LOLOLOL. Okay yea its not that funny but I thought it was funny =_=; My sense of humour has gone weird during the holidays.

Also to all the BHCAC leaders, thanks so much C: Feff came up with an awesome idea that every Sunday we'd all stop working at 9pm and pray for one another. And I think it's really going to help kus it really shows us that we're not alone and it's also a good way to still remember God within these stressful times (: (: So to my grade at BHCAC, we will rock this ♥ I love all of you so much! &The best is yet to come. By the way, we need to get that holiday organized after we're all done with trials XDD.

x

LOL/ okay its weird but I laughed.

editttt:

So I was stalking blogs, and I came across Bonnie's. She talked about those STUPID PERFECT ITALIANO ADS LOL that crack me up but AHMYGAD THEYRE SO ANNOYING HAHA. Bon, have you seen this one:

thnks fr th mmrs

2010-07-16T18:27:00.004+10:00

68/ happy memories make me happy.

I am so incredibly scared about the end of term 3. It's not like I'm not looking forward to finishing trials and hsc, but it's more about how I'm not going to see my grade for every single weekday bar holidays. I'm scared of all the nostalgia that I'm going to feel whenever I look at the Ruse uniform in my wardrobe, or how many times I'm going to say how much I miss everyone over the phone, or on msn, or facebook, or even through here. I can just imagine me, typing away, approximately six months later, and remembering how today, right now, I felt so.. sad that this is the end. I feel like, I never got to know my grade enough, there are still some people who I hardly talk to, there are some people who I never got to know well enough. I feel like there's been a whole load of missed opportunities and wasted time, a whole lot of regrets and I-wished-this-had-turned-out-differently.

I think most of all, I'm scared to see Ruse2010 fall apart. Thinking about my year 6 grade in MPPS, I only keep in touch with only a very few of them - most from church and ruse. If, going by a six year time frame, things would end up like that, well. I think it's inevitable that I'm going to lose contact with many rusians.

Salleezors posted up a 'rewind' post. I'm saving mine for later (;
(when it gets closer to the actual end of term 3, and when I can find/ be bothered to gather photos LOL)

For now, I'm taxing Amelia/ Crystal's 21 things haha:

1. I am late to everything. If you want me to be early, when I ask for the time that I should be there, tell me fifteen minutes earlier than when the rest of you all will be there. Otherwise, I will be late. It's pretty much guaranteed hahaa.

2. I automatically like anything that makes me cry. As in, movies/ books/ talks etc. I believe that by it being able to make me cry, it obviously means that it's good enough to produce huge reactions from me. In saying that, I get emotional very easily.

3. I like to think that my life was changed in Year 8. I was a very bitchy, very slack, very up-myself kid in primary school/ Year 7, someone who didn't deserve the bunch of friends she had then. It took two years to show me that the world is not ever only about me, that being humble is a trait that everyone should have, that by not having everything that I want is the end of the world. I was shown that I could have fun without emotionally harming anyone, that I never had to resort to name-calling and backstabbing to resolve arguments (not that any of that does), and that I missed many many many amazing friendships just because of my stupidity back then.

4. I'm not good with commitment of any kind. I get bored and restless easily and I'm someone who just can't stick to one thing for a long long time. All my extra-curricular activities only probably lasted for about two-three years. I change my blogskins regularly. I've moved houses more times than I can remember. Shazzy can vouch for the large number of phones I've ever owned (okay that wasn't because I got bored of them, it was just kus they really died, but still). Relationships too. I push people away. There really isn't that many people who I'm superbly close to, although that's more because I think people get bored of me easily XD.

5. I live too much in the past and the future and not enough in the present. I love memories too much, and I love imagining about what I'll be like/ what I'll be doing while the present gets ignored. I hope that one day, I'll mature and realize that the present is also just as important as not forgetting my past (which grounds me) while planning for whatever happens in the future.

6. I'm not superstitious, but I can't help but think of superstitious things. When I get a number for something, I automatically check if it's got 4s, 6s or 13s in it. I consider 3s, 7s, 9s, 11s, 23s, and 37s lucky. o_o. They're not, but.. yea. ==; haha.

7. I'm afraid that, by being Asian, it reduces chances of really 'making' it in the Australian work environment. I also regret that I don't know the chinese language as fluently as I would like, and for not being able to read a lot of it too. Which means that it'll be hard for me to go back to say, HK and work. Not even sure if I want to. I believe that it would be easier in Australia than nearly any other Western country but at the same time, it's not going to be easy at all :/ Especially if I want to work in the media industry.

8. My favourite mode of transport is by train. Maybe it reminds me of HK, or the London trains during eurotour, or how I watched a lot of Thomas the Tank Engine when I was young, but regardless, I love it. Haha.

9. I like making others happy. I think it's much easier to make others happy than it is to make yourself happy.

10. I live my life inspired by this girl called Rachel Joy Scott. She died in the Columbine High School Massacre in April 2000, and her parents wrote a book about the incident and about her and her relationship with God. It's called Rachel's Tears and my Dad got it for my birthday a while ago. She wrote in so many journals, and is the sole reason why I began writing in journals too. She lived according to an acronym of her middle name, that it was in this order that we should live our lives for: Jesus Others Yourself. I follow that too. She was the one who reached out to everyone around her, who would try to stay positive every moment of the day, who threw herself into everything she did. I want to be as inspirational as she is, and to be able to shine for Christ like she does.

11. I want to be able to cook spectacularly. This isn't working very well at the moment ==; HAHA but I'll try more after HSC.

12. I wear night contacts. For some reason, not a lot of people know this LOL. But yes, I do C: The left one is blue and the right one is purple (Y).

13. When I go shopping alone, I try to avoid shops that have noone in them. By being in them, even if it's my favourite shop in the world, it makes me feel selfconscious and I feel guilty if I leave the shop without buying anything. So whenever I find myself in such a situation, I stay until someone else comes into the shop before I surreptitiously leave.

14. There's a lot of people who I wish I was much closer to. So many who I wish I spent more time talking to, and more time trying to get to know them. It hurts to think about what-could-have-beens though.

15. I'm an avoider. I hate confronting problems, so I leave it. People have to stop me from doing that. It's unhealthy and it's academically and emotionally damaging.

16. I've been trying to decide what I'm going to do in my life/ what I'm going to do in uni since year 8. I still am not completely sure about what I really want to do.

17. This number reminds me of CC. HAHA

18. I used to always be able to remember people's birthdays. Since the HSC timetable came out, I can't remember anything but HSC exam dates, trial dates, when I finish HSC day. I even forgot my own birthday because of stupid HSC.

19. My parents both have a Masters degree, yet they now work at a Post Office. It makes me feel extremely guilty that they decided to leave their lives and friends back in HK but incredibly grateful that they did it so that my sister and I could have a better opportunity here in Australia. It's amazing and mindblowing and I will never be able to thank them enough.

20. When I was young, my mum made me read the dictionary. I never finished though. HAHA.

21. Online habits:
What's on your clipboard (What have you got copied)? this survey
What's the top on your most visited sites list? google
What do you spend most of your time doing online? depends when youre talking about. Ive had a neopets phase, an msn phase, a blogging phase, a tumblr phase, a facebook phase, a fanfiction phase. etc. I procrastinate a lot.

Real World Stuff:
Gender? female
Age? 17
Sexuality? straight
Prefer talking to people online or in real life? depends
First time you had a crush? hk preschool.
Where are you right now? upstairs rumpus/ study.
What are you wearing? pjs, fluffy bathrobe, underwear.
Who would you want most with you right now? someone who could teach me maths.
Are these questions making you feel slightly uncomfortable? no..

Personality
Easily angered? yes
Easily pleased? yes
Cares about others? yes
Have you been hugged more, or hugged others more? ummm.. not sure.
Follower or Leader? both, more follower though, I think.
Person who needs advice, or gives advice? Both.

Dream Person
Cute or Sexy? cute
Shorter or Taller? taller
Stylish? in a metrosexual way haha < ditto crystal.
Looks or Personality? both.. but probably personality more.
Share same interests? yes and no. not everything, but yea, some interests, sure.
Perceptive of other people, or yourself? hopefully of me LOL. i cant figure myself out.
Any other special attributes? not socially awkward. hahaa.

In the Moment
What are you listening to right now? nothing.
What was the last thing you did? um. type ? o_O what is this question really asking?
What other applications do you have open right now? two other ff browsers, ebuddy, two microsoft word documents.
What will you do after this? review maths for tomorrow/ finish 2u essay.

OMGGGG SUCH A LONG POST LOL
I guess it makes up for my lack of posting during the hols.

x

SUCCESS IS MINE 8D

2010-07-16T15:12:00.017+10:00

67/ neat codes make me happy.

YAY Jess gave me the codes to have expandable images .. trying it out naow 8). Why do I get so excited over neat html codes ? LOL.

clicky

OKAY OMGGG I FINALLY DID IT WOOOOOOOOOOOT. IT TOOK ME ONE HOUR LOL WHY AM I SO NOOB. THIS IS SO COOOOL. I think I might just start all my posts like this. SO NEAT. 8DDDD WAKAKAKA. I'M SO HAPPY I FINALLY GOT THIS. It's like finishing a hard maths question HAHAHA. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ I think most of you can ignore this post. I'm just messing around. 8) epically.

x

happy together

2010-07-15T22:18:00.006+10:00

66/ when html works, it makes me happy.

Spent so long trying to fix this layout up ahahaha. I wanted to add a sort of mouseover- accordian textbox where the "entries" and "other" was, so I didn't need a new page at all. Gave up after about one/ two hours of html fail +_+; I HATE it when everything goes all out of alignment T_TT. Eventually I just resorted to two pages, so it wasn't as untidy. It actually just looks exactly the same as the original one, so I really didn't change this one at all, compared to my previous layouts where I usually just combine two layouts together. I had to change the last one kus the TS3 stuff wasn't coming together nicelyyy =_=; by changing the icons and etc, I just effectively ruined the entire layout LOL.

... My sister just faceplanted onto her desk next to me.
whut. =_=;

Anyway, everyone seems to be sick these days !! GET BETTER SOON OKKKK. ): I was feeling a bit sick today too. Went to Josh's place today kus Uncle was tutoring me for a bit, and I obviously didn't dress warm enough because by the end of the day I was headache-y and half frozen and sleepy. Didn't feel any better until I had a superwarm shower and ate. I've been consuming too many lollipops these days too. zzzz, I'm going to get diabetes ;_;

Bored from english-ing and trying to fix this layout up so survey, here we go:

Rule #1: If you open this you take it.
Rule #2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks.
Rule #3: Be completely honest.

True or False
Q: Kissed someone on your friends list? - false
Q: Been arrested? - false
Q: Do you like someone? – true
Q: Held a snake? - true
Q: Been suspended from school? - false
Q: Sang karaoke? - true
Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? - true
Q: Laughed until you started crying? - true
Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue? - true
Q: Kissed in the rain? – false
Q: Sang in the shower? – true
Q: Sat on a roof top? – false
Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? - false
Q: Broken a bone? - false
Q: Shaved your head? – false
Q: Played a prank on someone? - true
Q: Shot a gun? - true
Q: Donated blood? - false

Last Person
1. You hung out with? – josh
2. You texted? – jess
3. You were in a car with? – mum
4. Went to the movies with? – mum, dad, steph
5. Person you went to shop with? – mum, steph
6. You talked on the phone? - alice
7. Made you laugh? - josh
8. You hugged? - tomas

Answer Truthfully
1. Sun or moon? - sun
2. Winter or Fall? - fall
3. Left or Right? - right
4. Sunny or rainy? - sunny
5. Where do you live? - sydney
6. Club or pub? - club
7. Are there 1 or 2 people who you can always trust and rely on? – yes
8. Do you want to get married? – yes
9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? - twirl
11. Are you afraid of commitment? - yes
12. What is your greatest hope/wish? – to inspire others
13. Do you cook? - sometimes
14. Current mood? – overloaded
15. Color of underwear? – red

In the Last 48 Hours, Have You
1. Sang? - no
2. Listened to music? – yes
3. Danced Crazy? – no
4. Cried? - no
5. Liked someone you can't have? – yes

25 Firsts
1. Who was your first prom date? – is this also formal? gerry
2. Who was your first roommate? – steph
3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time? – n/a
4. What was your first job? – tutor
5. What was your first car? – n/a
6. When did you go to your first funeral and viewing? – '99, grandfather's.
7. First grade teacher? – so, year1? mrs. minard
9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? – australia
10. When did you sneak out of your house for the first time? - n/a
11. Who was your first best friend? – some kid in kindy at hk
12. Who was your first best friend in high school? frances
13. Where was your first sleepover? – kassandra's, unless you count staying over at my cousin's place in hk when my aunt looked after me.
14. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? – chloe
15. Whose wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or groomsman? – n/a
16. What is the first thing you did when you got up this morning? – tried to remember my dream
17. What was the first concert you went to? – n/a ):
18. What was the last concert you went to? – n/a
19. First tattoo or piercing? - n/a
20. First celebrity crush? – alex pettyfer.. probably not, but cant remember before that
21. Current celebrity crush? – TAEYANG
22. First crush? – some kid in kindy at hk
23. Current crush? - TAEYANG
24. First time you tied your shoelaces? - forgot.

Five names you go by
1. tiffany
2. tiff
3. tinyi
4. tiffy
5. tifftiff

Three things you are wearing right now:
1. fluffy bathrobe
2. pjs
3. underwear

Three things you want very badly at the moment:
1. hsc over
2. 99+ ATAR
3. no such thing as procrastination

Three people who will probably fill this out
1. janny
2. chris
3. jess

Two things you did last night:
1. maths past paper
2. party (;

Two things you ate last night:
1. auntie kathy's spag with josh's bolognaise sauce
2. failed potato bake that became potato chips LOL

Three things you are going to do tomorrow:
1. FINISH ENGLISH WRITING
2. probably go tutoring
3. maths paper.

Two longest car rides
1. to gold coast
2. to victoria

Favorite beverages:
1. starbucks caramel frapp
2. chocolate milkshakes
3. GJ's original iced choc
4. Breakfast Juice from the Daily Juice Company

hold on tight to your dream

2010-07-14T23:10:00.006+10:00

65/ instant photos make me happy.

omggggg. sarah got me a fuji instax mini 7s for my birthday D: D: D: one of the best birthday presents everrrrr. just comes after my itouch from everyone last year (; (; hahaha. BUT YEA OMG. I've already taken four, only one which has turned out to my OMGLOVE- liking, and osh accidently took one of my tv LOLOL but thats okay (:

I'll get Cho to send me her phone pics that she took of them kus I dont have a scanner, but ARJDKFLJSDL (: Im so happy hahaha.

A group of churchies came over for kenny + me's bday dinner today - everyone brought a dish of food and noone has died yet so im thinking thats a good thing LOL. To Tomas, Cho, Rfa, Naa, Peter, Fee, Alfred, Kin, Enoch, Andrew, Josh, Fluff, Kenny, thanks for tonighttttt :DDDD Peter, you're not forgiven for the water incident yet =_=;; and im sorry for punching youuuu but you told me to. P: thanks to you and naa + juu (?) for the pressie and card btwwwww sooo cute, i love forever friends! and the necklace too, but ive got a feeling that peter had nothing to do with the necklace HAHA.

Anyhow, my fs has been filled with a lot of really awesome encouragements lately, so i just want to give a shoutout to those awesome peeps who are really helping me feel less stressed. im really thankful to know that everyone is so supportive (: (: it will be over before we know it.

x

ps. im sorry for not blogging a lot +_+ i will try my best to blog some more ahahaha.

take these broken wings

2010-07-12T23:35:00.003+10:00

64/ encouraging texts make me happy.

Eugh so I havn't blogged for ages.

I just feel so overloaded with so much work ! So close to breaking down from all the stress. Sorry Cho ;_; but gah at that moment I felt like everything was impossible. I sort of still do, but "this too, shall pass".

you've got a friend in me

2010-07-04T00:42:00.003+10:00

63/ birthday wishes makes me happy.

THANKYOU TO EVERYONE FOR WISHING ME A HAPPY BDAY :D :D I'm so grateful to have friends like you peeps haha.

In all honesty I did have a pretty good day, the weather was amazing - not too cold and SUNNY! So that was a good sign already P:

Let's see, recap of today.

Woke up at about 11something LOL because it's a Saturday and I can sleep in! Went online for a few hours and while I was eating brunch (carbonara that I cooked yday! and didnt turn out crappy like my first version LOL) I watched Beauty and the Geek. Dude that show confuses me, but the geeks are literally geeks! And there was this chick on the show that was so bimbo that I just wanted to rip her fake hair out. We then left home at about.. 230 I think to go to Fish Markets with family and we ate loads of seafood (sashimi and oysters aplenty). Steph and I went to go buy tickets for TOY STORY 3 at IMAX afterwards and we passed the massive FIFA FAN FESTIVAL thingy at Sydney Harbour, which was ... pretty cool but actually not that amazing because there weren't that many people there. Ended up getting seats in the first row for IMAX kus most of the tickets were sold out (first row isnt so bad actually) but anyway, met up with the parents back in Chinatown and I was craving icecream so we were going to Baskin Robbins up on George St except then since we walked so far up that street anyway we decided to go to 85degrees instead AND OMG THEY HAD THE ENGLISH CHEESECAKE.

... That was a very long sentence

Parents embarrassingly had a candle which they lit and made me take photos with it in the store D: D: and then we went to Kinokuniya for a while. I couldn't find anything I really liked, although Lily, there was this awesome leather-bound version of Wicked + Son of a Witch for only 25$!! IMO that's pretty decently priced for such a nice book. I would totally get it, but I was too pov ): There was also this awesome leather version of Alice in Wonderland for 25$ also but again, too pov. And honestly, the Wicked book was much nicer.

Okay so then about 545 we had to leave to walk back to IMAX, because TOY STORY started at 630 and rents were like omg we have to get there early because it takes forever to buy drinks and popcorn and go to the bathroom before etc etc. So got to IMAX at about 615, and the popcorn at IMAX is impossibly small for a large +_+; it's like a medium at normal cinemas! But their drinks are impossibly LARGE. LIKE I asked for a small coke and they gave me this massive cup that was the same height as the large but just thinner. It was like, a large Maccas coke. And their large coke was like a litre. +_+ Craaaazy.

OMG I JUST WANT TO RANT ABOUT TOY STORY 3 !!! ITS SO EFFING GOOD. I cried in itttt ): ): ): Lol Dolly warned me beforehand that I would, and I didn't really believe her HAHA. BUT SERIOUSLY, if you're going to watch a movie these hols, WATCH THIS ONE. ITS SO EPPPIIIIC I want to go watch it againnnnnn and again and again and yea- BUY THE DVD! But after it, I had mixed feelings. For some reason, I felt seriously sad and depressed and I just wanted to keep crying.

o_o.

Yes, I don't know why either. I think it had to do with how I viewed myself compared to Woody... which doesn't make sense because I can't say anything without spoiling the movie HAHA.

THE POINT IS, Toy Story 3 is one of my favourite movies now. You know that feeling that you get when you first finish reading the seventh book of HP and you realize the ending and it's like OMG IT WORKS SO WELL WITH THE REST OF THE SERIES! It's like that feeling. Except TS3 isn't about the other two movies, but the feeling about it being a good "final" movie is there.

I love my soft toy collection! :D

Okay so after that I wasn't feeling hungry anymore (probably from all the coke I drank ==) and so we just headed home, where dad made us instant noodles.. LOL and we watched Alice in Wonderland (Tim Burton version).

Why is a raven like a writing desk?

Omg LOL haha. I've been hearing it too much now.

And that's about it. My 17th birthday day (: TS3 made it good hahaha. Love love love love love it. I want a poster now. Hey by the way. I have a question. You know all those movie posters that come out and the cinemas people put them into those frames that you see at the cinemas? WHERE DO THEY GO AFTERWARDS?? Because I really want a Toy Story 3 poster and I'm wondering if it's too weird to ask for one near the end of its time being shown at the cinemas... And there's this HUGE poster of Buzz and TS3 on the outside wall of IMAX.. Can I have that too? :D

loljk.

Actually not loljk because I actually do want that poster HAHA.

I hope everyone else had a great first day of hols! STAY SAFE OKAAAAYYY. I want to see you all back at school in two weeks, full of nerding and smartness for our trials YEAR12!

ps.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KP AND KELVIN FOR THE 2ND OF JULY !

(I can't say yesterday because this posts as the 4th, and yesterday then, would not be the 2nd)

you make me wanna say

2010-07-02T22:32:00.006+10:00

62/ prefects 09-10 make me happy.

Okay honestly I'm not sure if I've used that as a happy thing before but WHATEVER. YOU GUYS MAKE ME HAPPY. So to one of those letter things:

Dear 09-10 Prefects,

Thanks for giving me the best memories of high school, this year has been one of the best because of you guys and our events and how we NAILED THEM ALL. Yus we did (; and I'm so happy that we were so into everything and so determined to make ourselves uberly legendary (which we are, by the way) and I AM SO SAD THAT ITS ALL OVER ): ):

Actually in all honesty I teared up a little at the end when we were all going around hugging everyone HAHA. But that mightve and more plausibly, been because I was sad that Oliver was leaving and that I'm not going to see her for years. Maybe. HOPEFULLY NOT BECAUSE SHE'LL BE VISITING RIGHT! OMG I didnt even take a photo with her! NOOOOOOOOO. OLIVER COME BACK ON THE FIRST DAY OF TERM PLS.

It's been nearly exactly a year that we were told that we were prefects. I remember it was my birthday and you all sang happy birthday to me hahaha. So embarrassing but thanksssss P: hehe. And voting in Captain Alan was unanimous and going to Vinnie's place to film our very first prefect news!! Aka intro. Where Cabbage made me run/ crawl/ jump/ do weird movements to get from one side of the field to another, when the camera shot only took about half of that distance =_=. YES IM A LAZY PERSON OKK P: And I remember how Jack, Ed, Mudi were filming down the street and LOL we had like at least 5 takes of us just running after them, and MR POPO OMG. Best part of the day I rekon HAHA. Chin was epic. But already starting from that day I had so much fun with you all!! I'm so grateful to everyone who voted me prefect because you guys gave me the chance to work alongside the greatest people in this school and just gain so many amazing memories.

OMG REMINISCING IS MAKING ME SAD AGAIN +_+

Linds and I on the bus to Epping.. we were both pretty quiet LOL. Just thinking back on this past year and just knowing that we can't do events anymore, knowing that we don't have any more important prefect meetings or filming for prefect news.. ITS SAD. Like we still had so many amazing ideas! But I do know that for everything that we've done this year, we've done it amazingly (: (:

So to Nik, Chin, Jan, Lil, Jess, Vinnie, Jack, Ed, Lingo, Mudi, Chrishan, Romesh, Grace, Debs, Amelia, Kadi, Captain Alan, Tanya, Bravin, Billy, KP, Yuz, Cabbage, Tim, Frankie, Kat, Linds, Oliver, Chris, Milo, thankyou for this epic year!!

just a feeling

2010-07-01T23:04:00.003+10:00

61/ TAEYANG'S NEW ALBUM makes me happy.

HELLO SOLAR. You are pretty wonderful.

I haven't blogged for ages. Let's just skip over the stuff that's happened for the past few days: muck up, more photos that took forever, src week, steamboat, rehersals for prefect assembly..

Speaking of which, PREFECT ASSEMBLY TOMORROW - PERIOD 6.

It's been such an awesome year being part of prefects.

you are

2010-06-27T17:54:00.002+10:00

60/ Feeling warm and fuzzy makes me happy.

omggg. It's been a few hectic days. Not really. Friday was hectic, I was feeling sick all day because I allnightered Thurs- Fri to finish the 4U journal, WHICH I have to continue doing, because they wanted my first journal tomorrow too. I've realized that I can't ever do all-nighters anymore. I've noticed now that whenever I'm really tired, I get super fidgety. I just can't sit still. So sitting around in epping library on Friday was the worst. It was cold, and I just kept falling asleep at my desk. Actually I was trying to read Suite Francaise I think it was called, but every second sentence I just dozed off. By the time I got home, I basically ate only half my dinner and called Juu to tell her that I couldn't go to the CMI bowling outing that was organized, and then just crashed from.. I think it was about 8 something to 10am the next day. Freaking asdjklsfjlksd. Last week was just horrible. It still feels like there's an overload of work for me to do, and it's killing me! I'm hating school at the moment. Thank goodness there's holidays soon, but yea I realize that it's not really much of a holiday HAHA.

I just finished reading Jess's cadet biv blog, omgggg I definitely miss it so much ! You know why it wasn't the best biv? BECAUSE I WASN'T THERE. Okay you definitely saw that coming right ahaha. I hope none of you are sick, because honestly, not the best time to get sick for school photos tomorrow.

Speaking of which, DAMN MUCK UP PHOTO. All the staff at Uncle Pete's at Towers probably think I'm some psycho for walking around that shop for about an hour, trying to figure out how to come up with a Jessie from Toy Story costume. I hope what I've got right now is enough to make it not that dodgy. It is dodgy. But yea. ANYWAY.

Back to cadet biv.

DID YOU LIKE MY TEXT MESSAGE? :D Literally the longest text message I've ever sent in my life. I think I've said that like.. 23i409892 times, but the point is! It was a record. You guys should be happy. I don't know how much money I've spent on my phone bill in the past two days ahahaha, since I was calling up basically everyone to see if anyone had a red cowboy hat. Nyeh.

Church today was pretty uneventful, except that all the leaders were away on UBF camp so it was all of us younger kids. Had lunch afterwards at Towers with Juu, Peter, Fluff, Feff and Ranen at Red Spoon (dude that's one of my favourite restaurants ever now, the food there is so yum) - it's Thai, for those who've never heard of it (: - and we interrogated Fluff ! SO FUN. We have to do it again. Hahaha.

Bummed around afterwards talking about random crap until it was about 3something, then I went shopping for muckup costume. HORRIBLE, I tell you. I hate dressing up. I'm just not into wearing weird costumes. Bleh. Also bought Mum's birthday present, and I'm guessing rents and Steph bought mine too (; hahaha. Went out for dinner, talked about so much random stuff as a family - actually it was more Mum and I having a pretty decent conversation about schoolies and school in general, and Steph and Dad were playing Paper Toss on my itouch, and pretty much celebrating every time they got a new record. LOL.

And now here I am.

Have I said that I hate winter? I really dislike these freezing temperatures. Like, I just took a LONG HOT shower and I'm indoors and wrapped in about three layers and I'm still shivering. WHAT THE HELL ): I obviously don't have enough fat in me to keep me warm +_+.

Winter also makes my mind get muddled, which is why you all will have to excuse the random fluidity of these paragraphs and weird vocabulary/ grammar.

Anyone know the times for the photos tomorrow? I'm going to have to bring so much stuff ==;

PS. @jess: I was totally there in spirit. HAHA.

But yea, I get it. I really wish I was there too, especially to get the ratpacks HAHA and to have all these in-jokes with you guys and reminisce and just have a freaking memorable and great time. So I'm glad that at least I have annual memories ahahaha, AND YOURE ALL GOING TO TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED ANYWAY! :D :D rightright?

my rents have reinforced sleeping times for me now LOL.

I have to get off the computer by midnight,

I can stay in bed with the lights on until 1am,

but anytime after that, I can't do anything else but sleep.

I complained, of course, kus I like working during the night,

but then they were like "you couldnt even go to camp because you were getting sick!"

...

ive learnt my lesson.

HuH

2010-06-25T00:38:00.004+10:00

59/ teachers who understand stress make me happy.

Mrs Bal is one of the nicest teachers I've ever had. For those of you who don't know, the 4u draft that was due in, I handed in a day late, and she and St Louis were so understanding about it. They didn't rage at me, they didn't force me to drop the subject.. and then again, I had to hand in my journal but it's really un-updated, so I was avoiding Mrs Bal for basically all of this week. She found me today, and for someone to tell her that their 4u was not a priority nor was it up to standard AT ALL, and knowing this person had been avoiding her all week.. she was really nice about it.

I think I hate how I disappoint my teachers all the time. Doyle, especially, for maths. There is nothing I want more than to do better in maths for her, for my parents, for tutor, for myself. I really hate how I can't understand maths because everyone else can do it! So what's wrong with me? Why can't I get this? I understand it if people tell me the answer and how to do it step-by-step, but anything else, and I just sit there and think that all of it is in a different language. Not many things make me happier than getting a difficult maths question correct by myself.

Getting 3u maths marks back today, I was eerily calm about it. Maybe it's thinking that I can drop it anytime. Maybe it was knowing that I didn't do the worst. I'm not sure. But I know that talking to Doyle afterwards about it.. I so want to do better. Every single time, I want to be able to get maths. I'm disappointed that it's not working out for me. I was pretty happy with my history extension mark though, and was disappointed with Ancient =_=;

Actually looking back, I realize that all my teachers impact me so much on my decisions in life. For example, history. I've had absolutely fantastic history teachers all the up to now, which is why, I suppose, I love history - reading and learning about it and just absorbing how and why people did things in the past. Science on the other hand, was pretty dismal. I had a few alright teachers, but it never really caught my interest, and I realized that by looking at all the credits I got from the UNSW comps back in primary for science, that subject was never really my thing - even though I absolutely adored astronomy and I used to think that 'atom' was the coolest word ever made. (Dont ask. I have no idea why, either. I just remember that I wrote down a list of what I thought were the nicest sounding words back in about year 5 and Im absolutely certain that atom was on the list.) I'm also pretty certain that I learnt all my science off the Magic School Bus episodes.

To finish by Sunday:

Updating 4u journal

Trial HSC Ancient Notes

Trial HSC History Extension Notes

Have my Muck up clothes

To finish by next Wednesday:

Something to hand in to Mrs K for history ext

Compile previous English essays (2u/ 3u) - print and edit if necessary.

Start writing English creatives - Belonging/ NTG

To finish by the first Thursday of the holidays:

History Extension Major Work

Notes for Eng 3U

Notes for Eng 2U bar the Hughes essay

To finish by end of holidays:

Trial HSC Economics Notes

For the rest of the two weeks until trials:

Revise as much maths as possible

Drop 3u maths if necessary

PAST PAPERS

REVISE NOTES

I hope this timetable is doable +_+. This is what I get for not working hard enough from all these junior years until now.

CANNOT wait for the weekend. I just have to get through tomorrow, which really, isn't that bad. First pd free for sleeping, second- 4u eng, third- maths with kim, fourth- ancient, fifth- 2ueng, sixth- maths with kim, seventh- eco, probably bludge-y because it's friday and it's last period. I'll have to get coffee for tutoring though =_=; need to get my head in the game for maths.

For now, 4u english journal updating it is.

turn it up

2010-06-23T23:25:00.005+10:00

58/ easy days at school make me happy.

Im not really sure why, but its harder to blog these days. Maybe Im tired, or I have this nagging feeling in me that's telling me that Ive got so much work to do but Im wasting all this time SLEEPING. Im such an insomniac these days. I think sleeping at 2-3am is early. What the hell.

Which is why Im just completely wasted by the time I get home. And then I crash and sleep until about 10-11pm and then I cant sleep until really late/ early again. I think that's why I've decided to not go to the cadet biv this weekend. Every single time that I go on cadet biv, when I come back home, I get sick. And thinking about it now, if I can't handle the right sleeping times for now during SCHOOL time, when am i going to be able to correct it? I'd crash on biv. Not good. I want to cry just thinking about not being able to go on biv. Im superunhappy that I have to miss the last one.

How's everyones muck up ideas going? Im going along with the Toy Story idea with Jay, B, India and Bika. (: (: I hope it's going to be good! I hope school photos are going to be okay ==.

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10 Lasts

1. Cry: yesterday, watching the notebook. it makes me cry EVERY SINGLE TIME i watch it +_+

2. Beverage: waterrr. and before that, soup.

3. Hug: sonya, albeit a sort of failed one HAHA

4. Movie: the notebook.. but i sort of watched that .. not in order lols. so i guess, gran torino.

5. CD played: havnt played a CD for ages. probably cc's mixtape

6. Song listened to: I don't care - 2NE1

7. Phone call: mum

8. Purchase: lunch with fee + churchies for fee's bday lunch.

9. Laugh: on the bus today with Nik, Chrishan, Trafi and Sonya

10. Deep thought: Reading tumblr stuff just a few moments ago.

8 Have You Evers:

1. Dated one of your best friends: no.

2. Skinny dipped: no.

3. Kissed somebody and regretted it: no.

4. Fallen in love: no.

5. Lost someone you loved: yes.

6. Been depressed: yes.

7. Been drunk and threw up: no.

8. Ran away: from home? yes.

6 Things Youve Done Today:

1. Added new MVs to my itouch to watch.

2. Crashed when I got home and slept for a long time.

3. Contemplated about myself (too much)

4. Had fun hanging out with prefect body.. im pretty sad that we only have about a week left!

5. Made a to-do list to finish before holidays start, and a to-do list until trials.

6. ADORED the new allkpop background!!!

5 Favourite things in no order:

1. Family

2. Memories

3. God's mercy

4. Genuinely close friends

5. Technology

4 People You Last Talked to In Person:

(disregarding family)

1. Joyce

2. Nik

3. Chrishan

4. Trafi

3 Wishes:

1. 99+ ATAR

2. Have more self control so Id stop procrastinating and sleep earlier

3. Everyone to stay safe and healthy.

2 Things You Want to Be When You Grow Up:

1. Healthy

2. Inspirational

1 Thing You Regret:

1. Wasting time.

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I think I'll do more letters tomorrow. At the moment, it's hard to think of anything other than 4U.